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You are viewing the most recent 20 entries November 30th, 2008November 23rd, 2008:
winters when she went down. off her perch, pining for the fjords. worst case scenario put a wire in my head. didn't just bite that live wire, i been chewing the salt off it. we don't go to the doctor, we walk it off down here. but it's been awhile, and what did i do? 2 head shrinkers. the first lost his daughter, didn't want to do nothing but drink and talk. booze and death. not a good mix for me then. the second, she was fun to start. she tended to forget she was married. entirely. had to threaten to sick lawyers and doctors and sober people of all descriptions on her. God and hippocrates says i got to just deal with it. entropy and gravity, booze and just a bad memory gonna hang on her ankles. all them and times gonna throw dirt on her. it has got the point i will buy somebody a shovel. bartendress, late and drunk and dangerous pretty. her, i mean. the drunk part. and the late. and Lord. i guess she's pretty too. it is just that the kissing is something i do well. i don't mean any harm. not the peremanent kind. Jesus,Joseph, and Marys little sister. nobody your age should be that good at it. i mean, in the regular world, instinct will keep you from drowning, but it won't teach you the backstroke. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6C0gm-Oq November 21st, 2008November 15th, 2008November 8th, 2008: innocent as the driven snow. (talking about nothing) girl come by. not to take her ring off, or nothing. just to eat good and snuggle up, and talk about this and maybe that. roast a chicken. lemon and rosemary amd that good crackling butter skin. roast red skins and collards with smoked ham hocks. crusty french bread and no room for salad or dessert. hell, she was picking on the bird before it even cooled. just full enough fits cold weather perfectly, especially with champagne and open windows. she covered us in a blanket, and made me read the greatest hits. the last one. it is so rich and good, i got to read it a sentence a time. too much to take in all at once. "Stolen Moments What happened, happened once. So now it's best in memory -- an orange he sliced: the skin unbroken, then the knife, the chilled wedge lifted to my mouth, his mouth, the thin membrane between us, the exquisite orange, tongue, orange, my nakedness and his, the way he pushed me up against the fridge -- Now I get to feel his hands again, the kiss that didn't last, but sent some neural twin flashing wildly through the cortex. Love's merciless, the way it travels in and keeps emitting light. Beside the stove we ate an orange. And there were purple flowers on the table. And we still had hours. Kim Addonzio" "The Kiss Anne Sexton My mouth blooms like a cut. I've been wronged all year, tedious nights, nothing but rough elbows in them and delicate boxes of Kleenex calling crybaby crybaby , you fool! Before today my body was useless. Now it's tearing at its square corners. It's tearing old Mary's garments off, knot by knot and see -- Now it's shot full of these electric bolts. Zing! A resurrection! Once it was a boat, quite wooden and with no business, no salt water under it and in need of some paint. It was no more than a group of boards. But you hoisted her, rigged her. She's been elected. My nerves are turned on. I hear them like musical instruments. Where there was silence the drums, the strings are incurably playing. You did this. Pure genius at work. Darling, the composer has stepped into fire." "KISS by Reginald Gibbons This charm is green in the red world. Low leaf that opens anyway among dry shells, by a hard road. In the chained world, this charm is free. A private charm against good-byes when you and I release each other -- this kiss we give, these orphan cries we swallow, this turning to a feather. I kiss your mouth, you kiss me back: this charm's a statement and reply -- and a seed, a wedge, a way to take some change into our work today. This kiss is hidden in the border of night. Leaf that is ours, love that is green, give us all more life, more sweet hours and days together again." http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BL0HVYHK Lord. How can you not love her? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2P7J1_hZ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rp-xgWjH October 26th, 2008: I don't even own a watch. I wonder if you can imagine the perfect temperature. The kind that drives right down the centerline between hot and cold. So perfect time stops. And you run round the house throwing all the windows open, wide as they will go. Trying to catch every bit. And when it starts blowing steady, the wind cools a little. The edges rimed with Christmas, with magic, with the faintest promise of winter. The grey clouds take a deep breath of evening blue. All those old oaks have still got their voice now, leaves still cling, and whisper. And you can sit there with your feet on the windowsill. With a glass of something good and a book broke open in your lap. Life is good tonight, tonight I can't see the end of it. Tonight life is effortless. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kdU57tlK : mark strand http://whiskeyriver.blogspot.com/2008/1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NNfDVBP Wait for it (It's along walk to link these 2, but I done it). October 23rd, 2008:
i'd like to see how you'll blame me for that. i didn't do nothing. sitting there, minding my own. not talking to nobody. and all you had to do was walk on by. i knew you were there, i always do, but i didn't even look at you. October 21st, 2008October 20th, 2008: dante was scared of you. what do you think, honey? maybe you are more fun, of course you are. like being pushed out of an airplane. and we measure the distance. experience reckons it, immediately. this is exactly how much fun we can have. there you are , gorgeous and inviting, pure evil and mean to the bone. i'd rather spend time eating ice cream with her, than destroying a hotel room with you. now ask me to write some thing else for you. : 3. 3 licks to get to the center of the tootsie pop. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dO3s5Xht 3 ex girlfriends sent this to me. "change the genders, and it is you theme song. i know this has to be a compliment somewhere, but i am having trouble stretching it to fit. give me a minute. :
