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People don't get it [Jul. 18th, 2008|08:59 pm]
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If you whine and beg for someone to be nice to you, chances are, they're not going to want to be nice to you.

That said, five t6 level upgrades (including one actual piece of t6) this weekend. Pretty badass, considering that I bent over backwards to get things running at a semi-acceptable level.

It just pisses me off that someone would try to guilt-trip me into passing to them. If I wasn't being so heavily pressured to do it, then I might have done it, y'know? But I don't feel inclined to be nice when I've been whined at all day....*sigh* And of course, the whining will continue.....maybe I need a break for a while. -_-
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Erk. [Jul. 1st, 2008|03:25 am]
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I actually pissed off an undead warlock. )
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Mehstuff [Jun. 5th, 2008|11:58 pm]
[Current Mood | discontent]

Slight relapse earlier, echoing last year's disaster. Handled it fine, though, and am okay. Was more than a bit freaked out at the time and am still a bit worried.

Made sure my birthday was low key this year; spent most of it with the KS. :) Just thinking about it unravels the tension winding its way through my system.

Random PvP crap )
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VBros [May. 31st, 2008|10:59 am]
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Ooh, spiffy. This is why I like this series so much. Yay character development and depth.
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omg, memeage! [May. 13th, 2008|09:02 am]
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Your Score: Much Ado About...


You scored 27% = Tragic, 52% = Comic, 49% = Romantic, 20% = Historic




You Scored Much Ado About Nothing! First published in 1600, Much Ado About Nothing is one of Shakespeare's most enduring comedies, and probably his most performed to this day. Much Ado About Nothing tells the story of two pairs of would-be lovers and the hysterical events that happen surrounding the wedding. As Claudio and Hero prepare to marry, Don Pedro and his friends, bored with the length of preparation time, take it upon themselves in the meantime to play matchmaker to Benedick and Beatrice, two sharp-tongued would-be lovers whose love for each other is masked by the "merry war of words" in which they are engaged that both of them are too stubborn to lose. Based on your results, we believe you to be a quick-witted, light-hearted romantic who is probably very charming and charismatic. While your stubbornness may sometimes get the better of you, we are confident that you always eventually come to your senses and do what's best. You probably have a lot of friends and we like you too!




Link: The Which Shakespeare Play Are You? Test written by macbee on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
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This is a PERFECT match, IMO. I've always liked Much Ado. Claudio and Hero always struck me as boring, but I love B&B.

Very cool.
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Bleach [Apr. 16th, 2008|12:14 am]
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"The one being rescued doesn't get to complain! You just act the part and stand around trembling and say 'Oh, save me!'"
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Too intriguing a concept for me NOT to at least peek [Apr. 1st, 2008|10:29 am]
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Your Heart is Blue and Green



Your heart is open and dynamic.

You are flexible, optimistic, and expressive.

You bring honesty and intimacy to relationships.

You're good at expressing your needs to your partner.

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Wow.... [Apr. 1st, 2008|10:10 am]
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This surprises me. Not because someone with celebrity status once did this sort of thing, but because it's MADONNA, whose public image seemed to have said something COMPLETELY different.
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Stranger than fiction [Mar. 13th, 2008|11:52 pm]
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I am pretty damned certain that Robot Chicken predicted this.
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Hmm.... [Mar. 3rd, 2008|12:43 am]
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Which Beatles song are you?
Your Result: Hey Jude
 

If you were an animal, you would be a basset hound. You seem overwhelmed from time to time, but positive encouragement and realistic advice can help you pull yourself back up. Learning to accept people is a life-long lesson, but you can always make things better.

Eleanor Rigby
 
Being for the Benefit of Mr. Kite
 
Twist and Shout
 
Here Comes the Sun
 
The Space Between
 
Yellow Submarine
 
All You Need is Love
 
Which Beatles song are you?
Quizzes for MySpace


Works.
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Dunh dunh dunh dunh, dunh dunh dunh... [Feb. 17th, 2008|05:06 pm]
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'Kay, so I finally got around to watching The Holiday again. Definitely one of the exception chick flicks for me personally. Solid movie, way more than just a chick flick, IMO. The guys are real, masculine without being prettyboys. Jude Law's character struck me as being a bit too feminine the first time around, but not so much this time. It's just a quieter, more passive way of being, but it is still masculine beneath the surface. I'm so glad that I watched the commentary track; it put things in perspective on that character in particular. I hadn't realized in conscious terms the difference between the Hepburn/Grant relationships and the Hepburn/Tracy relationships. I'll paraphrase, but Nancy Meyers put it best in her breakdown. Cary Grant's characters were more likely to kick back and let Katharine Hepburn's characters go wild, just enjoying how they were. Spencer Tracy's characters tamed the Hepburn characters, reeling them in a bit. Both sorts of relationships can work, of course, and the Hepburn characters usually needed it. Not so much how Cameron Diaz's character was here. She's strong, too strong to be reeled in like that, but she's not wild like a Hepburn character. Just a really nice overall combo.

