Monday, June 23rd, 2003
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10:06 pm
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I think I'm going to delete this journal. If you want to know what's going on with me, go here
it's my livejournal. my client for dj stopped functioning a long time ago and i just kind of forgot about it. *shrugs*
ja ne minna!
current music: The Postal Service-Nothing Better
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(a penny for your thoughts)
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Monday, March 31st, 2003
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11:05 am - buuuuuuuuuudha!
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I swear, I have complete and total faith in my little red and black Buddha. He's such a chill guy I <3 him. He's one of those little fat, happy Buddhas that's like an inch and a half tall. And I always rub his belly and sing his name before I leave the house. This morning, I forgot:
-It was cold and snowy
-I had biology
-I could barely stay awake
I went back home after bio, and before I left, I remember to rub his belly:
-Blue skies and the sun is shining
-it's a little bit warmer
-Art class was canceled
-Saw a sushi platter of a goth boy on the elevator
^_^ granted, I didn't say hi to him or anything, but that's a-ok. Now I have time to study for my 2 drama quizzes, which is nice, because I need to get my grade up in this class.
In other news, I got my uri application in (about fucking time!) and on the way back get it faster came on, by jimmy eat world, and I got so so so so so angry. the song is basically about how you've made it clear you want out of a relationship but the other person doesn't want to end it. And so you decide to cheat on them, because "cheating gets it faster." That would apply to my ex, except for the whole making it clear that she wanted out bit. ( here we go )
current music: get it faster-jimmy eat world
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(6 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
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10:22 pm
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B.D. Wong
I loooooooooove him. Turns out (as the page says) he was in m. butterfly, which i skimmed through tonight. not only was he in chinese drag, but also well-made suits and was completely naked.
why oh why couldn't i have seen it. *sigh*
current music: Sigourney Weaver-Mike Garrigan
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(8 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Tuesday, March 18th, 2003
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12:46 pm
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Saturday, March 8th, 2003
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8:25 pm
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* Pink eye sucks. And I put my ointment on wrong the first time. Oops. i put it around my eye as opposed to in my eye, which is what you're (carefully) supposed to do
*I may not get my stereo back for 7-14 days! :( All I want to do is to listen to my music. *sigh*
*I want to go up to the mall in providence. must call meredith and snag her before everyone else does.
-=-=New Hair Alert=-=-
current music: Avril Lavigne-Falling Down
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(14 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Wednesday, February 26th, 2003
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7:51 am
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~I'm sick and it sucks. This is the third day I've taken out of school. I have a sinus infection and I hate it.
~I'm watching Sailor Moon though, which is wicked exciting. It didn't work on my dvd player but it works on my computer. Score!
~And welcome back from france to a certain nebula-chan. <3
~Oh and I got the ring back.
~I dyed my hair, and now it's like, superman black. It's dark black-navy blue with unreal purple highlights. I just wanted black hair. Now I have Rei/Hotaru hair. sugoi!!!
current mood:  sick
current music: Sailor Moon episode 3
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(9 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Wednesday, February 19th, 2003
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9:37 am
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Ryan Adams' wonderwall cover is wonderful. You should all go download it. Now.
We got . . . 2 feet of snow yesterday and monday. it sucks. i'm not a big fan of snow at all. especially when i had to shovel it.
i need to go get a sandwich now, so i can say i've eaten something relatively healthy today.
current music: Ryan Adams-Wonderwall
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(a penny for your thoughts)
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Sunday, February 9th, 2003
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3:47 pm - I need advice
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Okay. My ex-girlfriend and I, before she dumped me, were engaged. I got her a really nice, $70 ring. It had an oregon (milky, not as rainbow-brilliant as most) opal, with 2 tiny amethysts on a silver band. The ring she got me, was not nearly as nice. There's no vindictive-ness in what I said, it wasn't. The band was not plated all the way, and the stone, (which may or may not have been real) fell out multiple times before I lost it for good. Anyway, I've decided, I want the ring I gave her back. It's a damn nice ring, and I put a fair bit of money (for me) into it. On the initial break-up day, I did not want the ring back, mostly because I had this crazy idea that we would get back together. And we aren't, for reasons that I don't feel like going into at the moment. My point is this: do I have the right to ask for the ring back?
current mood:  confused
current music: Avril Lavigne-My World
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(2 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Friday, February 7th, 2003
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10:26 pm
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check me out.
new layout and a cute userpic to boot. i rock.
