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Friday, November 10th, 2006
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10:35 am
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Self! He doesn't like you like you think he does! Give up and find someone else!
But I can't just ignore these feelings I have towards him? There's still a chance that he still likes me that way, right?
No! When someone says they just wanna be friends it means they just wanna be friends!
But I have this feeling that there's still a chance. I got hope. It's the way I feel around him and the way he looks at me differently..I swear he still likes me but just doesn't know what to do with it.
You're crazy. You're just caught up in crazy fantasies just because he's better than other boys. Go find someone that's almost as good and you'll be almost as happy.
But almost isn't good enough for me...I want thiiiiiiiiis.
Stop complaining. By the way you're gonna be late for school!
Oh crap!
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| Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
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3:50 pm
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no one uses deadjournal anymore.
i'm sad...well just overthinking...i dont even know what i'm thinking about...probaly nothing.
ugh.i hate school.stupid logs.my 87 average in math went down today.blllllaaaaaaarggg.
i wish there was someone always there to tell you what to do when you dont know.is it right to WANT to make the biggest mistake EVER?...i dont want to but it's in my mind sometimes.
"i'll let go.theres just no one,no one just like you.my only one."
stupid song that i love so much.
now i'm gonna go listen to some new BSB.
current mood:  crappy
current music: time is running out-Muse,only one-yellowcard,Incomplete-BSB
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| Thursday, July 8th, 2004
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10:22 am - time for a little update
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Five things I'm scared of:
1. the dark
2. choking
3. heights
4. needles/hospitals/doctors
5. going down hills on a bike and more
Five things I hate:
1. being alone
2. Boredom.
3. un-supportive people
4. fighting with people
5. headaches
Five things I love:
1. Ryan
2. Navessa
3. Mig
4. all my other friends
5. music and chocolate!
Five best friends:
1. Ryan
2. Navessa
3. Mig
4. umm Lidstone?
5. i have no friends.im a loser
Five things I can't live without:
1. Ryan
2. Friedns
3. Computer/internet
4. music
5. chocolate
Five things I'd rather be without:
1. everything i said in things that i hate
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Five things I like about myself:
1. my...ummm....socks...
2. i dont get angry at people....unless i explode....that doesnt happen very much....
3. I'm...nice?
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Five things I hate about myself:
1. lazyness
2. my forgetfullnesss
3. i can't spell
4. i cant tell people when something's wrong or if their doing something hurtful to me.
5. being a girl....it sucks...
Five qualities I have:
1. being lazy
2. i cant think of anything else
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Five qualities I would like:
1. Intellegence.
2. Confidence.
3. non-shyness/being able to talk to more people
4. to be interesting
5.
Five books I recommend:
1. harry potter!all of them...i didnt like the first one though...the third one is the best...the 5th one is good too.
2. Go ask Alice
3. Sliverwing
4. Night
5. umm...
Five movies I recommend:
1. SLC Punk
2. Donnie Darko.
3. Interview with a vampire
4. Spiderman 2
5. X-men 2
Five favourite bands/artists:
1. NOFX.
2. RANCID.
3. Radiohead
4. Muse
5. Metallica/green day/Hanson/nine inch nails/a lot of others
Five favourite songs:
1. maxwell murders-rancid
2. the bag-nofx.
3. Exit Music-Radiohead
4. Unintended-muse
5. i have a BILLION others
Five favourite foods:
1. chocolate
2. Pita Pit
3. subway
4. reese
5. Pasta and tacos
Five of my hobbies:
1. Computer
2. Drawing
3. Writing
4. Movies
5. playing bass
Five people I look up to:
1. i don't really look up to anyone.
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Five things I want for the future:
1. a job with animals
2. money
3. someone who loves me and would never leave me
4. my own place
5. dogs and cats and a bunch of animals!
Five things I want to pass on:
1. i would like for someone to have all my diaries
2. and to keep my beanie babies safe :)
3. and someone should take my pictures as well...
4. but i don't have anything really important to pass on..
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boy...was that ever fun.../not...i should probaly get a bath...or food...yeah i'll go do that. today should probaly be boring..if so i'll take a walk in the park by myself. *sniffle* oh that sounds depressing...o well...bye pies!
current mood:  good
current music: Somebody Told Me-The Killers
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| Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
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11:09 pm
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well.i figured that deadjournal is my journal to write in when i'm not feeling my best...like now.birthday is coming up.so it's my time to have a cry and stuff just before it.well here's my BK entry...
