| Diminished |
[14 Feb 2004|12:52pm] |
I spill my heart on to paper.
Words to fill up space.
I hold these thoughts in my head.
Ready for the pen.
Except before it made more sense.
The feeling of it faded.
I'm not a writer.
Nor an artist.
Nothing great or special.
What I write is how I feel.
Diminished when expressed.
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| not good. just putting it here so i dont forget about it |
[02 Aug 2003|11:31am] |
Collect your thoughts and draw your breath
And tell me one more time
Twist the knife and catch the tears
Exploding from my eyes
You shift your gears
accelerate
Raise the stakes
manipulate
Fly around the narrow curves
And hurry up and wait
My bright eyes would not stray from you
With fire from hell I paid for you
On tacks I fell and laid for you
And turned from heavens gate
Detest me now, I'll show you how
Your will takes precedence
Your words to me are arsenic
Dropped in my cup of innocence
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| peices |
[20 Jul 2003|07:33am] |
Spindling spider
Dwindles my hope
Weaving a web of misery
Galavanting about
Despite non-recognition
My imperative actions
Cease to exist
This 10 o'clock curfew
Fox news existence
Drains this essence called
Society
Burn inside
Struggle to get out
My impending doom
Is my own reflection
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| One thought of you |
[29 Jun 2003|07:28am] |
You are the space
between,
me and this pen,
you became this room,
the heart,,
the moon,
the void between all of them.
if you never felt that there was a place where you belong,
well...your welcomed here in my mind,
...in this melodic scarlet song.
you are the brightest thought
that keeps me turning
in these black velvet sheets
have no choice
but to see the lights dim down
and watch the city sleep.
"ever felt that there is no place where you belong?"
well...one day ill be standing before you,
standing like some shy quiet song...
...dont be afraid to bring me along.
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| Anything to prove |
[20 Jun 2003|08:43am] |
No one ever really cared to understand,
No one dares to ask.
Who I am is not from this 3rd stone of your sun,
What I wouldnt give for you to sit with me beneath the stars
and there I can map out my journey, pointing to the clusters of light.
There I can prove to you.
I live my days as if your 3rd world war was beginning.
I live as if it were the last days of my life, all the days of my life.
I have no time to lie, or cheat or steal your heart away.
I have no time to fool you.
But I give these diamond seconds away for you;
To speak with you, to love you, to admire you, to respect you.
And if this was the last seconds of my life:
Id want to see only your porcelin face, your image, carry me to Heaven.
If Im with you, I prove to you that I want to be with no other.
You must understand that I am universaly exhausted,
Searching for someone, anyone to understand.
Im tired of all these lonley faces and broken hearts,
I have no strenght to jump through a fire lit loop for you;
But for you - I will.
Forgive me if I only make it have way through,
But watch me hang off in a limp of this loop,
watch me burn,
watch me die,
for you.
Ill do anything to prove.
Anything.
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| In the Begining |
[20 Jun 2003|08:41am] |
An infinite line swallows its own tail,
a circle is born, out lined in blood.
One thought slipped my mind,
shouting out loud - the name of desire,
one word slipped down the stem of lonliness,
and pricked itself on the thorn of romance,
Loyal soilders:
A thousand other memories followed.
in the beginning,
I thought of you.
The only one who can heal this wound,
And make me whole again.
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| Falling |
[20 Jun 2003|08:12am] |
To first see you;
I lost the Rome structures of my domesticated mind,
I lost cotton viels of illusion to flames of attraction.
I lost my aged sanity....
but found this rose,
dancing alone among the honest.
As if you ruled your own country in solitare.
As if you held your own history and culture,
your own flag, painted the color of stars, that are always
changing.... always wondering.
Always smiling.
I've always saw,
always loved,
always wanted you.
There is no fear,
nor no wall
that can hold me back from you,
babtized dove,
beneath warm blood,
all because of you.
