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[18 Nov 2002|11:52am] i died. :( post comment

i'm a lazy ass bitch [22 Sep 2002|02:07pm] [ mood | geeky ] last night after dante picked me up from work, we went home and checked email, and blahblah really boring stuff. we convinced robin to come to pizzaria uno with us because she'd had a rough day (she was doing dishes, cleaning a glass in particular, when it decided to crack and make a niiiice big gash on her hand). so we walk to the square and take the subway to harvard square. we eat the foods, which are always yummy there, and then walk back, barely catching the last outbound train (the one that gets us home). and then dante and i stay up until nearly 3am watching tv. we were looking for pr0n, or at least a reasonable facsimile, but there wasn't *any* anywhere and we ended up watching 80s videos on vh-1 classic.</p> this morning i slept until noon, and then i didn't get out of bed until nearly 1. robin and dante left soon after that to go run some errands. i decided to stay home cuz i planned on straightening my hair today. i eventually took a shower, and then spent nearly an hour blow-drying and straightening. it looks good, though. then i went kinda nutso with my makeup and i made myself look super pretty. yay. then i washed dishes. now i'm here. the lesson we all learn today is: maggie is a lazy ass bitch. 1 comment|post comment

i want my shoulders to fall out of my body [20 Sep 2002|08:38pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | "diary of a sex addict" on skinemax :P ] my roommate asked me to pick up some food and kitty litter for her today, which i was happy to do. and i had IMed dante to tell him i wasn't expecting him to pick me up and that if he was going to, he should call me at work. he lost the IM as soon as he saw it. his computer crashed. so i had to carry shit home. my shoulders are more sore than they ever have been. and that's with the ten minutes shoulder massage i got.</p> i came home and snuggled and watched the last twenty minutes of AI. if you haven't seen it, it's rather sad. i cried. i had a shitty day at work -- hell, all of them are shitty. and i'm getting close to having my period. plus, i haven't had a good cry in a while. i needed it. even though it's now nearly fifteen minutes later and i'm not quite done crying. i'll probably finish later tonite. i'm gonna go eat my fishsticks now. yum, food. 2 comments|post comment

up to early for no good reason [16 Sep 2002|08:15am] [ mood | gotta pee! ] [ music | the magical sound of fingers tapping on a keypad ] so uh, i had an interview at a bank this morning for a telephone receptionist at 10:30. i was told to arrive by 10:15 so that i could fill out the application. i did so, and upon finishing the application i was informed that the woman who was supposed to interview me had been called into a meeting at another branch and, could i maybe drive down there today? no, in fact, i cannot. so i rescheduled for wednesday morning.</p> last night when dante and i were watching tv he elbowed me directly in my right eye. motherfucka did that hurt. luckily i had my glasses on they absorbed some of the shock. but it still hurt like a bitch. oi. soon i will have a livejournal. who'da thunk it? now all i'm waiting for is debbie to dante her passcode. woohoo? post comment

woo, watch me go [15 Sep 2002|02:53pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | whatever dante's watching in the living room ] so i'm here in boston in my new apartment and things are finally starting to settle down. we've got internet and everything now. we've rejoined the 21st century! go us!</p> i took a quiz. go me. i am open-minded! How indie are you? test by ridethefader You're pretty knowledgeable about music in general. You like indie music, sure, but that's only part of it. You'll listen to any old shit as long as it sounds good to you. You're not snobby about music at all, you just like what you like. How boring. Curiously, this makes you popular with the opposite sex. post comment

i just *had* to bring one back [17 Aug 2002|04:43pm] have a blob, eh?</p> post comment

