| HEART WITH NO COMPANION, BY LEONARD COHEN | ||||
| 10:50am 20/05/2004 | ||||
I greet you from the other side Of sorrow and despair With a love so vast and shattered It will reach you everywhere And I sing this for the captain Whose ship has not been built For the mother in confusion Her cradle still unfilled For the heart with no companion For the soul without a king For the prima ballerina Who cannot dance to anything Through the days of shame that are coming Through the nights of wild distress Tho' your promise count for nothing You must keep it nonetheless You must keep it for the captain Whose ship has not been built For the mother in confusion Her cradle still unfilled For the heart with no companion ... I greet you from the other side ... For Malice. |
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amused| I should do something with this journal. | ||||
| 01:27am 08/05/2004 | ||||
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curious| Just to let everyone know... | ||||
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enthralled| The Witchcraft, Jack Parsons | ||||
| 12:46pm 27/11/2003 | ||||
John Whiteside Parsons (excerpt from Freedom is a Two-Edged Sword) ---------------------------------------- WE ARE THE WITCHCRAFT. We are the oldest organization in the world. When man was born, we were. We sang the first cradle song. We healed the first wound, we comforted the first terror. We were the Guardians against the Darkness, the Helpers on the Left Hand Side. Rock drawings in the Pyrenees remember us, and little clay images, made for an old purpose when the world was new. Our hand was on the old stone circles, the monolith, the dolmen, and the druid oak. We sang the first hunting songs, we made the first crops to grow; when man stood naked before the Powers that made him, we sang the first chant of terror and wonder. We wooed among the Pyramids, watched Egypt rise and fall, ruled for a space in Chaldea and Babylon, the Magian Kings. We sat among the secret assemblies of Israel, and danced the wild and stately dances in the sacred groves of Greece. In China and Yucatan, in Kansas and Kurdistan we are one. All organizations have known us, no organization is of us; when there is too much organization we depart. We are on the side of man, of life, and of the individual. Therefore we are against religion, morality and government. Therefore our name is Lucifer. We are on the side of freedom, of love, of joy and laughter and divine drunkenness. Therefore our name is Babalon. Sometimes we move openly, sometimes in silence and in secret. Night and day are one to us, calm and storm, seasons and the cycles of man, all these things are one, for we are at the roots. Supplicant we stand before the Powers of Life and Death, and are heard of these Powers, and avail. Our way is the secret way, the unknown direction. Our way is the way of the serpent in the underbrush, our knowledge is in the eyes of goats and of women. It is our own force that sometimes shifts jeweled coils and [...] mighty pinions in the breast of man; our Power is one with the Power that causes the God to stir in the heart of the seed, and the bud to burst into blossom and fruit; and whenever a man and a woman are united in one substance, our power is that substance. Merlin was of us, and Gawain and Arthur, Rabelais and Catullus, Gilles de Retz and Jehanne d'Arc, De Molensis, Johannes Dee, Cagliostro, Francis Hepburn and Gellis Duncan, Swinburne and Eliphas Levi, and many another bard, Magus, poet, martyr known and unknown that carried our banners against the enemy multiform and ubiquitous, the Church and the State. And when that vermin of Hell that is called the Christian Church held all the West in a slavery of sin and death and terror, we, and we alone, brought hope to the heart of man, despite the dungeon and the stake. II. We are the Witchcraft, and although one may not know another, yet we are united by an indissoluble bond. And when the high wild cry of the eagle sounds in your mind, know that you are not alone in your desire for freedom. And when the howl of the wolf echoes in the forests of your night, know that there are those who also prowl. And when the ways of your fellows about you seem the ways of idiocy and madness, know that there are also others who have seen and judged - and acted. Now know that the power that we serve lies in the heart of every man and woman as the tree lives in the seed. And to be with us, you have but to call upon that Power, and you are as one of us. And when our Power and Joy have come upon you, you may go forth and do your will among men, and none shall say you nay. And if it be your will, you shall do your will secretly, and if it be your will, you will do your will openly, as your will. Therefore lift up your hearts saying, "I am a man" or "I am a woman, and the Power of Life is mine!" And in the Power of Life you shall live and love, accepting no restriction and placing no restriction, freely and granting freedom. And it may be in the bounty of life you shall see the love of life shine in the eyes of another, and the lust of life burn upon his brow, and thus you shall take great joy together. And it may be in good fortune you may find a