"I hate birthdays! i'm upset cuz i may not get my ice cream cake cuz dairy queen's cake are on back order and may not get them til' saturday.UGH! and it's suppose to rain friday.Birthdays only make me upset.every year i have a pretty bad/boring birthday and it gets worse every year.i don't want it anymore...i'm doing nothing for my birthday.maybe if i pretend like i wasn't born it will go away...although every one will be wishing me a happy birthday that day...which i hate cuz i hate when attension is drawn to me.the only thing good is i get money which i'm using for my trip to toronto to buy stuff for myself and others.i'm glad pretty much no one reads my BK journal :)
i want my birthday to be a normal day.please don't treat me any specialier."
Ryan is trying to help by saying all this good stuff but it's not working well.He did say stff that made me better but...birthdays never go well for me and i'm not even sure if i care or not.i really just want the money from it so i can spend it in toronto.blah.enough about that pointless day!
tomorrow is gonna be bad.i can sence it.Ryan had to work 2 to 6 and then we are going to the mall probaly so he can get my gift for my "special" day.sigh* i suck.i can't even write anymore.i don't want to think about t.it's gonna come,people will care about it and i can't do anything to stop it so my complaining stops.
happy bithday to me!YAAAY!!!!
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| Friday, July 2nd, 2004
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11:17 pm
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Well.i need a place to be crappy...i don't think many read deadjournal anymore so i should be safe from people here.i'm kinda sick and tired of people saying how Adam was the bad one and how he treated me badly,etc...even though he didn't.He treated me almost as good as Ryan does.Ryan is just perfect.I never been treated liek an angel before:)but that doesn't mean that Adam was all bad.he didn't control me.i made choices to not drink and stuff because i didn't want to.adam would get upset when i broke promises...which i did a lot.i shouldn't of made a lot of those...i wasn't forced to do anything.i don't do what i'm told.He was good to me and no one can change my mind on that because no one knows the truth and can see how good he was.he jus wasn't right for me..cuz of him being all "black metal" and whatnot.which is okay,cuz i found Ryan and he is the BESt thing that had ever happen to me...sigh8 i lvoe him so much.He's the first one i really sat back and thought what it would be like to spend the rest of my life with him...when i was with Adam it was like "oh,we're not gonna be togetther forever anyways.." but with Ryan it's so different and i feel so..complete...although i still think i suck at being a good girlfriend...i'll try not to drag this one down:) well...it was nice to rant on about stuff...but now i'll go to bed...i'm frusterated with all this talk about Adam.he's a good guy,just a lot different from us,i wish people would beleive me when i say that though.BYE!
current mood: Frustrated but happy
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| Saturday, January 24th, 2004
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10:20 am
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hello.last night was fun.me,ryan,lidstone,percy,courtney,crystal and shawn went bowling and to don cherry's.fitting in courtney's car was hard though.LOL.
anyways.i have no plans for today so if ya wanna do something call(364-5741)i have to go get earings and i want to go to value village sometime soon and da mall...yeah.
sunday i am hoping to have a study partay with mig for Bio.damn exams.only two more left though!
anywho.i'm bored and hungry.so i shall go now.bye.HEARTS!
current mood:  bored
current music: This Love-Pantera
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| Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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10:09 pm - Cross my Heart
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I like the words to this song.at tiems it reminds me of Adam.
cross my heart, hope to die
i swear i won't say what happened that night
so starting today things are gonna be all right
your best you tried, and yeah you did fine
no better than fine, perfect in my mind
in fact, i wish your heart was mine
and i can hear the memory in my ears
back to the years and all those tears
but hear me when i say im glad we steered that way
because now we're here
do you want to get away? get in the car we can leave today
do you want to celebrate or just make a little holiday?
cus now today is your day
all that stuff you used to take
im glad you threw all that away cus now you look so great
you never need to be afraid just know yuo went the right way
because even though we never get things right
and it gets so old just saying we'll keep trying
but its mine to decide when ill be alright
i know you're going crazy
but happy is all that you make me
and now things are gonna get better baby
i know everything went wrong, OK
but now its time to get some better days
cus i don't want to keep acting this way
cus man i know we never get things right
and it gets so old just saying we'll keep trying
but its mine to decide when and if ill be alright..