naw, i'm not dead..... [17 Aug 2002|04:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | whatever dante's upstairs neighbor is listening to ] but the readers of my journal are! :D no one bothers to read this, and perhaps it's better that way. not that i worry too much about censoring myself or anything, but at least now no one will know anything about me. whee!</p> i'm boston at the moment. i came out thursday to see dante and i'm not going to leave until i think monday morning when he leaves for work. i'll go home, finish packing my shit, and then drive back here on saturday to move into an apartment in somerville. no, i'm not excited, why would you ask? moving will be a really good thing for me. i spent the day today bumming around town. i went to the aquarium and then went to meet dante for lunch/dinner type meal. i took the subway all by myself without directions. and i even drove back from alewife (parking garage at a subway stop) to his apartment without getting even a little bit lost. i'm gaining self-confidence about this whole boston-big-scary-city thing. it's not as bad as i imagine it to be. and that's a wonderful thing. sigh. i'm still gonna miss sarah... fuck, i'm gonna miss her whole family. i might actually miss my family. who'da thunk it? oi. post comment

meh [24 Jun 2002|02:32pm] so last night i told sarah that i'm sick of mark treating her like an asshole and her taking it. and i know that she told him what i said, later that night on the phone. i don't know exactly what she told him, but i'm considering IMing him and letting him know exactly what's on my mind. motherfucker.</p> so yeah. i'm sick of being in my house. i can't wait to leave. i want to go now. i need to. being here elevates my blood pressure. i have no control over my temper or anything. i get pissed off at just about everything and everyone. my entire family bothers me. i can only deal with them when i'm not around them. figures, eh? in other news, i'm trying to cook. i bought a big bag of rice and some soy sauce, and i'm gonna learn how to make red beans and rice... yum. i wanna learn how to cook chinese food... real chinese food. i bought rice noodles too. yum to eat! meanwhile, i'm gonna go eat chicken. mmmmmmm meat. post comment

yayayayayayayayayayayay [10 Jun 2002|11:02pm] [ mood | giddy ] What Really Weird Thingy Are You? Find out @ blackhole</p> on a totally different note... i got my credit card in the mail today. i was waaaaay too excited. i'll try to not cause a lot of trouble with it. :) post comment

meh [08 Jun 2002|07:32pm] [ mood | sad ] for some reason, i'm really depressed today. i can't really think of why. maybe i didn't take my medicine last night? but i know that i did. i remember that it made me exceptionally sleepy. i just... i'm lonely today.</p> i think that sarah is way more upset with me than she will either acknowledge to herself or admit to me. we spoke for a second on the phone this morning, and i was supposed to drop by earthtones, but i went out to a garage sale thing with mum. then we spoke briefly on IM but she randomly signed off without telling me. i'd been noticing a bit of tension lately, and then yesterday when i brought up some stuff i don't think it served to lessen it any. unfortunately i think that it increased it. i'm really starting to look forward to moving. yes, i'm terrified as hell, but i'll have my boy to snuggle me at night if i have a bad day, and he'll be able to tell me how to get back from anywhere that i manage to lose myself in. sarah is already convinced that we will drift apart and not be friends anymore. maybe she's starting the process early so it won't hurt so much later? but it's bullshit. i don't plan on losing touch with her. she is absolutely one of my best friends, and not having her in my life would just be.... i can't imagine it. i don't want to. so yeah... i'm really lonely. i'm not in the mood for rocky tonite, but i told melissa that i'd go with her. she should be here in like, half an hour. it doesn't exactly give me a lot of time to take a nap or anything... oh well. i wanted to cry before and i never really got around to it. maybe i will now, before i go... or maybe i will later. probably some of both. i also really wanted to talk with dante, but he isn't home. he didn't mention going anywhere yesterday, but i can't expect him to be like me and just stay home all the time. that's totally not who he is. i just wish that he was around right now so i could talk with him. the sound of his voice makes me less lonely. that's really what all of this is, i think. i just miss him way too much. post comment