Oh right. The post title. Well, The Holiday is as much about a love of movies as it is about love itself. The Indy theme popped up in the movie, which got me to thinking about Indy and such. That's most likely why when The Holiday's website wasn't there, but a link to the Indy 4 page was, I went. I watched the first trailer. And you know what? SO FAR, it does not seem to be entirely ill-conceived as an idea. I'm not completely sold on it still, of course. But hey, Harrison Ford looks decent enough as an older Indiana. I don't mean that in terms of good-lookingness; I mean that at this point, it actually seems like he would still be doing stuff like this at his age. And it's not "omg, who the fuck is that old guy in the Indy gear?" It actually looks like Indy, only older. Which is NOT necessarily a sure thing, in any case, even with the same actor returning. My biggest fear initially, though I didn't realize it until now, was that Indy would not ACT like Indy. But he's still got it, at least in the footage chosen for the trailer. The other thing I'm excited about is that the original "Indy girl," Karen Allen, is coming back. I would be SO happy to see an action hero star actually stick by the original woman. I know, I know. Indy was modeled after James Bond, Mr. Ladies Man. Besides which, sticking with the same woman isn't generally what the action fans want to see. HOWEVER, I think that because Indy is old(er) now, it's a distinct possibility. After all, why bring her back otherwise? It always bothered me that Indy ended up with other women in the other two movies, not so much because I like Karen Allen or her character, but because they had a history together and the others were essentially one-adventure stands. If they're all one time deals, that's one thing, but eh, it seemed like there was more of a commitment with the two in Raiders, though I could be misremembering. Will have to watch it again. Anyway. A far cry from the "no, no, never, wtf?" reaction I've been carrying all this time. Of course, I was paying attention through the consideration of Sean Connery coming back, etc. etc. (IMO, that storyline is done and does not need to be revisited.) It'll be interesting, anyway, though I've gotta say....it's weird as hell seeing everyone so old. Been going through THAT a lot lately. Guess it goes with the territory. Like when you're a certain age, stuff like this stands out more. I dunno. Still plugging away.
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Oh, my ears and whiskers! [Feb. 15th, 2008|01:31 am]
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Dearie me, someone hasn't been posting much, now have they? *pokes herself* It's kind of hard to get motivated, really. I mean, most people who read this journal (even sporadically) aren't actively in my life at the moment. I'm a terrible correspondent when it comes to keeping in touch with people who just aren't around actively....even though, really, I'm the one who left. Sorry if that offends anyone; it's just how I am. I don't really do small talk well and if there's no real interests in common....well, there's not much to say, really. -_-

So yeah. Went back browsing through my past entries cause I knew it'd been a while since I last posted. I just hadn't realized how long! I guess part of it was due to the KS becoming an even bigger part of my life and the former SO dropping out entirely. I didn't want to be insensitive to the latter (and still don't), so while I took a break from posting for a while, I hope enough time has passed now to heal some of the wounds. The KS is really private, so I don't want to say too much. I like what we have and wouldn't do anything to change that. But he inspires me so completely that it's hard not to write about him. All I can say is that he is most definitely the right guy. *deletes several poetic-but-cheesy additions* He seriously is my Muse.

Yeah, I know, pretty different from what I had posted oh-so-long-ago. I had blinders clamped firmly over my eyes at the time because it made things easier. Wrooooooooong. Been dying to post a retraction or just remove the old stuff, but I won't change history like that, so here's the retraction. Well...obviously.

I don't really like talking about RL stuff. Suffice to say that things have been a bit hectic as of late and that I'm tired.

So that leaves.....dunh dunh dunh.....a WoW update. O_o

Cut for the benefit of those who don't care )

Glad to have finally gotten this posted. The first half especially needed to be said. Maybe I'll feel like posting more in the future....maybe.

(An aside: my computer automatically shut down for a Windows update in the middle of my writing this post. THANKFULLY, Semagic saved the draft, but gg Microsoft, having Windows close everything on its own without warning. Assholes.)
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10 Things [Feb. 15th, 2008|12:14 am]
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10 Things I Hate About You got aired for V-Day (naturally). I love that movie. Unfortunately, it's always going to make me a bit sad now. :/
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Maybe. [Jan. 5th, 2008|10:04 am]
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What Nancy Means



You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.



