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Hmm.. things have actually been going ok lately o__O; All I do with my free time is gaia and gaia avatar art.. I have to start studying though cause exams are this week. Fun fun.. I guess I dun have much to say it being the morning and all.. so I'll post an avie art I did and colored on open canvas :3. 
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[15 Jan 2005|10:19pm] |
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Here is a picture of Kris and our daughter :3. Don't they look precious together?
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[11 Oct 2004|12:38pm] |
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Hmm.. Mori just told me that I have not updated my journal so I guess I'll make an entry... I have an addiction to gaia XD.. I know that's not too healthy, but it's not as bad as doing something like smoking and drugs. I mean I have spent money on gaia XD.. But blah.. I've been doing gaia commissions lately. I guess going on gaia gives me something to do. Kris's aim broke so it's not like I can talk to him. He also can't use the phone. Ugh I kinda feel like saying "Well since you can't fucking find a way to talk to me then just do us both a favor and break up with me!" Ugh oh well. I'm trying.. I gave him my calling card #. I'm really trying.. I'm just sick of him not trying at all. It's like he says he loves me but he doesn't show it. Lol.. I asked him to mail me flowers. Well he's too cheap to go buy me some so I was all like "alright, just pick some leaves, dry them in a book, make them look like a flower and mail them." Ok he can't figure out how to do it. I think he's just too lazy to bother. He wont do anything for me unless I basically force him to! It's like does he love me? He says he does.. but just saying it isn't enough for me! He thinks it is.. but honest to God it isn't. I want him to show it and he's always like "well you can break up with me" Part of me really wants to.. so I can be all like.. "you got what you deserve!" I mean I love him to death... but I just well... need to know he really does care. If he doesn't do that leaves thing or get me a new picture of him by Christmas.. I might have no choice but to break up with him.. I just cannot take having me treat like nothing! I wanna feel special.. I wanna be treated with love and kindness... Is that too much to ask for from someone I love who claims to love me? Oh well.. On a different topic.. Victoria called me last week and we ended up talking about vinh. She was actually going to date him.. Well I told her how he treated me.. so she well wouldn't talk to him. She told Trisha what I said.. and Trisha went to vinh saying I told Victoria that he tried to rape me, he raped his ex, and other bullshit. Ugh.. So like people are pissed at me.. I dun care any more though.. They're all just stupid.. especially vinh. He just doesn't wanna admit he's wrong and I bet he's having fun making me look like a complete bitch. His reasoning is that I lied about that cause I'm a liar. -.-;; My friends know I'd never lie like that. *yawn* I'm gonna go on gaia some more XD..
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[04 Sep 2004|05:44pm] |
Here's my newest avie drawing!  I draw a lot but don't usually feel like posting them here.. but I really do like this one
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[19 Aug 2004|06:26pm] |
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Well I'm back from Florida and I felt like posting a new drawing ^-^
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[10 Aug 2004|12:46pm] |
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Well I was in cape cod all of the past week and I drew this picture.. I pmed Joey on animex and asked him to color it.. Here it is..
I adore it..
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[26 Jul 2004|11:08am] |
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Ok Mori rejected my Sailor Moon drawing. Her exact words were: "I've been waiting to tell you that I think you're not quite ready to draw these kinda pics..." Oh wells. I asked Fox to give me some tips on drawing bodies so he did ^^ He's so nice.
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[23 Jul 2004|06:10pm] |
Wheeee.. I'm making the sailor moon profile pictures for DLG. That is well if Mori likes my sample.. Here's my finished work XD 
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I feel so bad.. I cannot really talk to Kris any more. I cannot afford to really call him now.. and well that was like ou only form of comunication. My mother does not want me on aim.. so I can only be on when she's not home which is during the day. Kris's cousin gets the computer during the day so Kris cannot be on till the evening. Ugh... this sucks.. completely. I've been trying to be optimistic so that Kris would not feel bad but it didn't work. Can't Kris see that it's his fault too that we cannot talk? He never stands up to his family.. I read a romance novel once where the guy would not stand up to his father. The woman he loved got raped.. and abused and he died in the end.. Because her father had him killed. I know that story is a bit drastic, but I think people should stand up to their famuily if it's important... so Kris is putting up this whole.. "I feel so bad, you're gonna leave me for someone else cause we wont talk" thing... Errr! When it's his fault too that we cannot talk. I really wish he was not such a push over when it comes to his family. Oh wells. Mmm.. I watched the first half of along came polly today. I had to stop it so I could watch Passions XD.. After I'm done with the movie I gotta scan my drawing of sailor moon for DLG and color it so that Mori can have her sample. So far I have sailor moon and sailor mars done in pencil... only the rest of the senshi to go.. plus the evil senshi XD Ah.... So yeah fun fun. I have work tomorrow night.. Blah.. Oh well.. I need to work cause of the money. I gotta save up so that I can call Kris again.. Wheee.. Here's a random pchat drawing to make this entry some what interesting.
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[22 Jul 2004|05:39pm] |
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Mmm.. the base was made by my best friend Mori. ^-^
It meeee. >> If you can't tell XD
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[14 Jul 2004|07:56pm] |
I've been doing gaia avatar art.. here's one I drew. (On e of her eyes is blind)
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I am so sick of everything. I cannot feel happy any more. I cheated on my boyfriend in May. I still feel terrible about it, but there is nothing I can do to change the past. I have said sorry to him so many times. I thought things were finally starting to get better. I was finally happy and I thought that Kris was happy too, and well that is all I want I just want Kris to be happy… I found out though Monday morning.. that Kris was not happy at all. It was all just an illusion. He told me how he felt bad every day. I can’t believe I could not see it earlier. I was happy because I thought he had been happy but.. None of it was real. He promised me he would be happy from now on, but well I know he means well but promises like that are a bit hard to keep. He’d probably argue with me saying he can keep his promise, and I do know he’d try his best but still… People cannot help feeling the way they do… a single promise cannot change that. Kris keeps saying how I should be happy. I cannot though.. I don’t know.. I mean Kris can tell me he’s happy, but I don’t know any more… I know he’s not a liar… but lying like that is not intentional.
