Jasons Lost Thoughts

Time:

01:06 am

It's a mysterious thing, that it is. My life and sub-concious reactions to things. The images that sit through my mind. The things I need to operate.
Today I sat alone. I was the epitome of introversion. I sat alone staring out at a crowd of people in a dim lit room and wondered. I sat next to a very attractive boy who wore tight pants and black messy hair. He discussed some drug with some girl. I wanted to cover my face. I wanted my hair to be long enough to cover my whole face and hide. From everyone, the world that was around me. It seemed so odd. I probably knew people that were there, but I didn't. I was afraid? No...I was just unsure. My thoughts dwelled on techniques and spinning weapon techniques with Japanese names that roll of the tounge with such pleasure. Hajo Midare Benten...Benten Mawashi

Patrisha showed up. We went on the swings and talked. I tried to get in the spirit with this dying hour, but the freshman were panzis and got in my way. Plus with David Grimes fat ass there no one could do anything cuz we all bounced right off his lard ass. Some people just need a clue.

I was about to just sit outside, then. Melissa and Melanie showed up just in time for Onetoomany. It was dance-o-rama. Mandy came so the two of us made quite the combo. Plus the stupid freshman who kept pretend fighting in the middle I got to punch the crap out of in a mosh. Panzi's...dont act like you know how to fight, unless you've faced a real warrior.

Mattress Testars came on. Everyone cleared out. Mandy and I got even more crazy with the dancing. The crowd thinned as time went on. Tom and I then took the dancing to an extreme. The bandit masks came out, and we became the mosh ninja's. Ninja'd and fucked shit up. No one can mess with us. There wasnt much people by the end so we all went pretty nuts. I think I twisted my knee in my rampage of psychotics. I'm not sure if people thought I was crazy, fun, weird, fucked up, stupid, or funny.
I think converse are not the best shoes for such things. They bend easy, so it's easy to twist your ankle. Although this time I didn't lose my shoe that much. I still want a pair of waraji. Really neat, complex ones. I'd wear them everywhere and people would stare at them.

Well anyways. The end of the show was the greatest. I used every bit of energy I had, but still had my spirit at the end despite the fact I had no more physical strength. Mandy took me home. First a stop to 7-11. I got me a nice slurpee. I drank the thing so fast, and i was so hot that I didn't even get a brain freeze. The ride home was nice. It was such a nice night.

I called in with the parents. So tomorrow..

knee hurts a litte. Hopefully it'll be fine for tomorrow's training. If it's warm enough again I'll go outside for movement/speed training. My kicks aren't fast enough. I realized this today. This is why Ben beats me all the time. I put so much power into short bursts, I leave myself open. I have good rhythm and dont want to loose balance that I make myself vanuerable. Sorry, I really need to use this journal more constructivley other than this banter.

The show was good with the right people. Thank you everyone who came and got crazy with me. Goodnight~

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March 20th, 2004

Time:

03:22 pm

well http://www.livejournal.com/users/a_loaned_memory had to say this to me in her comments page..

and her nasty ass friend http://www.livejournal.com/users/acidcoatedtears bitched out Elise when she left a comment. I love it how people talk alot of "tough shit" and cant stand up to it. Just because your some nasty girl who by the way doesnt live in Novi doesnt mean I wouldnt cut you in two, and even if I didnt psshh i hope she knows just who all my friends are.

well let's just see what everyone on my LJ has to say about this...

you're just jealous cuz u can't get pregnant, and i don't know why you just decided to bring your flamming ass over to my livejournal, this wasn't directed towards you i'm just standing up for what i believe in... i didn't mention your name at all in this, i actually thouight you were a cool person not judging on your sexuality until you left this incredibly immature comment- and 1). call me fat all you want but honest to god i know i'm not fat, just cuz i'm not anorexic and have a few rolls and an ass, well you wouldn't know but most straight guys don't like skeletons. 2.) my only friend isn't ally- we aren't even friends anymore, i have the best friend in the whole world, and i feel sorry for you because, well actually i don't because you will only have friends as girls that will use you for advice they can't ask their other girlfriends cuz you're a guy or whatever- how dare you bring your 14 year old faggot ass comments and put them on my livejournal, you must be very insecure to have to leave a comment supporting your sexuality on my livejournal just because you didn't agree with it, like i said i didn't even mention you- that would be like me reading some random person's journal that says they hate people with green eyes and being that i have green eyes i would leave a bunch of immature and rude comments just to try to piss the person off and start shit- also why are u still reading my journal when we haven't talked in god knows how long- if u think i'm suck an idiotic fat ass why waste your time reading anything that has to do with me? that's pathetic- but it's no surprise, all gay people are so fucking judgemental because they think they're so much better than everyone, but they can think all they want and act however they want on earth- and i hope they have fun while they're alive, cuz you and all your fellow fags are gonna be in hell for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg ass time-
say as much shit as you want now but it won't mean a damn thing when you're in hell- and at least i have shape to me, unlike your fucking nasty scrawny faggot ass that weighs what, 90 pounds? say all you want, infact i could type more and predict what you're gonna say about me, more comments about my weight, my boyfriend who you know nothing about.... but that just goes as more proof on how judgemental fags are without knowing a fucking thing before they judge people- i'm better than you times 893749832748937248974897432987489648657843589347589758658743675327498789543785767845784236543758943759348597577843759748947598753495792807589235739085789497549874598758978759487548754789879657876765789459898587765764854854895854854854854