You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.







You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.



You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

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:D [Oct. 15th, 2007|12:00 am]
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:D!!!!





....what, can't I be happy? :o
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Arrrgh.... [Oct. 9th, 2007|07:10 pm]
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Can my body stop betraying me now, plzkthx?
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Oh, and.... [Oct. 9th, 2007|01:27 am]
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I said before that I never felt happier as an INFP than when I finished reading HP7.

This was utterly surpassed by the arrival of the KS.

It was still the most justification I've ever felt at being an INFP on my own.

But he justifies my entire existence and way of truly being.

Just had to amend that. :)
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Okay, so... [Oct. 9th, 2007|01:20 am]
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I keep mulling over everything. Not just life with the KS, but just....everything. There's never been another KS, and to be honest, there's only been one real SO. The wordings and what they mean to me are critical and always have been.

I put too much pressure on myself, so my body decided to betray me today. It figures. This is not the first time this has happened. I need to back the hell up and stop trying to do everything at once. This is way too big for that.

It's so weird being torn between completely internalizing everything and wanting to tell the world. Of course, the world doesn't care or understand (or want to), so the former is easier in many ways.....and I like the intimacy of secrecy. Of course, I'm saying all this here, so I'm leaving it out there anyway. I dunno, it's weird. I can gush and reveal my complete happiness, yet still reveal very little. Can I do both? Am I allowed to? Does it make any sense?

An aside.... there is one known lurker out there who keeps trying to get back into my life. Honey, it ain't gonna happen. You are not the sort of person that I could ever call a friend. Ya done fucked up, kid, and you showed your true colors: yellow. I don't hate you, nor do I even care enough to be disappointed in you. Please, for your own sake, move on. You're not a part of my life anymore and you need to accept that. Public humiliation, anonymous though it might be here, seems to be the only way of getting through to you. But then, that figures. Always so concerned with appearances. I'm not dealing with that ever again. So knock it off. And for god's sake, stop reading this. It's like stalking.

Sorry for everyone else having to deal with that bit of bs; I'm really too open sometimes. Should never have let that one in, even for a moment. Kinda weird to think about, really. With the KS in my life, will I ever let anyone new in? Not to the deep levels; those are for him only and always have been. But the higher ones.... I don't know anymore. Will have to see what happens.

Been very Lord of the Fliesish today. I think that and Harry Potter are the clearest sources of books describing brain fogginess that I know of. I read the former first, obviously, so the affliction shares that name in my mind, though the "flap" isn't quite as accurate for me as Harry's occasional haze. It's like the center of my brain is foggy, murky, and otherwise nonfunctional, while the outer rim is clear, alert, and ready for action. The problem is that the center's fuzziness completely hampers the outer rim's ability to act. It's like being paralyzed. I dunno where all of these words I've been typing have been coming from. I just tend to ramble and they come out. I'm thinking, but not thinking. I don't have to follow a form or structure here, so the thoughts flow without complete coherence.

Good thing tomorrow is another day. Hopefully one without brain fogginess.
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I'm always the last to know.... [Oct. 2nd, 2007|12:01 pm]
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I never posted formally....it all happened so fast.

Turns out that the KS is the person I've been searching for my whole life, but had given up on finding.

My gut was still right and I do need both guys in my life, but my brain screwed up the roles because it was easier to handle.

And yet......I knew.

How could I not?

We share a soul - it's impossible to miss.

I am deeply sorry to the former SO, but I couldn't fight my heart, which finally decided to wake up after five years of abandonment.

(Yes, that predates him; the problem was deeper than that.)

The KS and I were drawn to each other inexplicably, even when we were trying to push each other away or didn't have any reason to logically trust each other.

It. Makes. No. Sense.

But that's us.

We're hard to understand.

The funny thing is that we don't understand most of this either.

We just know that the other makes us happy in ways we had only dreamed were possible.

We're Idealists and ones from the same mold.

This is all to be expected.

It goes with the territory.

This is how things are meant to be for us.

And we wouldn't have them any other way.
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omg.... [Sep. 20th, 2007|03:59 am]
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A kindred spirit? After all these years?

I can't explain it and it's all very sudden...

Never trusted anyone like this before.

Totally platonic, so don't get any funny ideas.

I'm just stunned.

It's like meeting a part of myself.

A different part, that is.

There's still plenty of differences, but the similarities are astounding.

Never saw it coming.

I'm excited. :D It's so different!

Slightly worried I'm jumping the gun, but my gut is pretty determined to stick by this one, and it's only done that one other time. *eyes SO* <3
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