number such; and share your joy in secret feasting and rejoicing and all manner of lovemaking and festival. Or it may be that at hazard and danger you will teach the joyous power to men; as your wills move you. And this is well so long as you remember one thing. There can be no restriction. The Power of Life is not restricted; it knows its own way, but no mind knows that way. Therefore in yourself practice all the giving and taking of freedom that is consistent with life, for thereby alone can you remain in our joy. Pain is. Terror is, loss and loneliness and agony of heart and spirit, even unto Death. For this is the gateway to the kingdom of Pan. Our way is not for all men. There are those who are so constricted and sick in themselves that the thought of their own freedom is a horror, and that of others a fierce pain; so that they would enslave all men. And these you should shun, or, if you must, destroy them as you will know how, for this also is bounty. Nor think the life power should manifest in those who have no trouble or turmoil, for these may be mere dumb cattle, innocents out of season. Rather does the power often show the most where conflict rages, since at any time, and especially in a false civilization, the way must be won through. Surrender is disaster. The other side of the coin is a song in the sunlight and a dance in the moonlight, where all mists are dispersed. But the way must be won. |
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contemplative| Here's some Garbage lyrics-- Nobody Love You. | ||||
| 02:12pm 27/10/2003 | ||||
Knowing our fate has long been cast Working our fingers to the bone Cause nobody loves you when you're gone, gone, gone, gone Coughing up feeling just for you To find something real to hold on to But there is a hole inside my heart Where all of my love comes pouring out You know you'll always be my man But grab yourself sweetness where you can Cause sooner or later we're gonna die Left to the dogs under the sky I cracked a piece of broken glass I cracked a piece of broken glass Coughing up feeling just for you To find something real to hold on to But there is a hole inside my heart Where waves of my love come tumbling out You say that all the good is gone That I have forgotten who I am Free as a bird Wild as the wind But somehow I cannot let you in There was a time when this summed me up nicely. But I feel a change in me, and I am as frightened as I am excited. Omnia mutantur; nihil interit. |
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| It is good to be Owned. | ||||
| 05:51pm 23/10/2003 | ||||
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| Demon. Har, har. | ||||
| 05:42pm 16/10/2003 | ||||
 You are Form 8, Demon: The Destroyer. "And The Demon took advantage of the chaos and seized civillization. With grace and style, Demon slit The Goddess's belly and drowned the world in her blood. The Goddess, The Demon, and the world were no more." Some examples of the Demon Form are Seth (Egyptian) and The Horsemen of the Apocalypse (Christian). The Demon is associated with the concept of destruction, the number 8, and the element of earth. His sign is the full moon. As a member of Form 8, you are a very strong willed individual. You don't let others' opinions sway your own and you're usually not afraid to speak your mind. However, some may see you as a bit overly passionate but it's just because you never back down from your values. No matter what, you always do everything with style. Demons are the best friends to have because they will back you up. Which Mythological Form Are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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angryThe Gayatri Mantra (For ![[info]](http://www.deadjournal.com:8080/userinfo.gif){kind=small} sita |
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| 10:35pm 13/10/2003 | ||||
Om Bhur bhuvah svahah Tat savitur varenyam Bhargo Devasya dheemahi Dheeyo yonah prachodayaat</bold></big> Just like the Sun annihilates darkness, so does the Gayatri Mantra destroy ignorance. The Gayatri Mantra invokes the power and radiance of the Sun to energize all earthly life, to destroy our sins and to reveal the Supreme Self to us. In a loose translation that cannot possibly do justice to the original it implores: OM, O Lord! You are the all pervading Source of Light, Sustainer, Protector and Bestower of Happiness, Kindle, Enlighten and inspire our Intelligence to possess Eternal Qualities. The Gayatri Mantra is the essence of the three Vedas. It is the Vedas simplified. The more one contemplates and meditates upon the Gayatri, the more complexities are revealed to one. AUM Supreme Lord BHUR Protector of the earth, the material sheath, The Life breath of the Universe. From the feet to the navel center. BHUVAH One of the meanings is the sky. The Lord who pervades and eliminates all miseries. From the navel to the throat center. SVAHAH One of the meanings is the heavens. He is all Bliss and blesses His devotees with happiness. From above the throat center to the thousand petaled lotus. TAT That (That Thou Art) SAVITUR The SUN, Creator, Preserver and Self Luminous, the central mantra of the Solar Science. VARENYAM Most fit to be worshipped. Most