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Happily Married to Sydney Bristow
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
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10:39 pm - Dumbest. Person. E V E R!
Okay, so ignore the craptastic LACK of coding I'm proficient with. You can deal with it looking like this until my temper calms down enough for me to take on that task. In any event, I deleted old icons and added new perty Amy Lee ones.
I've been sicker than sin lately. Requiring fluids and meds from the ER and overnight stays. :sigh: Other than that, nothing happening here. My cousins are flying into town on Friday, we're supposed to go see Harry Potter! :squee!: I'm so excited for that. Uhm.. ooh, mom called me tonight and she wants to know if I can house-sit for her because her niece is sick in the hospital and needs heart surgery. So I get to live over at mom's house with the animals. My Tuna and Plucy and Shmolly (Really named Luna, Lucy, and Molly lol)!
Aaaand that concludes this lameness and irritation.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: CNN (Classified Omega 17)
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Monday, May 17th, 2004
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12:08 am - And we can breathe a g a i n . . .
So I had the overwhelming urge to go running tonight at 10pm-ish. Don't know why. Maybe because I was wearing my running shoes, sports/comfy skirt, and a "running" t-shirt. Strange. But yeah, I really had the urge to go out. So instead I tackled Ryan to the kitchen floor and made use of the newly mopped floor. :naughty: Then as we were laying in the lovely post-coital bliss and I was sucking my popsicle, (no, that's not a dirty term for.. other things. I really had a Big Stick :snort: Okay, I can't even get through the sentence without a giggling fit. I really AM 13! :lol: ) I told him about my recent therapy session and what I decided [with a soon-to-be blessing] from Gallagher. Needless to say, he was beyond ecstatic and decided we needed to go another round (or 2!)... ya know... for practice ;) I'm glad Ryan and I discussed it. I know I was telling people "it's only a matter of time now", but I'm really excited about the prospect. Like really, truly. Firstly, I need to see the nutritionist she's bringing in. Have to get my body/mind in completely healthy working order before I undertake such tasks. No, I don't have an eating disorder. Please, have you SEEN me? I just have poor eating habits (which is NOT a disorder). Some days I'll eat constantly, like I can never eat enough, and then other times I'll go days without eating just because I don't feel hungry. And if I'm not hungry, I won't eat. Apparently it's bad not to eat even if you have absolutely no appetite. So yeah, gotta work on that. Thankfully I've curbed my sugar intake to a nice amount. Seriously, between all the coffee and tea and juices and sodas it was getting ridiculous!
Other than all that, not much else going on. My mom is back home, she came over here to have dinner with me yesterday and we watched The Sopranos I Tivoed for her.
I never realized how lonely it is to live completely alone. Ryan was in LA for 4 days doing work for this case, my mom was back east, my brother and I don't hang out like that (and he had to work), all my close friends live 6+ hours away from me. Just me and the animals. I love my solitude to a point. I don't mind being alone, I can hang out by myself for an entire weekend and be happy. But for days on end, by myself... my mind wanders. And not to good places sometimes. Sure, I can catch up on fantasies and all, but seriously dudes.. not good.
I think the reason it felt suffocating and really lonely is because I don't work at the moment, I didn't go to school this semester, so all I can do is stay home. Everyone else works or goes to school. Or lives far away. The only thing I've done is go shopping. Which, let me tell you, even the biggest shopaholic can get sick and tired of. Besides, I never spend money on things I actually need. Just crap I feel like I want. I'm such an impulsive buyer. I need to stop that. I can remember to buy Peter Pan on DVD, summertime fun beach crap, cute dresses and skirts and flip flops in every color possible, but I can't fucking remember to pay my credit card bill on time (oops, that's not good)! Or remember when my car insurance is due. Or to remember make an appointment at my mom's office. :sigh: I saw my therapist three times last week I was so bored and lonely. How sad is that? It's not that I needed to go, I just wanted to. Oh goodness gracious... anyway
Survey Time
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
Moulin Rouge, never fails to make me bawl like a baby.
Do you have a completely irrational fear?
Oh many. Snakes :shudder: I can't even SAY the word or hear it or see it without getting nervous. Needles, heights, riding in airplanes (it's the whole heights thing), spiders, losing control, thunderstorms. I don't mind rain and lightning, just the thunder... well I kind of mind rain when it's REALLY loud and pours.
What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
Rocking. I tend to rock myself when I'm nervous or scared or tired or annoyed. It's a calming thing. I also bite my lip or play with my belly ring.
Are you a pyromaniac?
Not really, no.
Do you have too many love interests?
Lol like celebrity crushes, yes. Real life? There's only one :)
Describe your bed.
Queen sleigh bed with handcuffs attached to the headboard railing. It's really high off the ground and yes, it hurts when you fall off. Well, sometimes ;) Uhm, dark red and black Egyptian cotton sheets and pillowcases and a down comforter. My favorite place to be :)
Spontaneous or plan?
Pffft, the day I plan will be the day hell freezes over. If it's not last minute, it's not me.
Do you know how to play poker?
Strip poker :P So yes.
What do you miss most about being little?
No responsibilities. I loved playing house with babydolls and making up my future life and career and husband. Usually Mark-Paul Gosselar. Brit and I fought over Zack Morris horribly! I miss not caring about my hair and clothes or the fact that I slept in my bathing suit for days on end. The ice cream man brought more joy to my life than any one man should've when I was 6. Being able to eat non-stop, the most disgusting, fattening foods and barely gaining a pound. Totally miss sleepovers and seeing if we could stay up all night. Now I just stay up all night because I think too much and worry too much about everything. I could go on.
Are you happy with your given name?
I used to hate it as a kid, but now I'm cool with it. Makes me feel unique.
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one day?
I could do it.. barely. I think I'd milk it for all I could, though.
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
Not really, no. I CAN be, I just do choose to be often. I am to certain people.