I chose so wisely,
so deeply,
so truely
to be with you.
To rule with you.
To claim history with you.
To cherish you.
To adore you.
Hearts, shedding old scales of armor,
standing naked and blindfolded between two charging armies.
Fearless and faithful,
I drop the stone of lonliness onto the battle ground,
armies rageing closer.
I pick up the flower that grew between the stone.
Splitting it into two:
One man,
One woman.
Even closer the darkness and light charge against each other.
And I, vulnerable, and fearless.
Closer....
I bit my lip to show you that I have much more to say to you.
Closer they scream .....
I fell so wisely,
deeply,
truely
for you.
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| The Three unamed |
[18 May 2003|07:01pm] |
Dangling amongst the stars
in the essence of the night,
falls
a single tear...
Full of love,
Pain
& Regret
It swallows the world whole.
Lick the salt
from slightly parted lips
to feel the shallow last breath,
escape across the stillness...
Limp lifeless limbs
crumple,
to a cold hard ground.
I fall when no one's watching.
Surrounded by the emptiness
left by your unkept wake...
I came to realize,
I'm not alone in my demise...
Dark Valleys
The curse of individuality
makes all of us lonely.
But our unique strengths unite,
and build on each other.
When dawn arrives
the treetops glisten with morning dew.
The fool,
once standing alone,
Is awake.
You do the impossible,
and I'm so unprepared.
Greet me with a thin smile
and secrets that we shared.
You are the prism of my thoughts,
and I the mirror of your mind.
You shatter my reality.
And when I'm dark you're blind.
Wrap your legs around me
and in your juices, drown me.
And run your fingers down me.
Your lips are still so kissable.
Lies slip from them in pairs.
Fuck me though I lay here crying.
Wrapped in your tongue and unaware.
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| Can I Keep You |
[26 Apr 2003|08:22pm] |
I'd lock you in my heart
With all the love inside
But all your love would grow and grow
Until you broke the ties
I'd freeze you here in time
Where I could feel your touch
If I could keep the love so cold
That burns and glows so much
I'd hold you in my mind
In memory's domain
But all the dreams I have for you
Would carry us away
I'd keep you in my arms
And kiss you 'til time's end
Although I know that angel's souls
Cannot be held by men
Perhaps love can't be kept
When prisons try to hold
Although I think I'll keep your love
That rests within my soul
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| Ditty |
[26 Apr 2003|08:21pm] |
Today like never before,
Im Alive.
Tomorow comes and the dreams all gone
but for a second I was free.
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| Wanderings |
[26 Apr 2003|08:21pm] |
Let's take a walk
Into the night
Leave behind our problems here,
Forever
Cant I take a stroll with you?
Lets keep going
Little silences
Long distances
Towards the starts
Pushing
whats that you say?
Pain, Sorrow, Torment
Let these emotions sort of....
Dribble through
Be with me tonight
I know what I'd like to be
I cant, though
Not now
Not alone
Hey, can you take a walk wih me
Past the old... whatever
Here we go
Into eternity
Just takin a walk
With you
By my side
I like those flowers
Incoheretly spoken for
Solid objects making a memory
That should've faded
Sometime before
Pain
Like thorns around my heart
Rip it apart
But you
You
Don't
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| Writting in the shower |
[26 Apr 2003|08:20pm] |
Beautiful boy
Like a Beautiful child
Beautiful mind
A beautiful smile
Beautiful lips
And a Beautiful nose
Beautiful heart
And beautiful clothes
Beautiful words
And Beautiful eyes
Beautiful love
And Beautiful lies
Beautiful hands
Drawing Beautiful things
Beautiful feet
And beautiful wings
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| Never letting go |
[26 Apr 2003|08:20pm] |
[Grr...
My feeble attempts to write something good. Couldnt sleep.
this one sux. not everything is worth reading.]
Letting go
Do i even know how?