choice worthy. BHARGO The burning splendor of the Sun that dispels ignorance, and therefore sorrows and miseries. DEVASYA The 'Deva', The God, He who is All Bliss, The Joyful One, The Shining One, The Revealer of All Glory DHEEMAHI We meditate upon Him DHEEYO YO NA Who our intelligence and Wisdom PRACHODAYAAT Inspires The story goes that once the Devas, the Shining Ones wanted to learn the secrets of the Universe. Since learning about the Scientific aspect 'atoms' etc. did not quite work out, they went to the Lord. The Lord gave them the Rig Veda, The Yajur Veda and the Sama Veda to study. After a couple of eons of study, the Devas lost their patience and wanted to quit. The Lord urged them not to give up and decided to teach the essence of the 3 Vedas in 3 fragments: Essence of Rig Veda Tat Savitur Varenyam Essence of Yajur Veda Bhargo Devasya Dheemahi Essence of Sama Veda Dheeyo Yonah Prachodayaat The more the Devas practiced and contemplated upon the Gayatri, the more complexities were revealed to them. So they lost patience again and went to the Lord to make it simpler still. So the Lord gave them the essence of the 3 segments, in the 3 words: Bhur, Bhuvaha, Svaha The Devas spent a a few cycles of Creation, probably a quadrillion human years pondering upon the 'maha vyahritis' ie 'Utterances of the Lord' but became impatient again and urged the Lord to make it simpler yet. So He Said "All right I'll make it simpler" And He taught them AUM The great western thinker, Arthur Koestler, had once said that the Gayatri Mantra has the power of a thousand atomic bombs! and the famous scientists J.B.S. Haldana wrote: "The Gayatri Mantra should be carved on the doors of every laboratory of the world". I found this at this site. May You find what You seek. |
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| Found at sita's place. |
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I like that very much. Too bad I've never even heard ofthis band. |
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xianvox| Elli's Song, By Peter S. Beagle, The Last Unicorn | ||||
| 08:08pm 30/09/2003 | ||||
What is plucked will grow again, What is slain lives on, What is stolen will remain— What is gone is gone. What is sea-born dies on land, Soft is trod upon. What is given burns the hand— What is gone is gone. Here is there, and high is low; All may be undone. What is true no two men know— What is gone is gone. Sparrows and cats will live in my shoe, Sooner then I will live with you. Fish will come walking out of the sea, Sooner then you'll come back to me. What is gone is gone. Who has choices need not choose. We must, who have none. We can love but what we lose— What is gone is gone. |
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| 05:13pm 29/09/2003 | ||||
 LOVERS "the synthesizer of dualities, polarities, and opposites" You have extraordinary gifts working with people of all ages. You can access your deep understanding, application, and synthetical abilities dealing with the concept of paradox, polarity, and opposition. Relationships are an important focal point for personal growth and development-- you need to feel things changing in a relationship. You have the ability to do multi-level thinking. You have great insite and perception of what is going on with people. which major arcana of the thoth tarot deck are you? short, with pictures and detailed results brought to you by Quizilla That sums me up well, I think. If somewhat ironically. I need some new deadjournal friends. Anyone have any recommendations? |
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| Path of Death and The Soul | ||||
| 04:17pm 25/09/2003 | ||||
10 Failing to kill for the sake of knowledge. 9 Showing fear of Final Death. 8 Acting in an emotional manner. 7 Riding the wave during a frenzy. 6 Showing any sign of the animal or the human inside you. 5 Failing to study death when the opportunity affords itself. 4 Showing no interest in death, or an aversion to it. 3 Displaying overt compassion. 2 Needlessly preventing death. 1 Allowing your emotion to override your logic. (copyright white wolf games,blah blah blah) |
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blah| Mors Aeternum | ||||
| 02:29pm 11/09/2003 | ||||
 Mors ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla Time to get back on track. Here's a death-ritual for your enjoyment. ( Your Enemy's Funeral By Frater Pazuzu 7:7:9 (C) Copyright 1997-2002 Amphigory WITH EXPLICIT RESERVATION OF ALL RIGHTS (U.C.C. 1-207) ) Wasn't that fun? |
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busy| ...and thus we reach an ending and a beginning. | ||||
| 12:07am 05/09/2003 | ||||
I anticipate this will take anywhere from two to three months, which I'm setting for a deadline. But, I have a set goal now, and something to work towards. Life is good. I like having direction and purpose. I freely admit I'm actually nervous. It's a big thing for me, I've invested a lot in this city,a nd I have a LOT of friends here, all of whom I will (much to their surprise!) miss. I even have a handful of people who think they're my enemies that I'll miss. If nothing else, they have been entertaining and instructive. ^_~ SO, if I seem a bit absent or distracted over the next few months, I apologise. I'm trying to wing both paying my bills here, and saving up for there, while making sure I have a place there, too. It's a bit daunting, but, I'm sure it will be exciting. |