Do you spend more time with your boyfriend or your friends?
Boyfriend. I don't have very many friends I could stand to hang out with that much. Besides, like none of them live in the same city as me.
What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
Freeze time. [/Piper moment!] Or be truly, extremely psychic and not just have claivoyant moments and prophetic dreams that are bad.
What is your ideal marriage location?
Anywhere tropical where we can elope! A lot of people can't believe that's like my ideal wedding. Sure, as a kid I kind of wanted that whole Cinderella/Fairy Tale wedding, but I also always kind of wanted it just to be us. So yeah, my dream would be a tropical island. I'm not that picky about where. As long as it's beautiful and sunny.
Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
Bass, drums.
Something you love and hate?
Driving.
What kind of bedding do you use?
Really fluffy, soft kinds. Expensive kinds lol
Do you tell your friends about your sex life?
If they ask. I will tell all, every last detail. I have absolutely no shame. I mean, I don't go around parading my every private moment, but if someone asks me what I did last night, I will tell you.
What's the one language you want to learn?
Russian. To the extent of being fluent and not just being able to read a lot of it, but not talk it. And I'd love to learn Spanish fluently. I can usually read it, I can usually understand it, and I can speak it when I'm drunk, but I'd like to be able to do it sober too! lol
Do you drive stick?
Heh, dirty. I can, just not well. I can do every gear nicely except first. First hates me!
What's one trait you hate in a person?
Only one? Seriously? I have to choose? Fuck. Uhm... selfishness. I can understand it to an extent... an EXTENT. Everyone has to be selfish sometimes, but constantly. Grr.
Most frivolous purchase?
Probably almost everything I buy. I really don't need it, I just want it. DVDs probably. I have about, like, 100 of them I've never even seen still.
Do you consider yourself materialistic?
Yes, to an extent.
What do you cook the best?
I can cook just about anything. Or I'll at least try to. I cook anything Italian the best. You're disowned in my family if you can't cook pasta and meatballs and stuff.
Favorite writing instrument?
Purple pens!
Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
A little of both. I prefer to stand out for certain things, but I don't mind blending in for others.
What kind of books do you like to read?
Lame teenage/highschooler romance shit. It's so 6th grade, but they entertain me and take my mind off things. I like to reread books I read as a kid. Then I like old classics.
If you won the lottery, what would you do?
Travel the world. Might seem like a cliched response, but it's true.
If you don't like a person, how do you show it?
I'll either tell you to your face or I'll glare or ignore you.
Do you cry in front of friends?
Nope. I mean, like lame crying over tv shows and movies, yeah. Not important things. The only two people I'll cry in front of are Brittany and Ryan. Because they've both seen me at my worst and lowest points in life and they offer comfort others never could.
What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
Crazy, hyper, wild.
Are you a giver or a taker?
Taker. Doesn't mean I won't give or don't mind giving, I just take before I give ;)
When's the last time you cried?
Yesterday. I got bit (and not in a fun, sexual way), I had a massive headache, my finger hurt like a bitch, I'm PMSing, I missed Ryan. Thankfully he came home about 15 minutes into my sobfest and I was okay then :) I love that man.
How many drinks before you're tipsy?
Depends on the drink, but usually 5-8. I'm a lush LOL
Do you ever have to beg?
What am I begging for?? Usually no, I don't beg. But sometimes I'll shock the shit out of Ryan and do it. Makes it that much hotter for him ;)
Do you think you're cute?
Of course :P
Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?
Not at all! lol
What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
Heartbreak. There's nothing like it.
Aaaaaaaaand that concludes the pointless entry. Like all mine aren't or something. It's times like these I wish I wrote fic. Well, good fic that wouldn't make me want to bash my brains in for its lameness and craptasm if others ever read it.
current mood:  sore
current music: The Matrix on TBS (Classified Omega 17)
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Friday, April 30th, 2004
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9:03 pm - This truth drives me into m a d n e s s . . .
*sigh*
Long day today. My highlight: Jen on Ellen. Which she was damn adorable, but that's not surprising. I love her. :love:
So yeah, not really having a good day today. Well I am, but not. You know, sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to. I mean, I do. It's just... complicated. It's one thing to annoy the hell out of my therapist, she's paid to listen to me. And I love her, I do. She's the best. But sometimes I just want someone else. I mean, I know I have Ryan.. and he's perfect, don't get me wrong. But sometimes, when he's not being perfect, and I need to discuss him and rant about everything, I need a chick. And yeah, I have friends that are girls, and I can talk to. But I usually never really talk about my feelings. Well, sometimes to Jonelle, but I'm never usually that open about it. I am, but I always hold part back. I do with everyone, it's just how I work. So yeah, never usually one to share my feelings, so friends assume I'm peachy fucking keen, and I always help them and talk to them about their problems. I'm the crying shoulder. After being in therapy so long, I've gained enough prospective to shrink them.. so I do. And they want me to. But like the one time I finally want to divulge things they're having issues themselves, so of course I say nothing about me. And help deal with them. Then after they're somewhat okay, they need to go do something. Ya know, just sometimes... *sigh* I don't know. I'm just being a whiner I guess. Suck it up Johnson, life sucks. Deal with it.
And okay, I wrote that last night. And right as I was writing it, my best friend called me and we had like a 3 hour phone conversation. I went to sit outside under the stars, and she convinced me to smoke cigarettes as we talked.. like old times. So I basically chain smoked a whole damn pack in that time, we discussed anything and everything and I felt SO much better going to bed last night. Could be the cigarettes and the fact that it took me to Starlite (it's been FOREVER and a million days since my last one), but it was beyond lovely. Aww I love you Brit! And LMAO, she apologized for being naive and everything when it came to Ryan way back when. Because now she has her own Ryan and it's basically the same situation Ryan and I were in on and off for 7 years and yeah... she fully understands now. Sucks doesn't it girlfriend? Totally. But yay! HA! Finally! See... This is why I'm Relationship Sensei... even if none of my other relationships lasted longer than a stick of gum. *le sigh* Anyway, after last night I totally didn't feel so.. meh-ish anymore.