and thats just a thing that takes time
so keep going till you know when its time, when its right
keep showing yourself in that light
cus back in school, man that gets cruel
but one thing is true is that man now look at you
your heart is big enough for two
because i can hear the memories in my ears
back to the years and all those tears
but hear me when i say im glad because we're here
i know you're going crazy
but happy is all that you make me
and now things are gonna get better baby
i know everything went wrong OK
but now its time to get some better days
cus i don't want to keep acting this way
cus man i know we never get things right
and it gets so old just saying we'll keep trying
but its mine to decide when and if ill be alright..
and thats just a thing that take time
~o that Emo.time to go and be bored again...maybe study.meh..i'll do tht later.bye.HEARTS
current mood: Emo
current music: You're So last summer-Taking back sunday
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8:25 pm - I want...a chocolate milkshake.
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hello deadjournal and deadjournal friends.ugh.i dnot wanna go to school tomorrow but i have to because of the listening part of my english exam.i should go look at some english terms later on,i suppose.
i have a towel on my head.i just got a bath.it was nice.
so...i'm very hungry and want chocolate.ahhh i dont think i ate chocolate yesterday!*shock*...o wait,yes i did...nevermind.
i have to go pass out resumes.if anyone cares to join me to go to the avalon sometime soon,please tell me or leave a comment.
ugh,i cant beleive mid terms start this week.i dont like how i got math and chem BOTH on friday.i'm gonna die.Bio. will be hard also considering it's all about remebering things which i cannot do.i should go write an essy for mark hickey and make some money...meh.i'm too lazy.
anywho..i'm gonna go get something to eat/drink...well after i talk to Critch.bye.HEARTS.
current mood:  curious
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| Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
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6:50 pm
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ahhhh deadjournal.i am playing bass.im learning moby dick by led zeppeling.o i am cool.ugh i got a heaadache.today was alright.i absolutly HATE school now.meh...but i have to go.damn exams are coming up.im gonna do horribly.o well.i have to go find pills now.hearts.bye.
current mood: sad
current music: Manic Deprssion-Jimi hendrix
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| Tuesday, December 30th, 2003
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4:14 pm
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hello deadjournal,yet again i come back to you...just for a bit.i want to sleep over to navessa house but i dont think i can cuz i might have to babysit tomorrow.i only realized that a few minutes ago.it sucks.i hope i dont have to.me and adam broke up.so that's kinda sucky.anywho.i have togo clean before my parents come back and kill me.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Gravity-a perfect circle
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| Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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9:21 pm - whoa,im updating.
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yeah,i fell in love with my livejournal and ditched this one and now i feel bad so im updating.today was good.i went to my aunt karen's baby shower and ate lots of good food.then i went to mig's house and me and her and navessa,justin and josh had fun.then they left and me and mig did our work after we ate our hot dogs with no hot dog buns.it was fun.our enterprise name is called "Garage Belts" and we are gonna make belts out of seat belts from old cars.yup.i want the peanuts classic holiday collection that u can get a wal-mart for 39.87,*hint hint*....that's way tooo much money to be spending on a person like me.anyways,im gonna go do my night question.bye pie.i heart you.
current mood:  cheerful
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| Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
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5:48 pm - SCHOOL
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so...school started today and yea...there's not much i can say about school....
I GOT MR.NOBERT FOR ENTERPRISE...KILL ME NOW.....please?
yea...im trying to drop writting with megan to get in ThArt cuz mrs.burke is gone so Thart will now be HIP.but i know me and megan wont be int he same class so really it's sucky...why did change them if i think its going to suck...i dont know
before school me and sarah went to megan's house and got ready and went to BJH to see the teachers and to ask if we could coach the vollyball team.that would be hip...but mr.butler wasnt there so we couldnt ask him.we saw Tom!he's a hipster.we talked to lots of teachers.
megans mom then picked us up and we went to BOOTH.for some reason im in a different home room,even though were suppose to be in the same home room...im in mr.taylor's home room...he's gee....i like mr.taylor though,he's hip,i suppose.mark is in my class so at least i have someone to chat to in the mornings.