wow, this is the first time i've ever done one of these fucking surveys [06 Jun 2002|07:45pm] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | does snl count? ] 1. [Spell your name backwards]: eiggam 2. [Where do you live?]: currently rochester, but i'll be moving to boston in a few months with any luck 3. [Describe yourself in three words]: uh, i can't. 4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: if by that you mean people that dislike me, i'd say that just about every that really knows me dislikes me on some level. that's mostly parania about me being annoying. i know that i am, and i think that people dislike me for it. but if you mean that in a "mortal combat" kind of way, i don't have any. 5. [If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?]: oh jeezus... just about anything that you could possibly get and keep well. lemme have a crack at 'em all! 6. [what is the latest you've ever stayed up?]: i dunno. maybe two days? then again, there were quite a few years that i had to take tylenol pm or something every night to sleep and i never felt like i really slept. so i suppose most of my adolesence. 7. [Ever been to belgium?]: can't say that i have. 8. [what's your favorite coin?]: quarters cuz they're the closest to real money 9. [wallet]: a black leather fossil wallet that dante bought me. i made him ;) 10. [brush]: generally my fingers or a comb... whatever is laying around 11. [toothbrush]: uh... clear and purple? 12. [jewelry worn daily]: it had been my claddaugh (sp?) ring, but i lost that on the beach of the gult of mexico with my spare car key 13. [pillow cover]: plain blue 14. [blanket]: this light pink and maroon comforter that i've had since i was like 2 and i refuse to give up... ever 15. [coffee cup]: eh, mum gave me one from krispy kreme when it opened around here. i don't use it much... in fact she's sorta taken it over. 16. [sunglasses]: black ones from a head shop in buffalo that dante bought for me. yes, he bought me the entire city of buffalo... 17. [underwear]: the ones that fit? 18. [shoes]: currently my slippers... usually $4 flipflops from walmart or my sneakers 19. [handbag]: black purse with my budgie dog pin, "lean people suck," and the kids in the hall pins 20. [favorite top]: i dunno. i don't have one i suppose. probly dante's sweater that he refuses to let me have until he gets a new one... then i'll probly want that one 21. [favorite pants]: the ones that fit 22. [cologne]: sometimes i'll put on cucumber melon or midgnight path spray from bath and body works 23. [cd in stereo right now]: lessee... red hot chili peppers - blood sugar sex magik, something by elvis costello, and a third disc that i can't think of 24. [tattoos]: none. don't want any, either 25. [piercings]: i've got three-ish holes in each ear, but i don't put earrings in them because they get all red and itchy. i also have my tongue pierced. whee! 26. [wearing]: black nylon shorts, a supa-old peach t-shirt, and a big grey hoodie. i look like a fucking bag lady 27. [hair]: getting longer. since i cut it the curl more or less went away. it's been straight and i hate it. 28. [makeup]: eh... stuff. generally eyeliner or something easy. if i have time i'll do sparkles or mascara. 29. [in my mouth]: the barbell in my tongue 30. [in my head]: the obnoxious sound of my sisters and their friends talking about all sorts of stupid shit... god they're morons 31. [wishing]: 1, that my sisters would go away. 2, that i could fucking be in boston with my boy and know that we weren't going to be broke or anything bad.... 32. [after this]: talking to my boy if he ever comes home... hoping that things aren't weird between me and sarah 33. [talking to]: no one 34. [eating]: nothin' 35. [you like candles]: yeah, i always feel bad about burning them, though, cuz if they're pretty or anything then they're gone 36. [Do you like hot wax]: only if it's on my face about to pull my eyebrows out 37. [Do you like incense]: yes, especially when my room is stinky or something 38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: not particularly 39. [Fetishes]: uh.... 40. [If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason]: i don't want to kill them, but if i could send my sisters REALLY far away.... 41. [Person you wish you could be with right now]: Dante 42. [What/Who is next to you]: crap that doesn't belong to me 43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: haven't thought about it much 44. [Do you believe in love]: yes 45. [Do you believe in soulmates]: i think i might have found mine :) 46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: not love, but there is definitely some sort of attraction... like... connection... knowledge that something more will happen with this person 47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: not the one where god and jesus live happily in the clouds, but i think that there's some sort of an afterlife 48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: yes, although i'm not sure if it is always as... pure... as it could or should be 49. [Do you believe in God]: i believe in some sort of higher power. i haven't quite been able to figure anything else out about it 50. [What's something that you wish people would understand]: that... we're all different... and... sigh... stuff.... 51. [What's something you wish you could understand better]: myself, especially in relation to other people 52. [What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: fantastically, that all my problems would be solved and i'd live in with my boy forever. realistically, that sarah doesn't hate me post comment