And today I talked to my other 2 oldest friends in the world. Weirdness, but fun! I've missed them both. They're both so very different. Not like I didn't expect them to be, but like WAY different. WAAAAAAY! lol
Nothing else to report on today. Well, I finally ate. I hadn't eaten in like 3 days :pinch: I know, I know. I forgot, then I didn't feel hungry. So now I've had cum. And I will top it off with a salad. LOL I'm still in love with the Mandarin Chicken salads from Wendys. They're pretty good. Anyway, I'm off. My head is killing me again and TE is on in an hour! 30 minutes to eat, 30 for... other fun ;) :P
current mood:  blank
current music: Jen Wood Trio - - Thanks Brit! (Classified Omega 17)
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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
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8:37 pm - S i g h . . .
Tonight is just not a good night for me. *le sigh* I broke the over 4 limit. I'm sure that landed my ass in therapy bright and early tomorrow morning but at this moment I could fucking care less. Not a good night.
I'm going to bed. Yes, at 8:30. I'll be knocked on my ass in a few minutes anyway, might as well get a jump start.
current mood:  distressed
current music: Whatever the fuck is on my tv (Classified Omega 17)
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Sunday, April 18th, 2004
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10:05 pm - It's like you never had w i n g s . . .
Oh my gods, oh my gods...
Okay, I'm a total fangirl but Alias fucking ROCKED tonight! If only for their usage of DEFTONES!!!!!!!! BEST. EPISODE. EVER!
Okay, I won't spoil. But seriously, this show rocks for their fucking actors. And their usage of Deftones at a very well-placed part! :jumpy:
I'm so excited I can't even form coherent thoughts! Just.. DUDE! This episode made me SO insanely happy!
And Victor Garber rocks my WORLD!
current mood:  giddy
current music: DEFTONES! (Classified Omega 17)
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Friday, April 2nd, 2004
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11:07 pm - P u r p l e . . .
Wow this is PURPLE! :jumpy:
Okay, so this is my temporary style until I figure out what the fuck I'm doing and can set this up how I want to. *le sigh* I'm so fucking computer retarded.
As much as I love purple, this is a little... bright? LOL So for right now this is staying. Deal with it. :)
current mood:  tired
current music: Touching Evil on USA (Classified Omega 17)
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Monday, March 29th, 2004
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2:53 am - Look here she comes now, bow down and stare in w o n d e r . . .
So I went to bed at an indecent hour last night... er this morning, as usual. But the thing that sucked monkey balls was the fact that I woke up at 9am and couldn't go back to sleep because it's SO FUCKING HOT here! So I was up. So I went to lay out in the pool for 45 minutes before I nearly gave myself heat stroke. I took a cold shower and did my hair and make up, went to the store to get a wedding card and wrapping paper then I got ready for Leanne's wedding (I wore my purple dress from Carnivale and my heels. Well until the wedding was over, then I changed into my flip flops for the reception). Who has a wedding on a Sunday at 3pm, but her? Weird. Anyway, so I took my mom with me and we sat with Mom and Nana (Brit, my best friend's, mom and grams... they're my second family). I have to say, seeing Leanne and Michael together... so very cute! Leanne looked SO beautiful. Her dress was gorgeous and she looked so damn happy I thought her dimples would crack her face! And her husband (wow weird!) cried during the ceremony and I thought it was the cutest thing in the world! Aww. And heh, because I'm Alias-obsessed, I notice Alias everywhere I go.. The groom is named Michael and his best friend and best man is named Eric and I giggled for about 20 minutes. *sigh* I can't fucking believe one of my friends got married! I mean, I know Melissa Number 2 got married like a year ago or whatever, but I didn't go and she wasn't a close friend. And we stopped being friends with Melissa Number 1 so we won't be going to her wedding. Seriously, I feel so very OLD right now. Last month my oldest friend in the world had a baby, and this month my girl gets fucking married! Brittany and I were sitting at the table and just like "Dude..."
Anyway, the wedding was beautiful and quick, just like we like it. The reception was hopping (Yes! I'm using that word!) and we ate and danced and drank. Leslie snuck in a flask of vodka apparently because when I gangked Brittany's punch I nearly spit it out because it was like LOOOOOOOOTS of vodka and LIIIIIIIIIIIITLE bit of punch. LOL I was sitting with the 'rents so I had to curb the alcohol intake because Brittany's mom thinks I'm a good girl. Whereas my mother poured me glass after glass and then tried to get me a Long Island Iced Tea, which B told me was so strong it was like doing shots. So yeah... I tried to be a good little girl... for once in my life. ;) So yeah, we danced lots. Which wasn't good on a full stomach, but whatever. I had fun. They were so cute together too. I was all "I hope this doesn't affect Girls Night Out." Leanne assured me that it didn't. Thank gods! :D
Aside from the beautiful wedding, I came home to a lovely Alias episode. I won't get into details, but christ... I cried. :\ It made me sad and I told Ellie she had to post a fluff chapter to make us feel better. Aww, we love Ellie because she posted! :) Yay for her!
What else, what else? Well, Ryan and I finally talked tonight... sort of. We've been fighting for a few days... like a week... or more. Yeah, so we've been fighting, as usual and then Brit stayed over Monday night and I didn't see him until like Wednesday. He was being all cold and distant, so I was being all angry and annoyed. I wasn't a fun person to talk to this week. I hate it when we fight. We're both angry, negative, snapping people when we're not okay. So I left him alone and didn't talk to him for a week. Everyone is always like "Well, did you talk to him? Yell at him? Scream?" Well yeah, but in the way you mean. Dude, you know us. We'll still fuck, but we won't talk for like 9 more days. The extent of our talking is "HARDER! Oh GODS! FUCK!" ;) We're so ass-backwards. But he knows sex is my emotional outlet and he'd never deny me. And I know his emotional outlet is me, so... hey, it works for us! Besides, we get aggressions and tension out, we say with actions what we can't... or won't with words, and it'll usually make me less emotionally retarded. I swear I should've been a guy.