tomorrow i got writting-chem-bio.-enterprise-math in the order.me vicki and megan are in the same english class...were all going to fail horribly.i heard the teacher is nice though...from mr.leclair and some guy...im kinda excited for tomorrow but also afraid...mr.nobert...he might speak french...DUN DUN DUUUUN....
after schoolio me,adam,vicki,megan,sherry and blaine went downtown and chilled in second page and hava jave.we watched a guy juggle while standing on a basketball...it was hip.he was nice too.
then me and megan went to the avalon to get her pictures developed but there was a mega huge line so we got food instead and left...
i started making a x-mas list yesterday...i dont know why....
im going to go now...supper shall be soon and im having spaghetti(just like navessa!)bye y'all...i love you Adam and Megan feel better cuz u have to or everything will blow up and then thier will be no peace on earth.so there...(im leaving my deadjournal public)
current mood:  excited
current music: im watching a dragonball Z music video...TRUNKS!
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| Monday, April 28th, 2003
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6:45 pm - i did these questions a long time ago and i think i forgot to post them.
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current music: kill me quickly-thrice
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5:29 pm - Watch out for the new millenium!
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HAHA.a guy downtown told us that.us meaning me megan and Adam.it was great.the english exam was hard.it was the worst english exam i have ever done in my life.i kept spacing out and forgting what the hell i was writting about.anyways.after the exam we walked downtown,we meaning megan,adam,blaine,mark and myself.well mark came down later.first we went into music store and i found a good poster to get navessa but it was $10.o well.OLP THRUSDAY!!!!yessa.anyways,we went to hava java which is where we met mark.then we went to second page to look at shirts and crap.me and mig were amazed by the moving mickey and minnie thing.it was cool.then we got the bus and me and megan went to BJH.it was fun.we saw starks.he has a beard.we gave hugs to all the teachers we saw like Mr.Lee and Mr.Whittle and Mr.butler and mrs.ryan and mrs.piper/fisher and my.power,etc.we also gave jon and krista and the mitch dude hugs.we watched the grade 9 volleyball team practice.then me and mig stole a ball and played volleyball with it.o yea.we also visited hardy get-out-of,which is our tree that if u climb it,its hard to get out of.it looked lonly so we gave it a hug.they cutted parts off it,it was sad.we took some pieces of it with us.someone took me and migs lover away from us,yes...me and migs table is missing!!god i love that table(and it loved me more then megan)I used the office phone to phone my mom and when i asked mrs.brooker said "just like old times" cuz i would be there almost every afternoon to ask to use the phone.it was exciting indeed.i feel bad for adam cuz i didnt go to his house,but i told him i was going.everyone is short in BJH.anyways,after BJH we walkled to migs house and i borrowed her Spirit DVD and her amazaling book called "the compass in your nose and other astonishing facts about humans". its the best book in the world.here are some atonishing facts:
-Women smile more then men.
-males typically reach their physical peak during the late teens when the number of orgasms that can be achieved is its highest and erections can be maintained for up to an hour.by age 70,erections last o9nly several mintues9who the hell wants to know this kinda stuff?)
-more then 1,000 people comit suicide worldwide each day
-about 18,000 people are murdered in the U.S each year
-sunlight arouses sex drive
-migraines,allergies,dyslexia,stuttering,skeletal malformations and thyroid disorders are all suffered more by lefties(maybe thats whats wrong weith me cuz i write with my right hand but i write like a leftie)
-some peoples hearts stop beating when they dream
ok im gonnna stop now.anyways,its very interresting.i thinkim gonna go read it then watch spirit then phone people.bye pies.i love you,Adam.
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current music: nothing,im reading.
