Monday, August 23rd, 2004
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1:32 pm
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So.
its two weeks until my 20th birthday and a little less than a month until i leave the continent.
which means my wonderful boyfriend rob is having a party for me at an unknown location at an unknown time...
(the weekend of the 11th)...
there are some people out there that i would love to have come down and party...should be an absolutely fantastic night. its a completely private party so i need you to comment to let me know that you want to stop by. no one can get in the day of without us knowning about you (that goes for guests as well).
so let me know if you want to come. i will be sending out invitations to some people but my head is so full of getting stuff together that i don't want to forget anyone.
comment or email.
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Monday, April 12th, 2004
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11:35 pm - well. isnt that a change.
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april 22, 2003
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current mood: interested
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Monday, January 12th, 2004
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4:51 pm
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You are The Dutchess
You have major mood swings. One moment, you're in
the kitchen beating your child and the next,
you're talking sweetly with Alice at the
croquet match. Maybe you should cut back on
the pepper intake?
What Alice in Wonderland Character Are You?
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Monday, December 8th, 2003
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1:41 am
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i hate you!
i hate what you stand for and i hate what you do!
and i thought i could earn your trust, i thought i could trust you. but i was wrong.
you flat out lie to me everyday and a promise means nothing anymore.
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Friday, November 28th, 2003
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9:24 am
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.:x:.
everyone seems to be against me.
why do i have such a backwards look on life?
.:x:.
heroin. just as addictive as everyone says.
.:x:.
people will do anything for you, mostly because they are in love, or at least want to be. don't you think you are being a little greedy?
.:x:.
sleep walking into violent nightmares. the world is topsy-turvy. and no you, no him and definetly no her could ever make it stop. thats just the nature of the world. to make us suffer. to make us feel that there is nothing left. natural selection if you ask me. people seem to think that the government is out to make people mindless drones. i think its the world. the world kills off the people who are poorest and who have minds of their own. it seems to me that the world is commiting suicide. its trying to put americans (and countries like it) in power so it pollutes the world and destroys the atmosphere. kill off all the animals and cut down all the trees to that there is nothing left. or maybe the world is being incredibly smart and realized that it could survive without an atmosphere and with all the polution and is trying to kill off all that lives on it so that i can be in peace. i think it like it when it was just by itself some 3 billion years ago. just floating around in space. maybe it had conversations with the other planets. maybe....just maybe...nah. thats too farfetched.
.:x:.
in conclusion, mr. johnson and the rest of todays science 202 class section F, everything that is created has cells. cells make up who we are. some have a lot and some have a little. and some are seriously lacking in brain cells (pause for laughter). but everyone needs cells to live. that is why we should love them.
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im glad that people don't know how kind and caring you are. or else everyone would take advantage of you. its the way of the world.
.:x:.
why couldn't you just tell me you were with her? did you think i would get mad?
why couldn't you just tell me you were with him? did you think i actually cared?
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there is a saying. "the world is your playground". is that why so many people are getting hurt? they really should find a way to kid proof it.
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as i drain you away i will steal what you have. i will make you loose what you value. and after i will move on to someone else because you mean nothing to me. everyone has his price. you just have one to pay.
.:x:.
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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
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2:29 am
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nothing works anymore.
nothing.
im going to stop. thats it. i tried before. but im going to stop this time.
fuck it. and fuck you.
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Tuesday, October 21st, 2003
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10:05 pm
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x. name = Lauren
x. birthday = Sept 5th, 1984
x. piercings = ears in a bunch of places, tongue
x. tattoos = heart with wings on my back
x. height = 5'2"
x. weight = 130
x. shoe size = 7
x. eye color = Hazel
x. hair color = Real: Blone; Now:Bleach Blond
x. hair length = Past my shoulders
x. siblings = Step-sisters Laura and Christine
x. pets = Blitzen, Kitty Mean, Samantha, Piccola, Stella, Shadow
Last...
x. movie you rented = Bend it Like Beckem
x. movie you bought = Being John Malcovich
x. song you listened to = Some Matt Good Thing
x. song that was stuck in your head = Hey Ya
x. song you've downloaded = RATM with Maynard
x. CD you bought = no clue
x. CD you listened to = NIN Pretty Hate
x. book you read = White Mountains
x. person you've called = Ben
x. person that's called you = Shane
x. TV show you've watched = Faking It
x. person you were thinking of = Care
Do...
x. you have a bf or gf = no
x. you have a crush on someone = Always
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = Yep.
x. you think about suicide = actually just today.
x. you believe in online dating = definetely not.
x. others find you attractive = i think so *smiles*
x. you want more piercings = MY GOD YES!
x. you want more tattoos = MY GOD YES!
x. you drink = sometimes
x. you do drugs = sometimes
x. you smoke = sometimes
x. you like cleaning = nope
x. you like roller coasters = love them like nancy.
x. you write in cursive or print = a mixture of both
x. you carry a donor card = usually... but i think i had to take it out when i last cleaned out my wallet.