oh yeah, and i have parents that actually love me and support me, which is probably why i'm not a lesbian and am not an insecure asshole- trust me no one is born gay- and i hope you like this article i wrote for my journalism class, too bad i can't publish it in the school newspaper and make you look like a walking devil, which is basically what gay people are, just one big huge sin that only discriminate against the world- don't ever talk to me again you worthless piece of shit- when you're in hell and i'm one of god's angels in heaven, well you better start praying now- well, nevermind i don't think praying to boy george will count or do much for ya-
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2004-03-19 18:41 (link)
and sorry but my boyfriend isn't the only one that will ever care about me i have the best fucking family in the world and i don't care what you say about them or me because you're so judgemental when you don't even have a clue about the person- and one day i will be legal to screw him, at least i can be legally wed unlike fags- and it's pretty fucking disgusting that you enjoy ass-fucking, at least i like what i'm supposed to like- look- you're gay, judgemental, and rude- oh and younger than me and my boyfriend could basically make you go to hell like tomorrow(kill you), so don't push it, you're the minority and always will be, but go along with gay ass novi and keep proving how fake everyone in the school is including our gay ass lunch table from last year- i'm so glad i'm going to college and getting the fuck out of here, have fun in your little bubble of what you call "life" here's something to leave you with

Holy matrimony doesn’t involve homosexuality:

From day one the joining of two people in holy matrimony have been of the opposite sex. Presently, in numerous states and growing gay marriage is legal. Changing holy matrimony by joining of the same sex is complete discrimination of what is morally correct.
In the state of Michigan gay marriage is not legal. Our Mayor does not approve. In California, governor Arnold Swartzanegger is completely against it as well. The Republican Party, which governor swartzanegger is a part of is also against gay marriage.
“ We support the traditional definition of ‘marriage’ as the legal union of one man and one woman, and we believe that federal judges and bureaus should not force states to recognize other living arrangements as marriages” is the Republican Party’s status on gay marriage. The traditional ways of marriage haven’t been toyed with in years, which is one important reason republicans win the next election. If the Democratic Party wins, the minorities will slowly grow in becoming majorities. Most minorities are not morally right, such as abortion and gay marriage.
“We support continued efforts... to end workplace discrimination against gay men and lesbian families in the life of the nation. This would include an equitable alignment of benefits” is the Democratic Party’s status of gays. Since the majority of homosexuals are democratic, with the Democratic Party for gay marriage as well as gays earning equal if not more benefits because of their sexuality, it is very possible gays will use marriage to gain benefits from living together.
“ I believe gay marriages are occurring for financial reasons such as tax breaks and health insurance benefits that they’d be able to obtain simply by living together,” states Janice Wesley on gays using marriage as ways to gain benefits. If gay marriage wasn’t an issue, then gays would have to work equally to gain benefits, tax cuts, and health insurance. Heterosexuals have never received special treatment and/or benefits due to their sexuality; it’s ridiculous what kinds of things minorities are asking for.
Many individuals don’t know about the Federal Marriage Amendment. It is a proposed constitutional amendment currently before Congress. The Federal Marriage Amendment (FMA) was crafted by the Alliance for Marriage. Members of both political parties, as well as a broad coalition of Protestants —both mainline and conservative — Catholics, historically African-American churches, Jews, Orthodox Christians and secular groups support it. The wording of the FMA is simple. It states:
Marriage in the United States shall consist only of the union of a man and a woman. Neither this constitution nor the constitution of any state, nor state or federal law, shall be construed to require that marital status or the legal incidents thereof be conferred upon unmarried couples or groups.
The battle over same-sex unions is being fought at two different levels. In the court, and at states' legislatures. The FMA would stop the courts from reinterpreting marriage and forcing legislatures to do so.
It is crucial that we, as human beings stick to our morals, realize what is right from wrong, consider how we want the children of tomorrow to be, and put a stop to changing holy matrimony forever.

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February 8th, 2004

Time:

09:41 pm

Congratulations.

This seems shallow and boring. This journal, my life. The words,people,experiences. This must all seem so unintersting.
I've decided to make life boring. My decision creates reaction. Like a lightning bolt hitting the water. A few ripples from some churning water, but the real effect is all the electrical currents that stir below the waves and surges the life that cannot be seen from the surface. Ya know? that kind of stuff?

So...oh heres something to say. I do realize I have no automotive transport and that I'm cool enough to talk to when we "talk about the days when you come pick me up" Seeing as how thats a few weeks away, I'm not wasting my gas money on any of your sorry asses. You're all ugly and never ask me how my weekend was. Lauren is my best friend. We'll go where ever we want, when we want, and do what we want. Hah...well as long as her mom is on the recieving end of that phone call.

My parents went to a health food seminar. Some doctor who's traveled the world and studied the eating habbits of all the different cultures and seeing their effects.
Besides the fact that Americans are fat, our food is terrible. Not only cuz it makes you the next Lucille Burton diet plan #35 failure weighing in at 275lbs., but for average joe shmo at normal weight it'll kill him just as fast. Soy products cause birth diffects and hyperactive tension. It was the Vegans friggen miracle product and now I here it's bad. Soy milk is way bad. The best milk is actually the kind that is straight from the cows udders. Not kidding. All that homegenized/pasteruized shit jus fucks with it more and makes it artificial. People say drinking the milk straight from the cow is inhumaine, but disease and all that stuff is a myth, unless your getting your milk from Mr.Madcow. It's better to eat fresh fruit/vegitibles, and meat from animals that are allowed to graze and run in fields. The more natural life the animal or plant is raised in, the better the food is for you. Imagine the irony in that. My house is now plant and chicken central. My parents even made jokes about purchasing a cow for milk. Crazy. Cold cereal is really bad for you, so my eating habbits need to be way altered.

Oh the reason for all this you ask? Well my mom went to go see our old doctor who went into organic health and medicine. He said this and doing and physical therapy and tai chi kinda stuff will make her better.
Imagine that the next phone call you got was..."oh sorry your mothers dead"

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