HS Fun
School and year you graduated:
Monte Vista High School, c/o 2000 . . . MV! ;) Heh
Nickname in High School:
Uh... Bitch? Fuck if I know. For some reason I was nicknamed "Kat", still not sure how that came about. I was also called "Julia" for my freshman year and half my sophomore year but that was the result of a joke, involving a grape that was mistaken for a gummi bear. Yeah, don't ask.
Sport you were into:
I did Varsity-Optional Gymnastics my freshman year, then I did JV Cheer my sophomore year, Varsity Cheer and Varsity-Compulsory (cause I had a knee surgery and couldn't do Optional anymore) Gymnastics my junior year. And all 4 years I did dance, junior/senior I did Dance Company.
Had a circle of friends:
I rotated friends. Freshman year I hung out with all new people I didn't know because all my friends from childhood were a grade younger than me (cause I skipped 7th grade) so I made friends; the ones with the "Julia" in-joke. Sophomore year I hung out with my old friends from elementary and middle school. Junior year I hung out with bad influences *cough*Ryan*cough* and was very bad. Senior year I hung out with just random friends all year.
Best subject(s):
Shakespeare & Autobiography, Child Development, and AP Government
Worst subject(s):
Science, but only after 10th grade and it's mostly because my 10th grade teacher was a HORRIBLE woman and I forever hated anything to do with science after that. And AP English my junior year, but that's only because I hung out with bad influences and didn't do any of the work. And I suffered a nervous breakdown junior year, on my 16th birthday, that started over the book Catch-22 and then escalated. Wow, that makes me sound crazy...er! LOL
Teacher to whom you owe life lessons?:
Mrs. Peterie. She rocked. She will always be my favorite teacher. She listened, she gave good advice, she actually made me like math in high school, and she was a good friend. A good teacher to choose for my T.A. period senior year because it was first period and she let me skip class to sleep in if I promised to come in once a week, after I got out after 5th period, to grade papers and do work for her. And she gave out candy to those wearing school colors on Fridays and she always gave me extra candy. She was funny and sarcastic and knew when to use both with me. Like I said, she rocks and I love her.
Describe in one word:
Freshman year: Insanity
Sophomore year: Drag
Junior year: Apathetic
Senior year: Fun
Best friend?:
Brittany, even if she didn't go to my high school. She'll always be my best friend. Besides, we went to elementary and middle school with all the people at my high school, so every day when I complained and bitched about who I hated that day, she knew who and why and sympathized.
Cafeteria food sucked?:
Cafeteria food was okay, I suppose. The al a cart food was better. And it was better during like multi-cultural week and Fridays when they'd do tables with root beer floats, and rolled tacos with guacamole, and lumpia and pancit and all that good stuff. We had Pizza Hut and Dominos mini pizzas too, chicken sandwiches, etc, so it wasn't too bad.
Wore uniforms?:
Uh, lol. Well, sophomore and junior year I was basically in a cheer outfit every day except like Mondays, so yeah, sorta. Whenever there was a sports game after school that had cheerleaders we had to dress up. But we had many many different shirts and skirts and shorts and tank tops and pants and stuff so it was all good, I guess. Luckily most days I didn't have to spend time in front of my closet wondering what the hell I was going to wear.
How was the prom?:
HEH! Prom was fun. Prom was really fun. I had a pretty purple dress, we had a limo, we had dinner at the Chart House, and our prom was at the Loews Coronado. It was big fun. We danced, drank, laughed. Then we had some insane limo driver, and I had a hotel room at the Del. And a lot of alcohol. I don't remember a whole lot, but I remember there were water balloons filled with alcohol, I remember the ice, I remember the sex, laughing a LOT, being crazy, almost getting kicked out, and being WAY too drunk the next morning when we woke up to even think about doing anything except either drinking more or sleeping it off... or having sex again :P Like I said, fun!
Who were the prom king and queen?:
Fuck, I think the prom king's name was Michael. Michael something and he was like our class nerd, literally. LOL And Amber Gilbert was prom queen. She did drama and played soccer, she was pretty cool. Harrington! I think. Yeah, I believe that was his last name. Ahem.
Any achievements?:
Uh... I survived? I made cheer? I did Dance Co. Lettered in 3 sports. Thespians. I perfected my Pop Rocks blow jobs LMAO I almost didn't graduate because you weren't allowed to have more than like 16 EXCUSED absences or they like don't pass you. I had 17 in one class, but argued that I was there that day, but because I had 16 absences my teacher wouldn't give me an A because he wasn't allowed to for me missing so much school. *rolling of the eyes* I think if you do the work and kick ass during the days you ARE there you should get the grade you deserve for what you've done, not based on something retarded like absences. I can understand if they weren't excused ones. But like, what if I happened to get sick easily and had to miss school? Yeah, sucked. I had a special doctor's note my freshman year because I missed like 32 days that year in excused medical absences. I got mono that year and was out for like 2-3 weeks, even after that I had to miss a day here and there because it was awful. Plus I had one knee surgery that year and so yeah, idiots. Anyway...