For or against
x. long distance relationships = never experienced long term stuff
x. using someone = very against.
x. suicide = how can i be for suicide?
x. killing people = i wish i could.
x. teenage smoking = i have no opinion. its not my business.
x. doing drugs = im for. no reason to not expand you mind.
x. premarital sex = NO! only people who are EVIL and are taken over by the Devil allow such blasphemy!
x. driving drunk = im against.
x. gay/lesbian relationships = quite for
x. soap operas = not completely against.
Favorite...
x. food[s] = chinese food
x. song = Perfect Drug - NIN
x. thing to do = um. stuff?
x. thing to talk about = i like politics.. and when people talk about how they love me =)
x. sports = ew.
x. drinks = Diet Coke, Rootbeer, CreamSoda
x. clothes = ANY! well..almost.
x. movies = gah.. to many!
x. band = no favourite. but pumpkins are up there.
x. holiday = halloween. you can get really cool stuff fromthe dollar store
x. cars = 323 Mazda, Red. my only love.
Have you...
x. ever cried over a girl = yes
x. ever lied to someone = yes
x. ever been in a fist fight = Yes.
What....
x. shampoo do you use = some weird green stuff.
x. cologne do you use = tommy girl *i know i know*
x. shoes do you wear = lots!
x. are you scared of = not much.
Number...
x. of times I have been in love? 1
x. of times I have had my heart broken? 2
x. of hearts I have broken? = none, im pretty sure.
x. of boys I have kissed? = what kind of kiss? if any kiss like 50.
x. of girls I have kissed? = same as above.
x. of continents I have lived in? = 1
x. of drugs taken illegally? = different? 8
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life friends? = um. a couple.
x. of people I consider my enemies? = just one. maybe two... ok three.
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? = jsut a few. i feel bad. but i really didn't like my high school.
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = a bunch...
x. of scars on my body? = 3 but maybe more.
x. of things in my past that I regret? = i don't regret much... jsut a few things
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Monday, October 20th, 2003
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9:56 pm
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and so his name was kitty mean
the smallest thing you'd ever seen
so soft and white
but had quite a bite
my only addiction, kitty mean.
current mood:  amused
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Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
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11:41 pm
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i feel good... even tho i know whats going on. i still feel good. i haven't been feeling this way in a long time. but i feel happy. im still just as i used to be with everything else. i just feel better with myself these days. im trying to forget about everything else.
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Monday, October 13th, 2003
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3:59 am
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So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing
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Saturday, September 13th, 2003
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8:33 pm
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Thursday, September 4th, 2003
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6:14 pm
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ok this is realy weird.
i dont'know what is happening to me.
i only got like 3 hours sleep last night which would notmally mean i would be exusted... but im not.. im WAY overly emotional (cry several times today), and COMPLETELY jittery. i can't stop moving, i can't close my eyes... and my mind is fucked... does anyone know if this is jsut over exustion or do i actually have something to semi-worry about. i mean im not going to the hospital or anything.. but is it more than a little sleep can fix...
im so cunfused and nervous. everything is screwy..
i want to just stay in bed tomorrow. why do i have to have 9 hours of school on my birthday????
current mood:  hyper
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12:54 am
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you know... you matter more to me then you know...
yes, YOU!!!
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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
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1:21 am
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can someone PLEASE help me!!!!!!!
you know that episode of the simpsons where the teachers go on strike and lisa goes nuts cause she doens't have teachers to grade her.
well thats how i feel right now... no one is telling me how im doing. and i really need to know... for my own metal state. but the problem is is everyone is like marge... they just hand out a grade... i need a real one. one that comes from people i really know and spend time with... but none of them are either around or willing to grade me. i have thought that i worked hard... but maybe im just blinding myself. making myself think that im doing a good job. much like in school i pretend for the longest time that im not failing.. that im fine.. until it hits a point in the term where there is no turning back.. there is no leeway for me.. no buffer zone... so i actually have to start working... but without anyone telling me where stand i will always think i am passing and won't do anything mroe than keep up what i am doing.
GRADE ME! GRADE ME!
current mood: alone
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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
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10:27 am
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you always make me worry... but you seem to always come thru in the end....
so why do i worry?