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9:54 am - cxjkgahr...skjd...pisha
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| Friday, July 19th, 2002
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7:18 pm - hi...this isnt stiff
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hiiiiiiiiiiii stiff!!!... im taking ,mdsklfmklsdjf... im talking to you on the phone right now. Im gonna paste my journal in your journal now because your to lazy to write it yourself... so here is my journal (megan), of what we did in the past few days... here it is:
hiii... nerd. The other day was Matthew's birthday. It was funniful. I went over to his house at around 1:30 and we played Super smash brothers... whiich i suck at. He woould let me beat him up then he would take me and flick me over the cliff and kill me... savage. Then we made milkshakes and Justin came over. We played wormie's on the cpmputer then we went in the room upstairs and watched scary movie... we had a chair to put our feet on and it kept moving away cuz of the floor. It was getting on my nerves. AHHHH MY EAR JUST POPED..ok.. its ok now. Then Adam came out of no where and said he found Matthew's house. We all watched the rest of scary movie.. then we stole the bed in the room that justin had... then justin left... there was a big soft silky pillow that felt nice there... n-e-ways... then we went downstairs on the computer and matthew's mom came into the room with AN APPLE SHAPED DISH!!!!!... na dit had grapes and cheese on it. Me and Justin and Matthew had a contest to see how many grapes we could fit in our mouth at the same time. I could only fit 17, Matthew had 21, and Justin won with 23. Then Stiff came, (I HADENT SEEN HER SINCE THE DAY BEFORE!!!..*shock*) and then we ate hamburgers and cupcakes and cake. It was good. Then we went outside in the field behind Matthew's house and played golf. I never played though because I can barely putt. Then we did... something i cant remember... O YEA!!... we went out in the driveway and the little kids were flicking snails at me and "trying" to beet me up when i was sitting down. It didnt really work though. We played on the scooters and stuff... it was fun. Then we went in Matthew's basement. Its the best place to hang out. We basically were just there until 8, which was when I had to leave. Justin was inside a box the whole time we were down there. It was funny cuz ...it was. Then I left and walked up to my uncles and found out that I could have stayed at Matthew's until like...10. but o well. Then yesterday me and Stiff went to Gull Island. The first 5 minutes we were out there we were bored so we went for a walk. We went down to the beach and flicked rocks in the water until there was no water left and we made a pile of rocks really high. Then we were trying to crack the rocks by fliking them at other rocks. Savage rocks attacked us because I flicked on and little pieces of rocks went everywhere and it hurted. Then we flciked big rocks in the water and it splashed. Then we walked the oppsite way on the path and went into a grassy field that looked like shallow grass until it got up to your hips.. that was fun. Then we went back to the house and listened to music because my aunt only had satalite and not cable, so we couldnt watch spongebob or dragon ball Z. o well. Then we phoned Matthew at like ... 9:30 or 10, and he cant get a gecko because they are too expensive. But he got a PS2. yay. Me and Stiff were playing tag around the pole downstairs (the support thingy) and it was scary because i would run one way then stiff would pop out of no where. I screamed. Then we played the accoridian for matthew to show him how good we were. Evereyone was at the cabin, so we blasted the music. It was fun. Then everyone came home so me and Stiff went to bed and left the radio on all night.. o well. Then this morning, we woke up at 8 and went upstiars and stuff... and we ate breakfast, then we went outside to see the new born pups that the dog had next door. We got it a box and rags to keep them all comfy. Then me and Stiff went to Northern Bay sands and it was also fun. We were writing in the sand. I wrote SOAD. stiff wrote AFI. Then I wrote Meg loves Matthew...then she wrote Stiff loves Adam... then we wrote Navessa loves Justin... and we wrote "vicki". We dont really know who she likes at the moment. o well. Then we drew pictures and walked around in the freezing water. We got numb, so we got out and went and sat in the sand... for some reason we kept hearing these guys whistling at us... we didnt pay attention cuz were taken. Then we took pictures of...crap. and...stuff. We left at 1. We went back to my aunts house and fed the dog water and petted the little puppies and crap. Then we started to come home. We went into some store in Carbonear. I got a discman and some herbal essence stuff... ive got the urge... and i got a little brush. Then we came home. I just found out that the puppies that we took care of today are going to be drowned. I started crying... that was 15 minutes ago. STIFF GOT THE SWEATER!!!... THAT BITCH!!!... she got matthew's sweater..his EXCO one.. the carpet one that me and Navessa and Stiff wanted REALLY bad.. stiff got it...when matthew gets tired of his alfonzo sweater..*cough cough megan*... n e ways... i have to go get food now before i die of... un foodness... BYE PIE!.. i love matthew!
That was my entry. So, yea. Hii. Stiff is a big fat nerd who eats poo all the time...HAHAHAHHAHA.. hello Stephanie Karen Parrott Stone. My name is Megan Nicole McNeill. mmmmm mcchicken. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm pie. ah ha...thats alot of m's. OHMIGOD!!!... your getting an AFI shirt.... savage. im gonna go now... BYE PIE!!! i love you stiff!!!
current mood:  accomplished
current music: air...