Were you popular?:
I wasn't popular, but people knew who I was if only for the fact that I was a cheerleader. To this day I still have people stop me at like the mall, or restaurant, or something, and being all "Hey! You were a cheerleader for Monte Vista!" That's still a little weird to me. Or people are like "Weren't you in Dance Company?" I was way too antisocial and guarded to even want to be on the "in" crowd, I wasn't nearly that nice or tolerant of most people, especially girls. I was like the anti-cheerleader cheerleader. I didn't get along with them very much (or really at all), and they didn't get along with me, which I didn't care about. The cheerleading thing was kind of a fluke and I only stuck with it because I loved Friday night football games and being close to the game (plus I was an attention whore and loved to dance and be crazy, so being in front of a big crowd was nice), and it gave me more chances to tumble, which I loved. And we got to go to Disneyworld to compete and I love Disney ;)
Best song that reminds you of high school?:
Uh, "Time Of My Life" or whatever. Cause it was our prom theme and it was our ending song in the Senior Guy/Girl dance. And also Vitamin C's "Graduation Song", because it like came out that year or whatever.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: Sarah McLachlan - Elsewhere . . . :inlove: (Classified Omega 17)
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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6:54 pm - E L E K T R A . . .
Yeah, I'm just doing a mini entry to make sure the dl client works since I got Elektra back today and they completely wiped my hard drive clean and it STILL didn't fix my problem. MEH! I'm in the LONG ASS process of adding EVERYTHING back to my poor computer. *sigh*
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Spy Game on tv (Classified Omega 17)
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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
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5:49 pm - S E X !
Because I'm conceited ;) (and hey, it's not my fault if friends ask for it!)
Scorpio Friendship Profile
The mysterious Scorpion may turn out to be the best friend you've ever had -- or your worst enemy. The first rule of friendship with a Scorpio is that you never, ever cross them. Their sting is strong, and they never forget a wrong done to them. That said, it's fairly easy to keep your Scorpio friendship intact, and, as soon as you prove that you are worthy of their devotion, they will be a loyal comrade. You will never know what is on their mind, and you may not have any idea where you stand with them, but their secrets will always fascinate you. Kissing up is a major turnoff for your Scorpion pal, so let them know how great they are without fawning all over them. Scorpio does not have too many friends, but they hold on tight to the ones they do. Friendship is not the most important thing in their lives, but they will stay true to a long-term companion. A Scorpio will gladly give you the shirt off their back if you need it, but you may get the slightest inkling that they have an ulterior motive for doing so. Friendship with the Scorpion will always be full of surprises.
Best Friend Bets: Virgo, Capricorn
Scorpio: Karmic Life Lessons:
Scorpio is typically described in one word: intense. Deeply emotional and emotionally complex, Scorpio possesses an incredible charisma that attracts and stimulates others, who always want to know, Who is that behind the intriguing mystery? That's the great question: Who lives behind the sexy, alluring yet impregnable persona Scorpio portrays? The answer isn't an easy one to find. Most Scorpios like to keep their secrets, and perhaps they couldn't tell you even if they wanted to; their constantly rising and falling emotional responses often prove confusing at best. Their driving pursuit, however, is connection. It's what gives them their reputation for being amazing lovers and what makes them so intense in both romantic and platonic relationships. Behind that drive to connect, however, is a driving sense of insecurity. Scorpio is afraid that if it disconnects from others, the disconnection will be complete and irrevocable. This is the reason why Scorpio has developed such an elaborate system of maintaining engagement, complete with secrets and allusions, manipulations and occasional rages and that Scorpion's sting that can lash out whenever Scorpio gets its feelings hurt.
All this takes up a lot of time and energy, to say the least. Scorpio's Karmic task is to learn to relax and let go of its fear of abandonment and being alone. If Scorpio can learn that to disconnect isn't necessarily permanent, there would be less of a need for manipulative or vindictive behavior; of course, the only way to learn that lesson is to let go, which may be far easier said than done. Scorpio tends to be one of the most possessive, jealous and suspicious Signs of the Zodiac. Those born under its influence possess a heightened sense of secrets and are always trying to sniff out what's hidden. However, other Signs may be more forthright and direct, meaning everything is out in the open -- but Scorpios will try to find out the "real" truth anyway, perhaps even to the point of creating a secret or a lie where there isn't one. Scorpios must learn the value of trust and privacy. Allow friends and lovers to feel trusted and trustworthy; allow them to choose which parts of themselves to share and which to keep private.
One reason it may be hard to trust others is that we are afraid we can't trust ourselves to withstand being hurt or taken advantage of. When something like that happens to Scorpio, its Scorpionic instinct is to get revenge. Scorpio is not a malicious Sign, mind you; it simply has an incredibly complex emotional life and tends to be at the mercy of those emotions. Scorpio must learn to self-regulate more effectively, to resist the urge to lash out when hurt, to rise above pettiness and manipulation. Learn to forgive and forget, since holding on to anger and grudges improves nothing for anyone.
These lessons are difficult to learn, however. In our struggles toward personal freedom, it helps to get inspiration from others who have already mastered what we are trying to learn. Aquarius possesses the emotional self-sufficiency and calm demeanor that Scorpio may lack; it would be unhealthy to try to stifle emotions, but it is important to be able to control one's actions in response. Taurus, Scorpio's Opposite Sign in the Zodiac, can teach Scorpio about honesty and directness; Leo can teach Scorpio to be warm and openhearted toward loved ones, rather than suspicious or demanding.
Scorpio Money Profile:
The complex and mysterious Scorpion is the master of strange dealings. You never quite know what these folks are up to! Hopefully, something good. When the chips are down, however, Scorpio's inner strength and nerves of steel makes those born under this Sign great in a crisis. Hey, these people are powerful. Scorpions always command respect...or is that fear? Whatever the case, don't cross a Scorpion in a business deal, because it could be a fatal move -- this is the Sign, after all, which rules sex, death, and money. A holy trinity indeed!
Scorpions are, in a word, great where money is concerned. Many of them are self-made folk, although a surprising number of Scorpions inherit wealth. We should all be so lucky! It's easy to see that Scorpions want money desperately, however it comes. Money buys them security, freedom, and, best of all, control. That control means power, and Scorpions firmly believe the glib saying "the person with the most toys wins!" In their case, however, those toys are probably bars of gold.