i got this thing. it idn't reading minds, exactly. it's more paying attention. there is a million girls in this round world. all point a-ing to b. there is some particularly brilliant colors in that school of more fish in the sea. i feel it sometimes, and step right back. it just ain't none of my bidness, till it is my bidness. sometimes you just can't help it, tho. she's particularly brilliant, or will be. and you know i drink sometimes. girl tonight is just too young. tiny and curvy and smart and pretty and big ol eyes. limpid pools of where have you been all my life. not me exactly, but somebody lucky. every cell in her body is a tuning fork. and he has got his name stamped right on the handle. if you look real close it says "a@@&*($" aw, i'll leave it lay. too much is the same in any language. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbJtYqBY October 19th, 2008October 16th, 2008:
Cinderella Anne Sexton You always read about it: the plumber with the twelve children who wins the Irish Sweepstakes. From toilets to riches. That story. Or the nursemaid, some luscious sweet from Denmark who captures the oldest son's heart. from diapers to Dior. That story. Or a milkman who serves the wealthy, eggs, cream, butter, yogurt, milk, the white truck like an ambulance who goes into real estate and makes a pile. From homogenized to martinis at lunch. Or the charwoman who is on the bus when it cracks up and collects enough from the insurance. From mops to Bonwit Teller. That story. Once the wife of a rich man was on her deathbed and she said to her daughter Cinderella: Be devout. Be good. Then I will smile down from heaven in the seam of a cloud. The man took another wife who had two daughters, pretty enough but with hearts like blackjacks. Cinderella was their maid. She slept on the sooty hearth each night and walked around looking like Al Jolson. Her father brought presents home from town, jewels and gowns for the other women but the twig of a tree for Cinderella. She planted that twig on her mother's grave and it grew to a tree where a white dove sat. Whenever she wished for anything the dove would drop it like an egg upon the ground. The bird is important, my dears, so heed him. Next came the ball, as you all know. It was a marriage market. The prince was looking for a wife. All but Cinderella were preparing and gussying up for the event. Cinderella begged to go too. Her stepmother threw a dish of lentils into the cinders and said: Pick them up in an hour and you shall go. The white dove brought all his friends; all the warm wings of the fatherland came, and picked up the lentils in a jiffy. No, Cinderella, said the stepmother, you have no clothes and cannot dance. That's the way with stepmothers. Cinderella went to the tree at the grave and cried forth like a gospel singer: Mama! Mama! My turtledove, send me to the prince's ball! The bird dropped down a golden dress and delicate little slippers. Rather a large package for a simple bird. So she went. Which is no surprise. Her stepmother and sisters didn't recognize her without her cinder face and the prince took her hand on the spot and danced with no other the whole day. As nightfall came she thought she'd better get home. The prince walked her home and she disappeared into the pigeon house and although the prince took an axe and broke it open she was gone. Back to her cinders. These events repeated themselves for three days. However on the third day the prince covered the palace steps with cobbler's wax and Cinderella's gold shoe stuck upon it. Now he would find whom the shoe fit and find his strange dancing girl for keeps. He went to their house and the two sisters were delighted because they had lovely feet. The eldest went into a room to try the slipper on but her big toe got in the way so she simply sliced it off and put on the slipper. The prince rode away with her until the white dove told him to look at the blood pouring forth. That is the way with amputations. They just don't heal up like a wish. The other sister cut off her heel but the blood told as blood will. The prince was getting tired. He began to feel like a shoe salesman. But he gave it one last try. This time Cinderella fit into the shoe like a love letter into its envelope. At the wedding ceremony the two sisters came to curry favor and the white dove pecked their eyes out. Two hollow spots were left like soup spoons. Cinderella and the prince lived, they say, happily ever after, like two dolls in a museum case never bothered by diapers or dust, never arguing over the timing of an egg, never telling the same story twice, never getting a middle-aged spread, their darling smiles pasted on for eternity. Regular Bobbsey Twins. That story. October 14th, 2008:
Maidenhair Michael Field (Katherine Bradley: 1846-1914, Edith Cooper: 1862-1913) Plato of the clear, dreaming eye and brave Imaginings, conceived, withdrawn from light, The hollow of man's heart even as a cave. With century-slow dropping stalactite My heart was a dripping tedious in despair. But yesterday, awhile before I slept: I wake to find it live with maidenhair And mosses to the spiky pendants crept. Great prodigies there are--Johovah's flood Widening the margin of the Red Sea shore,-- Great marvel when the moon is turned to blood It is to mortals, yet I marvel more At the soft rifts, the pushings at my heart, That lift the great stones of its rock apart. October 8th, 2008: Persephone is stealing from the buffet again. There's a woman, you know there is. she is sweet and pretty and funny and isn't hardly married at all. we don't see much of each other anymore, but sometimes she calls. sometimes her heart is dark as the inside of a cat. and the good Lord knows i can scare up a candle. (course getting fire inside a cat is a struggle at best) 3 am hoarse, and the phone hisses like rainfall. all that echo is regret running both ways. October 7th, 2008: porch talk The Oral Tradition - Eavan Boland I was standing there at the end of a reading or a workshop or whatever, watching people heading out into the weather, only half-wondering what becomes of words, the brisk herbs of language, the fragrances we think we sing, if anything. We were left behind in a firelit room in which the colour scheme crouched well down - golds, a sort of dun a distressed ochre - and the sole richness was in the suggestion of a texture like the low flax gleam that comes off polished leather. Two women were standing in shadow, one with her back turned. Their talk was a gesture, an outstretched hand. They talked to each other and words like 'summer' 'birth' 'great-grandmother' kept pleading with me, urging me to follow. 'She could feel it coming' - one of them was saying - 'all the way there, across the fields at evening and no one there, God help her 'and she had on a skirt of cross-woven linen and the little one kept pulling at it. It was nearly night . . .' (Wood hissed and split in the open grate, broke apart in sparks, a windfall of light in the room's darkness) '. . . when she lay down and gave birth to him in an open meadow. What a child that was to be born without a blemish!' It had started raining, the windows dripping, misted. One moment I was standing not seeing out only half-listening staring at the night; the next without warning I was caught by it: the bruised summer light, the musical sub-text of mauve caves on lilac and the laburnum past and shadow where the lime free dropped its bracts in frills of contrast where she lay down in vetch and linen and lifted up her son to the archive they would shelter in: the oral song avid as superstition, layered like an amber in the wreck of language and the remnants of a nation. I was getting out my coat, buttoning it, shrugging up the collar. It was bitter outside, a real winter's night and I had distances ahead of me: iron miles in trains, iron rails repeating instances and reasons; the wheels singing innuendos, hints, outlines underneath the surface, a sense suddenly of truth, its resonance. October 5th, 2008:
"APPEAL TO THE GRAMMARIANS Paul Violi We, the naturally hopefull, Need a simple sign For the myriad ways we're capsized. We who love precise language Need a finer way to convey Disappointment and perplexity. For speechlessness and all its inflections, For up-ended expectaions, For every time we are ambushed By trivial or stupefying irony, For pure incredulity, we need The inverted exclamation point. For the dropped smile, the limp handshake, For whoever has just unwrapped a dumb gift Or taken the first sip of a flat beer, Or felt love or pond ice Give way underfoot, we deserve it, We need it for the air pocket, the scratch shot, The child whose ball doesn't bounce back, The flat tire at the journey's outset, The odyssey that ends up in Weehawken. But mainly because I need it- here and now As I sit outside the Caffe Reggio Staring at my expresso and cannoli Ater this middle-aged couple Came strolling by and he suddenly Veered and sneezed all over my table And she said to him, "See, that's why I don't like to eat outside." September 28th, 2008: the course of autism never did run true boy called me the other night, in a panic. he has been going out with a girl. 4 dates , he says, and she kisses him goodnight and leaves him at the door. so he's "convinced" her to come over, and he will feed her. he wants to know what to cook. so what does she like? "dunno". you don't know. "no." really. "no". really. "no." well, there was more of this, but you get the idea. i got to go po-lice on him.ok. you been out with her 4 times. "yes" did you feed her? "yes" what did you feed her? "dunno" sigh. where did you take her? "we went to xxxxxx" how was the service? "good" what did she order? "dunno" what did they bring you? "well, they....oh,oh,oh eggplant! she had grilled eggplant!" good. and the next? "dunno" .....whered you go? "xxxxxx" did she eat with her hands? "no, no...salad! she had saladZ!" etc. so, you notice any pattern? "no sex" no, i mean....never mind. she's a vegetarian. "are you sure, she never said...?" yes. "how can..." she hasn't ordered meat in 4 dates. either she's a vegetarian, or she's screwing with you. unsuccessfully, since you are as self-centered as a drowning man. the good news, she's already decided whether she's gonna sleep with you. just don't screw it up. grilled portobellos, hopping john, lots of booze. she's at your house, amazed with your perception, don't give her a chance to change her mind. tell her you like her, tell her why, and apologize for the stupid children you're going to have. you moron. September 23rd, 2008: Most dogs like to sleep so much, you can't bear to tell em about 7 years. "Before She Died When I look at the sky now, I look at it for you. As if with enough attention, I could take it in for you. With all the leaves gone almost from the trees, I did not walk briskly through the field. Late today with my dog Wool, I lay down in the upper field, he panting and aged, me looking at the blue. Leaning on him, I wondered how finite these lustered days seem to you, A stand of hemlock across the lake catches my eye. It will take a long time to know how it is for you. Like a dog's lifetime -- long -- multiplied by sevens." Karen Chase http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jj8oneHU |
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