Like a bad dream
That pulls at you
Never letting go
Screaming at myself
Forget the Memories
Faithlessness
Apologies
Come back
Dont stay
The Daemons
Inside
They rip apart
Memories concern
Whats this fight worth
Whos fighting for what?
Picking me apart
Its not alright
Starting over,
Tonight
letting go of all thats past
Give me strenght
Give me dreams
Give me truth
Dont leave
Come back
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| Wanted Healing Power |
[26 Apr 2003|08:19pm] |
I see your pain inside
You try to hide from me
But I can tell it hurts
It's not that hard to see
I ask if you're all right
You answer through clenched teeth
"It's Okay," You tell me
But that, I can't believe
I look into your eyes
The torment mirrored there
Relays your misery
I just don't think it's fair
I wish with all my heart
That I could take your pain
Even trade you places
Or just to feel the same
I just don't want you hurt
Because it hurts me so
To see you blink away
The tears that almost flow
The thing that grieves me most
Is the fact I that I'm not there
To help you through distress
And give you all my care
You mean so much to me
I wish that I could gain
Wanted healing power
And take away your pain
-Daphne
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| Time |
[26 Apr 2003|08:18pm] |
Often feeling empty
Alone again inside
Familiar to this heart
Impossible to hide
Never knowing why
I'm drifting once again
Wond'ring if this hole
Will ever have an end
Loneliness may pass
If waited out in time
Patience is the key
Humility sublime
Time is slow to work
I hate to wait this out
One day I'll find the joy
For which my life's about
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| Tick Tock |
[26 Apr 2003|08:18pm] |
A clock is ticking deep within my mind each and every day.
Day by day the ticking gets louder and louder as if it's trying to say.. You've lived the first of your life in your very own way,
WHY ARE YOU LETTING WHAT LIFE YOU HAVE LEFT SLOWLY WASTE AWAY?.
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| abstract |
[26 Apr 2003|08:17pm] |
My face becomes the canvas
I smear mascara around mine eyes
I didn't use brushes or fingers
I simply painted it with my lies.
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| Undefined Champagne |
[26 Apr 2003|08:17pm] |
Fallen along the waste side I see,
I never meant anything to me.
No special maning or hope from you,
all the lies like drops of dew.
Some days I sit, to cry out loud.
Alone and scared, places not allowed.
To see the glass, that empty me;
the glass they all refuse to see.
My life thrown down upon their feet
I have no destiny, no chance, defeat.
The world is cruel I see that's why,
a question unanswered, allowed to die.
My, soul it sleeps, to wake again,
pours me out to drink again.
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| if you do what you've always done you'll have what youve always had. |
[26 Apr 2003|08:16pm] |
Life is just perspective.
Reflected in what we see.
Mirrors with which
the universe see's itself.
But what we saw wasnt there.
Life is like seeing color;
A red apple is seen as red,
only because red is rejected,
and feflected away.
Not accepted and grasped within.
As with what I just said.
Was everything but what I said it was.
An endless waltz, a 3 step pattern.
A triangle;
of discovery, madness and recovery.
But what you saw wasnt there.
To ask if its half empty,
or seen as just half full.
To stop and think and see within
the truth thats grasped inside.
The emptyness that fills the cup
is never seen by eyes.
The gift of understanding,
that lies beneath the skin.
To see within and show without
the emptyness that resides.
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| your portrait |
[26 Apr 2003|08:15pm] |
From a red cheek
drips a frozen tear
Your breath clouds up
hiding death that's near.
Numb skin
veins pumping red ice
Neautral body
Keeps wrists from a thought out slice.
Mind games start knocking
You can't pick fake from real.
Your vision's deceiving
misrepresenting that emotion that you feel.
Hours lost
In thoughts cluttering up your head.
Consequences emerge
misery persuading your desire to be the dead.
But you can't move, you're all frozen
and your heart slows its pace.
This self-earned torment
is forever frozen on your face.
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