An unshakable conviction that they'll come out on top where finances are concerned helps Scorpios stay in the game, no matter how long or how tough. They're more than willing to make sacrifices for the grand prize. If there are reversals, Scorpios will generally suffer them well, thanks to their quiet confidence. When the going is good, though, Scorpions will remember their friends with uncommon generosity and are quick to support favorite charities.
The Scorpion's temperament is well-suited to astute management of the bottom line. Scorpios are also disciplined enough to stick to a budget, and their eagle eye ensures that they'll never be shortchanged at the bank. The wily Scorpion always makes good on a debt but won't stand for debtors to be slow-pay! Control over the domestic purse strings can lead to tension in a Scorpion's relationship, making this a fight they may not want to pick.
In the end, Scorpions far prefer to accumulate money rather than spend it. And they hate wasting it! Even so, there are times when nothing less than a Ming vase will do. Go figure!
Water:
The Element of Water is associated with the Signs Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces, and it also rules the Fourth, Eighth and Twelfth Houses. The watery words flow with this Element: fluid, flowing, wavering. These terms can easily apply to an individual's emotions, which are exactly the realm in which Water exerts its influence.
Water Signs are intuitive, sensitive and feel more intensely than the rest. They are emotional and nurturing and, like a river, run deep. How things feel is what matters to these folks, and they base their actions on sense, rather than on logic or intellect. Water is also about compassion and understanding, since the receptive talents of these individuals are remarkably high. Water Sign people can take in the feelings of others, process them, and put forth a plan or solution that will be conscientious to all.
Those graced by Water love to take their sense of the world and translate it into the artistic. They desire aesthetic beauty -- and for everyone to be happy as a result of that beauty. Much like still water can become stagnant, however, an inactive Water Sign person is not a Water Sign person at their best. Water Signs feel most fulfilled when they are helping others, and they do so in an enchanting, considerate and even romantic way.
The flip side of this dreamy Water world is the tendency of these individuals to brood. Water Signs are susceptible to mood swings, and, at their worst, they could become self-indulgent, controlling and hostage to a fantasy world. This also brings up the ability of these folks to see things more clearly than others. Call it psychic, if you will.
Water Signs are emotional, empathetic, receptive and feel things deeply. Alternately calm like the sea or possessing the force of a torrential rain, the emotions brought forth by this Element are plentiful, indeed.
The Eighth House:
House of Sex:
The Eighth House is commonly referred to as the House of Sex. This House delves into relationships -- interactions with another and how certain aspects of those interactions can take on a more communal nature. It speaks to what our relationships will bring us and how we can get the most out of them.
Returning to this House's emphasis on sex, it's important to note that the French refer to an orgasm as 'le petit mort' or 'the little death.' When we reach that exalted state of communion, we leave a little of ourselves behind -- die a small death. One can also choose to view this as growth, a new beginning, the rebirth of the soul or a gain for the partnership. The Eighth House is an equal-opportunity House, placing sex, death and rebirth on the same level playing field and acknowledging the viability and importance of all three. We will all experience death and rebirth as part of our lives: failed relationships leading to new ones, career changes, a new hairstyle. We are regenerated and reborn with each new phase and should welcome them.
Shared resources also fall within the Eighth House: inheritance, alimony, taxes, insurance, support from another. Financial support as well as spiritual, emotional and physical support are addressed by this House. While our relationships share many of the aforementioned things, they also have their own dynamics and grow from within (we grow through our sexuality as well as through other more tangible means). That said, much as our relationships are expansive, they also have certain constraints, many which are placed on them by society. Again, taxes, alimony and the joint nature of assets come to mind. Yes, with every opportunity we have, we may face a restriction along with it. Once again, death and rebirth.
In keeping with the transforming nature of this House, rituals are highlighted. Every group has its own way of peering in and looking deep into the soul and the past, if only to get a sense of what we truly are. What quality will our rituals take on? Exalted states or metamorphoses? What secrets do we keep and why? How we manage our interactions, relationships and rituals is important to the Eighth House -- will we be honest, effective and responsible? Will the riches generated by our relationships benefit the group (company, humankind) as a whole? Our legacies are key to this House: how we conduct ourselves now, and how that will play out for all time.
The Eighth House is ruled by the Sign Scorpio and the Planets Mars and Pluto.
Fixed:
A Fixed Quality is attached to the Signs Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. The Fixed Houses are the Second, Fifth, Eighth and Eleventh; if an astrological chart shows a preponderance of Planets in these Houses, its energy is weighted toward fixity.
Fixed Signs understand that steadiness is the key. Those influenced by this Quality are happy to forge ahead with their projects, calmly working away until they have achieved their objectives. This is no struggle for Fixed folks, rather it's what makes them tick. These individuals are stable, determined and resolute. They want to get to the finish line and have the persistence and ability to concentrate, characteristics which will get them there.
There is no lack of confidence in Fixed individuals. Self-reliance could be a Fixed person's middle name. Those possessed of a Fixed nature are powerful, yet purposeful. There are no wasted motions here: Fixed folks move patiently and steadily toward their goals. They are also steady and reliable and always remember those who helped them out. Conversely, those born under a Fixed Sign can at times be stubborn, my-way-or-the-highway folks. They may have a tendency to get stuck in their ways and to believe that they are always right.
Those influenced by a Fixed Quality are determined, reliable and persistent. They have great strength, and strength of purpose, and love to get the job done. So what if they refuse to budge? They get results.
Mars: Planet of Passion:
Mars is the action Planet of the Zodiac. The 'Red Planet,' after all, should be pretty fiery, and Mars does not disappoint. Energy, passion, drive and determination are all right up Mars's alley. This Planet commands you (and yes, Mars does rule the military) to stand up, be noticed and get things done -- sitting on the sidelines belongs somewhere else in the heavens. Simply put, Mars speaks to the power and confident expression of the individual.