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devious| Everything is flowing smoothly. | ||||
| 11:53am 25/08/2003 | ||||
Found out that my beloved is *still* playing little games with people. Pity she's so bad at them. Still, it is her way, and I do appreciate the fact that she still thinks of me.It's almost touching, in a way. (Amor, beloved, darling of my heart...if you're going to do something...for Bog's sake...at least do it well.Doing it shoddily is (while perfectly in character for you) just getting boring and predictable...not to mention it's so inefficient.) :: mwah :: "Cuiusvis hominis est errare; nullius nisi insipientis in errore perseverare." (...although perhaps for YOU, beloved, "Mendacem memorem esse oportere." might be more appropo.^_~ ) |
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restless| Here's a fun way to spend an afternoon... | ||||
| 01:19am 06/08/2003 | ||||
Your motive is a little bit more complex: Evil - It's my nature Stage One To begin your plan, you must first incinerate a pope. This will cause the world to realize something is wrong, horrified by your arrival. Who is this unholy menace? Where did they come from? And why do they look so good in classic black? Stage Two Next, you must desecrate the White House. This will all be done from a space station, a mysterious place of unrivaled dark glory. Upon seeing this, the world will flee in terror, as countless hordes of cultists hasten to do your every bidding. Stage Three Finally, you must release your unholy weapon, bringing about an unending cacophony of screams. Your name shall become synonymous with slaughter, and no man will ever again dare cross you. Everyone will bow before your unbreakable will, and the world will have no choice but to make you their new god. Complete Your Evil Plan !! |
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| Revenge Interview from sita |
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| 02:59am 02/08/2003 | ||||
So many things. Sex, drugs, rock and roll. Living instead of layering.Working. Not being poor. Having money, spending it on things I want.I don't know. Anything, really. What is *your* ideal shape & form? It changes from day to day. Something both mechanical and organic, rigid yet fluid. Sometimes I have wings, other times I have multiple limbs. I usually have a sort of vaguely scorpion-ish tail,though. It depends on when you catch me. Tall and skeletal, with a thin layer of "skin" over a rigid bony frame. Angular mandibles with multiple sets of cutting parts and jaws.It all depends. Sometimes, my ideal form is just my own skeleton, washed clean of all the complications of the flesh, but still capable of movement, thought, and action. What are you personal thoughts about sexual play with dominance & submission? That one is complicated. I enjoy it, but...I don't want it to be the end all and be all of sex. It can add to the experience, certainly, but it can also detract from it if you let it be more than what it is. Still, there is a power in letting others have total control over you,or in totally controlling another. What is your opinion of Earth, & is there anywhere you'd rather be? Why? Earth I don't mind. It's not so bad for a lump of iron and minerals spinning around a yellow star. Nebiros, Planet X, if it exists.If not, then Pluto. I'd have a secret temple built there to the Gods of the Void, whom I would serve as the Hierophant of Oblivion. Why in the world would you want to be immortal & why is it so important to you? I never want to cease to be. I do not want to be forgotten, and I know the only person I can trust to truly remember me is myself. So, I want to live forever, so I will always remember who I am. |
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| thought for the day. | ||||
| 06:08pm 01/08/2003 | ||||
that is all. |
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| Revenge interview from mercurial77 |
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| 04:51pm 13/07/2003 | ||||
The last time I cried was over a woman,about oh, three or four motnhs ago. I'm sure you already know the details. 2. when did you first realize you loved me? Oh,what, I love you now??? I'M KIDDING!!! I don't know, babe. I just kind of gradually came to the conclusion that I far prefer my life with you in it than with you out of it. 3. if there was one thing you could change, what would it be? Everything in the world would be required to make rational sense to me. 4. do you remember the first person you kissed(romantically)and what was their name and how old were you? Her name was Kim Wysocki, and I was...howold..13? !4? i don't remember. She was polish. And she was gorgeous. She was the first girl i ever romantically kissed, and the first girl I ever made out with. She was a babe. 5. what memory from your childhood makes you smile the most? I don't know. Not many of my memories from childhood make me smile at all. |
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