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| Friday, July 12th, 2002
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1:40 pm - sigh*
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hi.I want to go do something but now i REALLY don't wanna.Well i don't want to go to the park or mall,their starting to get boring;we go there too much.So i guess i'm having another alone day today.And guess what!?I'm not in a good mood today either!weell,i'm getting better.First i was angry cuz were moving(and i still am)then i was ok and talking to mig and adam and vicki.Then they got in yet another fight about music so i got out of the convo cuz i was about to yell at them cuz they always talk about music,you can only say punk is better so many times...I was afraid i was gonna get mad at them or something and i know i will if they ever start again.They can be really annoying sometimes,especialy with their punk vs. black metal thing.i hate it sooo much!Everything they fight about is annoying.it's gonna make me do something i'll regret later.I won't write down anything cuz I hate thinking and writting about it.It's scary.i wish navessa was back.She's the only person i can tell everything to,even though i choose not to tell her,but i know she would understand if i did tell her and if i remember this by the time she gets back i will tell her.And i know i will remeber cuz i was thnking about it for a while now,well not that long...n-e-ways.I'm gonna miss this house,especially the view;u can see almost all of St.John's....I'll miss my room too.It's pretty room and it might be an ugly purple and pretty but i'll still miss it.sigh*it's depressing.I'm talking to Adam and mig and people now.Adam thinks i should say something about my head always hurting....but i don't wanna go to a doctor.It will get better.It's only been hurting since...umm...may?or april?i can't really remeber.I think it was april.n-e-ways.I'm gonna go now cuz writting in this is starting to get boring.bye pie,I love Adam!
current mood: sad
current music: part of that world-little mermaid
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10:15 am - ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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hi.I'm moving!there's a for sale sign in front of my house.I wanna go and knock it down.The moving part doesn't bother me that much,I just don't like where were moving.It's an ugly house,my house seems like palace compared to the new one.I was in it yesterday.It's an ugly yellow colour and even though my parents are gonna fix it up alot it's still not gonna look that great.Why can't they just buy a house that's already nice so they don't have to fix it up?I won't have anything to do in the night time cuz if we go to a movie the people that pick me up might not be able to drive alllll the way over in Sesame park to pick me up,which means less movies.PLUS i can't walk up to navessa house that much cuz it's almost as far as walking to Justin's house.I'll be closer to Justin then i will navessa or matthew.Mig's house will be the same distance away.Adam will be closest.This house is so nice,why would anyone want to move away from it.If u could only see what the new house looks like,then u will know how i feel.Besides Adam,everyone is gonna be so far away from me!And when adam is at his dad's house i'll have nothing to do!ahhh!i have to have my room ALWAYS clean now cuz my mom said people will be coming in and out looking at the house at any time.sigh*I'm gonna tell them we have pet...ummm....dragons living under the house and they don't like people so they shouldn't move here....if we can't sell this house we won't be moving but since this house is much better then some CERTAIN houses it will sell.so i'm stuck moving.I wish someone like Mig or Adam would get online or something.vicki WAS online but she got off.sigh*I wanna leave and go somewhere today.I'm afraid people will come and look at the house while i'm here and i'll have to watch them go into my room and say "oh this can be so-and-so's room" and then in my mind i'll be like "go away,this is MY room!"but then no one will be able to hear me cuz it'll be in my mind and then they'll buy the house and then we will move into an old shack and "fix it up" while the people who bought this house would be all happy cuz it's already pretty and they don't have to "fix it up".....sigh*I love having a deadjournal cuz u can complain and complain...it's fun.N-E-ways...Yesterday...after i looked at the new house,unfortunly....i went to the park with adam and we stayed there for a while doing nothing at all,just talking,so then we got up and went to Mark dawson's house to get him to come outside,but he had Krista and .....umm....i can't remeber his name...umm...some short kid....alex,yes that's his name...yes...well mark had krista and alex there so then we went in his house and Adam downloaded songs and i watched alex play some game thing and it's cool cuz u get to kill people by running them over and shooting them and it's fun.Mark's mom is really nice too.It's funny cuz they were talking about stuff that u usally don't talk about while parents are there and his mom doesn't care,she's so cool.wow.I'm listening to the sweater song,i havn't listen to this song in a looong while.It reminds me of matthew cuz when he first told us about it during the school year he would always have it on his cd and sing it and it's funny."if u want to destroy my sweater(ah wowowo),pull this thread as i walk away(as i walk away!),watch me unravel i'll soon be naked(eww nakie),lying on the floor,lying on the floor i come undone!"sigh*That's the coolioest song in the world!I 4got how much i loved this song!what other songs were the coolioest songs?umm...johnny.."hello my name is johnny,well hello my name is johnny"The roger part is the best,especially the way matthew did it.o yea! and Clams have feelings too.I remember when me and mig first read the words to that,it was sooo funny!sigh*wow we been though alot together,like the whole group....our "posse"...I HAVE to find that video i made of hardy-get-out-of.well...i know where it is but i need the batery recharger thing for the video camera cuz the tape is in it and to open it it has to be turned on,but the battery is dead.sigh*Adam is online now.I just looked for the video thing but i couldn't find it.I'll ask my dad when he gets home.g2g do something now.bye pies!I love Adam!