Ambition and competition are also within Mars's realm. Whether it's at work or on the field of play, Mars encourages us to face challenges and to be our best -- or better. Aggression is part of the plan here, although Mars also values courage and honor. Assertion and a daring, fearless nature please this Planet.
It's important to note that Mars's energy can be constructive or destructive. The God of War in ancient times, Mars could be brutally violent. While this energy still emanates from the Planet, it also asks us to harness this force for good. Stamina, ambition and achievement are all part of Mars' mantra.
Mars rules our sexuality and sexual energy, and governs weapons, accidents and surgery (the last two illustrating the yin and yang nature of this Planet). In the end, however, the energy of Mars can be quite useful if used properly.
It takes nearly two years for Mars to complete its orbit through the Zodiac. It is masculine energy and rules both Aries and Scorpio and the First and Eighth Houses.
Pluto: Planet of Power:
As the outermost Planet in our solar system, Pluto is also the farthest from the Sun. It has only recently been discovered, having come to light (albeit a dim one) in 1930.
Pluto's energy may be subtle, but its results will hit you like a ton of bricks. This Planet is about transformation, regeneration and rebirth. Things aren't pretty with Pluto, but they do get done. Pluto says 'out with the old and in with the new,' and we'd better be ready for it. If we're not, this Planet will simply have us wallow in our misery. Pluto asks us to transcend that which we know, redeem ourselves in the process, and come out stronger as a result.
For all that Pluto (re)creates (it also governs the reproductive system), it loves to destroy. This Planet rules destruction, death, obsession, kidnapping, coercion, viruses and waste. That's definitely not pretty. Pluto also governs crime and the underworld, along with many forms of subversive activity (terrorism, dictatorships). This Planet is about all that is secret and undercover, that which is hidden from view. Is this the story of good vs. evil? Yes.
No one will deny Pluto's power (it rules atomic power, too) and intensity. This Planet's energy is often focused on the masses and what the collective will do. Pluto beseeches the masses to look inward (and to their subconscious) to see what's there. It may be scary, but Pluto doesn't care. This Planet knows how to push buttons.
It takes Pluto approximately 248 years to complete its orbit around the Zodiac. Due to the eccentricity of its orbit, it takes this Planet between 12 and 31 years to pass through a Sign. It rules Scorpio and the Eighth House. Pluto is the last of the transcendental Planets and is the higher octave of Mars.
Symbol: the Scorpion
Ruling Planet: Mars/Pluto
Ruling House: Eighth House
Element: Water
Quality: Fixed
Body Parts: sex organs
Keyword: SEX
Date with destiny: Cancer, Pisces
Run for the hills: Leo, Aquarius
Where you glow: investigating
What makes you tick: chess
Fitness forecast: sex
Play date: chatting on the Internet
Perfect jobs: private investigator, surgeon
Best accessory: magnifying glass
A sure thing: magnetism
Destination: The Netherlands
Pleasure: mystery, calling the shots, passion
Pain: exposure, simplicity, interruption
What's my line? Yeah, Baby!
Your Preferences:
Books:
As the Sign of Death, Scorpio can not so surprisingly handle the metaphysical and more abstract quite well. Books that fit into the categories of drama, suspense and horror will stimulate your penetrating mind. Anais Nin ranks among your top choice for intensity, and Anton Chekov’s plays will stimulate your curious mind.
Career:
Analyst, Bill collector, Biochemist, Censor, Coroner, Criminologist, Debtor, Detective, Distiller, Diver, Doctor, Enforcer, Excavator, Funeral director, Garbage collector, Plumber, Hypnotist, Insurance agent, Investigator, Lab technician, Miner, Pathologist, Private investigator, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Researcher, Scientist, Secret agent, Security guard, Surgeon, Tax collector, Undertaker, Union leader, Vocational counselor
Chocolates:
Can't resist rubbing them all over their partner and licking it off.
Food:
Scorpio is all about intensity. The Scorpion wants food bursting with powerful flavors like basil, cinnamon, curry, garlic and ginger. If possible, the food should be deep red in color. As a Water Sign, though, there's still some element of Scorpio wanting food that reminds them of home.
Movies:
The intense Scorpion loves a mystery and a challenge. You probably prefer when the viewer needs to figure out for themselves what's going on in the movie. You’re likely to check out The Blair Witch Project, Eyes Wide Shut, The Shining, The Game, American Beauty or A Clockwork Orange.
Music:
Intense and with a sting, the Scorpion wants music they can dive into. For name alone, you should try Electronic Trance, by artists like Ghost in the Machine and trance control. For more mainstream Scorpios there are the danceable sounds of Massive Attack, Moby, Orbital and the Chemical Brothers. In the P.M., pop in some contemporary R&B for a good time.
Restaurants:
The tenacious Scorpio prefers to keep a routine and not be bothered with big meals, which might take them off course and off their itinerary. Your strong constitution will enable you to try a wide variety of dishes.
Sports:
The cunning and resilient Scorpio enjoys sports that test their mettle and require strategy and endurance. Investigate extreme sports, marathon running or chess.
Travel:
Angola, Antigua, Costa Rica, Monaco, Spain, Turkey, Washington, D.C.
Television:
Always ready to solve a mystery, the Scorpion becomes entranced by the slowly unraveling narrative of the X-Files. On other days, they might tune in to see the adventures of Sherlock Holmes and try to outthink the great detective before each episode's end.
By The Sign:
Scorpio and Coffee: Never prone to self-denial, Scorpio opts for all the sensuality of a breve latte -- one can barely taste the coffee, but isn't subtlety the name of the game?
Scorpio and Fireworks: Scopes out the crowd, finds someone they find alluring and then leads them away to set off some fireworks of their own! Just don't be gone too long or folks will start to wonder just what it is you're doing!