current mood:  accomplished
current music: Avril Lavigne-Falling Down
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(4 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Wednesday, February 5th, 2003
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9:45 pm
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i changed my userpic, i think it looks much nicer than the one i had. it goes better with the color scheme.
i'm too out of it to post anything else.
current mood: cold and tired
current music: Coldplay-God Put a Smile Upon Your Face
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(4 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Saturday, February 1st, 2003
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1:51 am - ooooooooh
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i got black hair dye yesterday. i'm very excited. i want my hair to grow out more before i use it though.
i also got a ton of 50% off make-up! yay!
it's getting really late, so i should be going to bed.
current mood:  cold
current music: Coldplay-Amsterdam
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(a penny for your thoughts)
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Sunday, January 19th, 2003
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7:43 pm
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I just deleted my brothers porn. Hahaha sucks to be him, but he got careless, and when I opened winamp there was a porn file on the playlist that was up. I deleted it off the playlist, then searched for the file. And I found the whole folder. LOSER!!!!
In other news I start school on tuesday, and I'm not very happy. Mostly because japanese got cancelled and fucked up my whole schedule. blaaaaaaaaaaah. but tomorrow should prove to be nice. working out and running errands.
Oh! I'm officially trained on deli at work! I can make sandwiches now! And slice meat, but that's not nearly as interesting.
When I'm not as poor, people will be getting cds.
current mood: cold
current music: Coldplay-Politik
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(6 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Friday, January 17th, 2003
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9:05 pm
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i got a fantastic letter of recommendation from a teacher. *big silly grin*
and tomorrow is saturday, and the day after that is sunday. saturday=end of the work week.
everybody should play lunar. it brings a little joy into my life.
even if the dark songstress' song is damn creepy.
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(a penny for your thoughts)
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Monday, January 6th, 2003
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9:50 pm - *huge fuck-off sigh*
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I don't get it.
I have a crush, and it's even worse than my crush on dan. not necessarily because we would clash horribly (cause he's a sweet guy), but because of location. And then there's the whole guy thing and I don't know if I really could handle it.
good lord i keep picking them. I had a rant about this while I was driving home from stop n shop today.
There was a lot of "not fair"s involved in it. I'm pissed man. I want a little bit of happiness. Is that too much to ask?
current mood:  frustrated
current music: Coldplay-Green Eyes
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(2 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Thursday, January 2nd, 2003
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1:58 pm - bonzaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!
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Guess who made Dean's List? Oh yeah, that's right, I did! *dances about*
current mood: accomplished
current music: Avril Lavigne-Too Much To Ask
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(6 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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Tuesday, December 31st, 2002
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10:24 pm
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I don't post in my dj enough, but this is mostly because my client, semagic, only works with livejournal. So I post there more.
However, if someone can help me out with the win32 client, as to why it would disappear every time I tried to use it, I would greatly appreciate it.
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(2 cents | a penny for your thoughts)
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9:21 pm - have you ever hit rock bottom?
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I started to pick on this girl really bad, I had good intentions, I think, but they went down the crapper really quickly.
So tonight, I ended it, I apologized.
I realized I've been harsh. Well, that's not quite the right word is it? I've been really, really angry for the last 6 months, and have been taking it out on all the wrong people. The long and the short of it is that I was engaged. In june, my significant other hit that point where you decided if the relationship is worth it or not, and realized it wasn't worth it. After almost a year and a half. She then hid this for for 2 1/2 months during which she managed to cheat on me and in general treat me like shit, while I forgave her and tolerated it, because I loved her and we were engaged. Then in september she broke up with me. Thus creating the nasty cynical bitch you see (figuratively) before you.
Does it validate what I said to you? Not at all. I've been an absolute bitch, and I apologize.
E-mail me, or not, if you want to talk more: phoenixstar15@aol.com
I'm ending this conversation now, because it's cluttered up the cc too much already.
I did it, pretty much of my own free will, and not reacting to anything anyone else said. I was giving into myself, as opposed to giving into someone else.
I just feel like I've hit rock bottom. I almost cried after posting that. I might just go cry later.
happy new year
current mood:  depressed
current music: Avril Lavigne-Tomorrow
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(a penny for your thoughts)
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Wednesday, December 25th, 2002
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8:44 pm
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7:51 pm - and the small dog says "i'm not happy with my wash"
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Friday, December 20th, 2002
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6:04 pm - scary night
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torrential rain all day. driving home. puddle. car skidded, and did a 360. driver's side front headlight area thudded with a tree. i think the car is fine, and i'm okay.
but i feel like shit. *fetal position*
current mood: see above
current music: Standing Up For Love-Mike Garrigan
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