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Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
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2:11 pm
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so its 2 in the afternoon. i just spent 8 hours sleeping (which is not enough for me), and i have to go to school still and do LOTS of work because i meant to do it last night but i ended up forgeting my pass card and wasting almsot and hour and half getting to and from school. bah. i didn't go to the bovine cause i didn't have the money for the cover and i am still worried about my card working. i can wait all of 9 days until im legal.
so i tired and sad cause ben forgot i was on the phone again... i waited there for like 20 mintues and then finally hung up.. he called me about 10 minutes later... garg.. then he left fot the night to go to millars andnever called me like he was supposed to.
i was up till about 6:30 playing simcity. i love that game. haven't had it since the original and i just downloaded it yesteday and play it for about 5 hours.. it was cool!!!
i watched 4 episodes of star trek last night. 2 on my computer and 2 on tv... yeah me! i love star trek.. and its amazing how big of a geek i have become. i know the episodes after the first 2 minutes and i also have a good idea which season each of them are in. (4 and up get more difficult).
i scratched my cornia last night again.. the fan was on and i sat up to get my phone and i blew right into my eyes and *ouch*. oh well. its not bad.. just really blurry.
im getting more and more excited for the clothingshow..
i have little baggies with my company and website on them with candy im going to give to people who buy somehitng. you have a choice of big feet, sour watermellons an juicy fruit. its cool. i also have a bunch of bracelets, collars and barbells i will be sellingforcheap!!! like $5-7.50 for a barbell (with balls)!! can you believe your eyes! only $5!!!! i only have ones for belly buttons and tongue but the tongue ones are straight so youcan put them just about anywhere.. mind you you could do that withth curved ones to...hm. interesting.
what else... i can't really recall anything else interesting.
im goiung to watch tv and play sim city now...
bye
love you so much it makes me sick
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Monday, August 25th, 2003
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7:45 pm
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well... um
i dunno. i was going to update with something cause its has been a while since i did...
um well my birthday is coming up soon, and i expect a 92% forget rate from my friends.
im not having a party. im going to dinner with my mom and getting my dad to give me his beer (he makes his own and its the only beer i will drink.. its that good).
other than that i have absolutly no plans for my birthday at all. people haven't really asked me to do anythign either.. not that im suprised.. most don't even know how old im turning.
most people don't actually know when my birthday is and the only reason why they remember is dead journal and live journal send out a thing on the persons birthday.
oh well... not that i mind too much. it just kinda sad that people don't remember.
well... i have star trek to watch and cake and oreos to eat.
i love price chopper.
current mood:  loved
current music: Mediaeval Baebes - How Death Comes
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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1:40 pm
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i just wanted to let everyone know that yet again next month i will be joining the many great stores in the clothing show.
its september 20th and 21st at the automotive building in the CNE.
i will be located in booth 121... its on the left when you walk in the front doors in a corner booth.
i will have a lot of new stuff there (calling lip service today to get stuff) and some old stuff.
if you want to see some of the things i will probably have there check out:
http://fade.to/misstragedys
if you want to know more about the clothing show go to: http://www.theclothingshow.com
i will try and get some pictures up of things im ordering so you have so idea.
i will also have catalogues from demonia (shoes and purses) that you can order directly from.
i will have some purses there too that you can get right away.
well... hope to see you there... =)
current mood:  groggy
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Sunday, August 17th, 2003
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6:16 pm - About fucking time!!!
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FINALLY SOMEONE HAD AN IDEA!
i just watched ernie eves say that things have to change. that people are taking too much energy and things need to be changed.
he told businesses to conserve at least 50% of power for the next week and people at home to use less power as well..interestingly enough, 80-90% of electricity that washing machines use is just warming up the water! i didn't know that at all.
the news makes me mad. Eves asked for 50%decrease and people are saying "thats to much"but the only people they are asking are the people that own huge factories... people who work in offices can turn off lights when they leave the room and stuff... i can't count how many lights are always on in libraries in offices where no one even uses!
ttc is running again tomorrow.
other than that. i doing a lot of work for the clothing show. im getting allthe pictures from lip service and making a catalogue so that if people want to look thru them at the show they can.
i also have to get a stand for purses and i need another rack from ikea so i don't have to rent one fro the people. i have t rent a table but it costs the same to buy a rack and have it as to rent it for the two days.. and anotehr rack would help.
sigh... so much work to do.
current mood:  busy
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Saturday, August 16th, 2003
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2:21 am
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quick update.
i have walked over 11 hours in the last two days and have a blister on my heel the size of two toonies. it makes it kinda hard to walk... =) oh well.
um.... power being out has been nice actualy.. other than the not being able to put things up.. it seems to bring people closer together because they have nothing to do. most of my walking has been at night so seeing the streets without power is actually quite beautiful. i wish it happend more often.
oh well...
other than that im doing the clothing show again... i don't know if im doing it alone or not... i'll find out soon.
yup. thats it for me.
nighty night.
current mood: tired
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