current mood:  angry
current music: Drowning by BSB....wow i havn't listen to them in a while.
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| Thursday, July 11th, 2002
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11:32 am - i'm sooooo bored
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hi!I'm bored.Yesterday i went to the mall with my mom and bought these cool black pants and a black tank top,which i'm wearing now.I would wear my black pants too but it's too hot outside.I got really mad today cuz i couldn't find my brush and my hair was drying all weird.It's probaly the only thing that makes me EXTREMLY mad...I made a quiz 4 my frineds to do yesterday and only Katie did it so fay.she got 8 out of 10 questions right.i'm gonna post the link to go to it here,but i don't know if it's gonna work or not:
Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!
hopefully that worked.I'm waiting for someone to get on MSN cuz i'm really bored.I never ate anything yet today but i'm not hungry.wow,katie is online.I wanna go to a movie...i don't know why.Wow adam just phoned me.Were going to the park toady.It's probaly only gonna be me and adam going cuz mig isn't home and vicki is babysitting and....yea....I have to go find shorts...sigh*I should of bought shorts yesterday while i was t the mall.well g2g eat and go on a journey to find shorts.bye nerds!I love Adam
current mood:  crazy
current music: I feel so-Box Car Racer
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| Wednesday, July 10th, 2002
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12:12 pm - ahhh!I'm 15!
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Hi!I just realized that i'm 15 now.wow.that ryhmed.my birthday was alright i guess.nothing too exciting.me and Adam went downtown and looked around and stuff.I wanted an AFI t-shirt but nooooooo they all have to be too big.It's not fair i'm too small!n-e-ways.They have no good AFI cds in any stores and it's not fair.after downtown we got the bus to the Avalon mall.I got a choclate milkshake from dairy queen...it was gooooood.then we got the bus to the village and my dad picked us up there.o yea!Adam bnought me a dragon poster.I love dragons.Reign of fire comes out friday!we have to wait til' matthew gets back on monday to go see it...i don't think i can wait that long!i wonder what everyone is doing today....i know mig is going camping and navessa isn't here and neither is matthew so i guess i only wonder what Adam and Justin are doing today.I wanna do something but my mom just phone and told me i had to clean the house cuz my nan and pop are coming in today.maybe i should do that now just in case someone calls me to do something but i'm really not in the mood to clean.i got alot of cool stuff for my birthday...like reese peanut butter cups.and an ANAKIN POSTER!and a SPONGEBOB POSTER!and a DRAGON POSTER!wow i got three posters...and a few braclets and a necklace and beanie babies and money and stuff.mig slept over last night.we watch my most of my spongebob DVD.my DVD has the spisode "dying for pie" on it!!It's my favorite one...not just because it's about pie...i just think it's funny.I like the episode "wormy" too.it's funny.i miss navessa and matthew!it seems weird not having them around...especialy on my birthday...it was weird not talking to navessa on my birthday.n-e-ways.i got to go clean around the house quickly,but first i got to talk to Adam since he's online now.bye pie!I love Adam!
current mood:  energetic
current music: Days of the Phoenix-AFI
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