I’m also not happy that someone was on my screen name right now. I’m sure it was vinh. Completely sure. I hate him.
Here’s a conversation he had with my best friend. I think he could have done a better impression of me then that!
Areku Hime (6:28:56 PM): Hello!!! ^^
MoriTenshi (6:29:00 PM): o.o Hello
Areku Hime (6:29:20 PM): Do you still like me>
Areku Hime (6:29:24 PM): >.>
MoriTenshi (6:29:27 PM): o_o Huh?
Areku Hime (6:29:37 PM): noone is liking me anymore
MoriTenshi (6:29:48 PM): *confused* 'Lexia?
Areku Hime (6:30:19 PM): yes?
MoriTenshi (6:30:28 PM): XD Oh, ok.
MoriTenshi (6:30:43 PM): Yes, I still like you. Um-- I thought you said you were going to go ? o.O
Areku Hime (6:30:44 PM): ^^
Areku Hime (6:30:56 PM): I had nothing to do...
MoriTenshi (6:31:09 PM): o.o... ah... huh.
Areku Hime (6:32:46 PM): whats my other sn >.>
MoriTenshi (6:33:08 PM): Wha'?
Areku Hime (6:33:16 PM): my other Screen Name
MoriTenshi (6:33:31 PM): What do you mean?
Areku Hime (6:33:42 PM): i forgot what it was
MoriTenshi (6:33:50 PM): o_O
Areku Hime (6:33:59 PM): im such a ditz ^^
MoriTenshi (6:34:03 PM): e.e
Areku Hime (6:34:50 PM): i dont think i like my life anymore
MoriTenshi (6:35:29 PM): OK, who are you really? 'Lexia soo doesn't act like that.
Areku Hime (6:35:49 PM): ...
Areku Hime (6:35:55 PM): Chris is mad at me
MoriTenshi (6:36:03 PM): XD
Areku Hime (6:36:08 PM): he wont tell me why
Areku Hime (6:36:15 PM): hes soo stupid sometiimes
MoriTenshi (6:36:19 PM): Chris is mad at you, huh?
Areku Hime (6:37:39 PM): no
Areku Hime (6:37:40 PM): lol
MoriTenshi (6:38:04 PM): Oh, what do you mean, then?
Areku Hime (6:38:41 PM): i hate u
Areku Hime (6:38:42 PM): whore
Heh heh… heh… I sadly found that pretty amusing.
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[14 Jul 2004|06:35pm] |
Real update maybe tomorrow...
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[15 May 2004|08:38am] |
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I'll try to make this a little longer than my pervious update... I'm gonna complain about what happened last night. I went to the movies with Vinh, Milton, Nikki, Erin, and Eric. Well Nikki brought Erin and Eric. It sucked real bad. First of all... They ran out of waffle cones for ice cream. -.- The movie was ok.. we saw van hellsing. I didn't even want to see it to begin with. I wanted to go to the movies and see mean girls.. but then Nikki asked me to go and she said she really wanted to see van hellsing and that she and Erin had been planning it for weeks already >>. So I was like ok we'll see that. We got in a little argument about showtimes yesterday though, and when I told her I was brining my friends too she like spazzed out on me.. and was all like.. "It was only supposed to be the two of us!" I was like -.-; Riiiiiiiight. So yeah we had a little argument. Then at the movies... Vinh saw Nikki, Erin, and Eric. I couldn't see them too well cause I wasn't wearing my glasses. Vinh started saying shit about Nikki's and Erin's hair. omfg -.- Yeah that wasn't too nice. Nikki wasn't too nice to me during the movie. We ended up getting into an argument about Poison ivy! omfg cause like when she grabbed the bag of cotton candy from me my arm slid along the edge of the seat.. and I do have pretty bad poison ivy right now. She was all like... "GREAT! Now I'm gonna get it." I was like "no... I've had this since tuesday." and Vinh told her I have taken showers. She bitched at him and said she's gotten poison ivy all her life. omg -.- Even though Vinh has never had it.. he still knows that you cannot get it like that. -.- Well Nikki smaked me in the face with the cotton candy bag.. so I smaked her back. She left with her friends and didn't even say bye. OMG I don't even know what her problem is! I tried to please her. I reallllyyyy did. -.- Ugh... x.x. I give up. I'm not speaking to her unless she calls me and I doubt she will. She always snaps and gets pissed at me for the most stupid things. Like earlier when she was pissed that I didn't call into work and say I couldn't make it cause she wanted to me to go to the dance with her! omfg -.- She told me the week of the dance. I cannot request a day off during the actual week -.- She doesn't understand though! All she cared about was the fact that she had an awful time cause she went with a guy instead of me and it sucked. So basically it was all my fault! -.- She can never understand. She's just being selfish.! Her mother gives her spending money. The day my mom gives me spending money is the day hell melts after freezing over. OMG.. My parents have never given me money for shopping or anything. They just used to not buy me stuff. She doesn't see that me having a job is very important to me.. More important then calling in with some bull story and going to a dance with her. Oh well.. Why can't she just stop being so self centered? Ooo.. I guess I'm done >>
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