[06 Jun 2002|09:37am] [ mood | 22? ] 22 I act like I'm 22. This test was brought to you by James - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here. post comment

tears [03 Jun 2002|08:02pm] [ mood | peaceful ] sarah and i went to shake-a-paw today and played with the puppies. she and mark left, and i walked to doolittle's petshop. i almost bought a senegal parrot. but i might work there so then i'll be able to play with them a lot. sigh. so yeah. i was really sad about it when i was talking with dante and he actually called me because he knew how sad i was. and i didn't even tell him how sad i was. *hearts* and i'd made up my mind to not buy the bird when he said to me, "i love you, maggie. and i want you to live with me. i don't want anything to get in the way of that. i really want for this to happen." i was sold.</p> sometimes i need to remind myself how sweet he really is. he probably needs a reminder every so often too. cuz he is... he's snuggly and cuddly on the outside... just like he is on the inside... by the way... i'm really zonky and out of it... post comment

meh [01 Jun 2002|09:19am] [ mood | disappointed ] boston fuckers. i didn't get in boston university. quite honestly, i'm not really surprised. i somehow knew that i wouldn't get in. i'm not worthy enough, i suppose. what i plan on doing is getting an AA from mcc. so i'll be taking i think three classes. it won't be that bad. two phys ed classes and a math. off the top of my head, i'm pretty sure that's all i need. i'll stop by mcc's advisement center monday with sarah to figure things out. oi.</p> so yeah. now i'm off to work. what a fucking day. and not only that, but it's absolutely gorgeous out. meh. post comment

dammit... but i *am*........ [01 Jun 2002|08:08am] Find Out If You Are John Stamos! post comment

random trips rock my socks [28 May 2002|07:48pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | my boy talking :D ] okay, so i'm totally in boston right now. sarah and i were driving to hang out with nicole the other day... yesterday, actually... because she was in town for the weekend. we decided to drive her back to boston. whee! we wanted holland to come with us but i think that my petco will hire her, so she had to stay behind. tears. :( i miss her, she was just gone on vacation.</p> so i lied to my bosses. i told them that bu wanted to interview me. it's a very believable thing, so it was all good. heeheehee. i was supposed to work today from 1 until 9:30 and tomorrow from 8 until 12:45... oops? it's worth missing all the hours, though. i miss my boy and i love to see him whenever i have the chance. he's my munkee and... the whole meaning of life is snuggling. whee! post comment

meh... i take quizzes good [23 May 2002|12:53pm] [ mood | bored ] What kind of ANGEL are you? Quiz made by Angela</p> What are you? Visit survey.JUNKIE! post comment

[22 May 2002|07:26am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | the only music on here is my sisters' crap ] i had my tongue pierced yesterday. it's swollen as hell. i'm only in a teensy bit of pain... and it's a bitch to eat. so when i'm hungry i get grumpy. :P but you know...</p> maybe when this heals and i have some money to spare i'll get my nipples done... that was my other idea... post comment

i know i haven't updated in a while [20 May 2002|07:06pm] but at the same time i know that y'all haven't been reading in a while... if they're a "y'all" to speak of.</p> things have been relatively boring. aside from hating my sisters and not being fucking ABLE to wait for the day that i move out of this house. i mean, christ, i need to get out of here and into a place of residence where i won't have to yell and fight my way into getting a shower before i leave for work. i set up a ciclid tank a while back. i've since added a socolofi. and an unwelcome addition was a shitload of algea. tomorrow i plan on scrubbing it down and permanently affixing the live plants i bought today. huzzah! speaking of plants, my mother bought me a huge aloe plant at the farmers' marker the other day. the tallest of the leaves is nearly a yard long. this fucker's big. but it doesn't bend down like my gramma's does. it kinds sticks straight up. i need to think of a good name for him. any suggestions? post comment

[10 May 2002|06:58pm] [ mood | sad ] well.... i'm really slacking on my biology project. woo! go me. meh. and my boy is sick. sadness and tears. i don't want to be here when he's sick and needs me. ...sadness... i want to be in boston and holding him.</p> and my mom is watching the cosby show and i'm rather enjoying it. oi. soon enough it'll be time for me to call my boy. yay! post comment

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