Scorpio and Gift Giving: Gives their partner a night to remember.
Scorpio and New Years Eve: Wants to spend New Year's Eve doing something extreme -- up on stage at a karaoke bar, mic in one hand and drink in the other, blaring out eighties hits to delight and titillate the audience, say, or flying over the city in a chartered helicopter, enjoying the up-close view of the fireworks with a very special date.
Scorpio: New Year's Eve finds you feeling dangerously sexy and open to suggestion. You may not make plans until the last minute, since spontaneous parties tend to be the most thrilling. Lose yourself in the festive mood -- go ahead and toss confetti, blow your noisemaker and have a 'midnight' kiss every time the New Year strikes in a different time zone!
Scorpio and Ways to Spend a Day Off: Scorpio takes a day off in style by first hitting all the trendiest boutiques, shopping for that special something that will make their outfit complete. Then they'll dress to the nines -- feather boa, knee-high leather boots and snakeskin anything are all a possibility -- and spend the evening out club-hopping, attracting everyone around like a magnet.
Scorpio and Your Libra Mother:
Your sweetheart of a mom could double as a United Nations diplomat, the way she always ironed out your conflicts and soothed your fears. Her calm, even nature hid the truth: She spoiled you rotten! Take advantage of this yearly opportunity to spoil her right back. Your Libra mother dreams of being pampered, of being treated like absolute royalty, so treat her to a long, luxurious visit to a day spa. Pull out all the stops: We're talking massage, manicure, pedicure, facial, mud bath and bodywrap.
Ideal Mother's Day Gift from a Scorpio: Your mom's a sentimental, romantic sap at heart, and she'd be so touched to receive roses from her beloved offspring. And though she likes luxury, she's also a sucker for a heartfelt, homemade card.
Scorpio and Trick Or Treating/Halloween: Isn't in it for the candy.
Scorpio and Valentine's Day: Why go out for a fancy dinner when you already have dessert waiting at home? Who knew that a Cupid costume could be so sexy?
Scorpio and Foreplay: Wants it all day, every day.
Sexy Scorpio has a secret fantasy: This Sign would love to be a spy, a movie star or any pursuit in which it could assume new identities. So, on its birthday, this intense and perceptive Water Sign would simply love a late-night masquerade ball. Sensual foods and sexy or paranormal activities satisfy Scorpio's otherworldly and worldly desires -- so if you can somehow combine a psychic, a Ouija board and Spin the Bottle, you've got the right idea.
Perfect Scorpio Gift: Scent-ual Scorpios really appreciate perfumes or colognes.
What does a Scorpio wish for as the candles are blown out?: To know everyone's deepest secrets.
Scorpio and How to Cure Insomnia: Is doing something else entirely that definitely doesn't worry about getting the zzz's.
Scorpio and Kindness: Your idealism and passionate belief in transformation and rebirth inspires others to want to work toward these goals as intensely you do.
Scorpio and Kissing: You skip the kiss and get to straight to … whatever comes next for you.
Scorpio's Pick Up Lines: Your place or mine?
Scorpio and Pizza: You get your pizza with pineapple, anchovies and secret sauce -- and you also manage to get the delivery person's phone number.
Scorpio and Cleaning: makes the bed, fluffs the pillows and asks for volunteers to test it out with them.
Scorpio and Survivor: In it for: The chance to use cunning and intelligence to succeed
Luxury item Scorpio takes along: A portable CD player and some sexy, trancey music for escaping the wilderness
Scorpio isn't going to let anyone in on its strategy, and all should be advised against indulging a confidence to this wily genius. Though they're certainly able to keep the secret, you can't be sure they won't use it to their advantage!
current mood:  enthralled
current music: Sugarcult (Classified Omega 17)
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3:23 pm - A rose by any other n a m e . . .
Stolen from my lovely Price :)
If you call me Nikki you are about 55% of the people who know me. If you call me Kaia, you're the other 45% of people who know me.
If you call me Nik or Kai you're too lazy to say my full name.
If you call me Kaia Lee or Kaza you're Ryan and only you can get away with it.
If you call me Keykala or Princessa you are my mother and I curse the day you came up with those nickname.
If you call me Bitch or Cheerleader I probably went to high school with you.
If you call me Mommy or Aunt Mommy then you are one of my adorable godbabies or one of my "nieces/nephews"
If you call me Nikkia Marie you are my father and I'm in BIG trouble, but I still maintain that "I didn't do it!"... it's like a knee-jerk reflex to the name. Or you are my best friend Angelina and you do it just to scare the hell out of me.
If you call me Nikkia you don't know me at all and I probably won't answer you.
If you call me [Nikolai] Borshelfski you are my brother and you are retarded.
If you call me Elizabeth you are one of my brother's friends and you can't remember my name.
If you call me Beverly you are Jake and you think you're cool.
If you call me Nokia you are the REST of my brother's friends who were there for the "incident" of my father screaming "NIKKIA MARIE!", but his voice was very deep when saying it, so the friends thought it was "Nokia". Idiots.
If you call me Mikki you are drunk... or my cousins before they learned how to enunciate.
If you call me PB you are Erin because she thinks it's funny ("As in spreads like Peanut Butter"). *shaking of the head*
If you call me Piper By The Way or Niggi you are Erin's dad and he likes to make fun of me.
If you call me Kasai you are drunk girls who don't remember my name.
If you call me DS you are from the forums and probably don't know my real name[s]. Or Gin who never calls me by my real name.
If you call me Hooters, Baklava, Mean Person, or Nympho Dahmer then you are Dr. J and you give me a new nickname every time you worked at the hospital just to make me feel special. Jerk.
If you call me Nik-Kaia you are Rachael and I call you Raquel, so it's all good. And once, recently, Dr. D called me that and I almost fell over in shock. Weird.
If you call me Miss Johnson or Senorita Johnson you kicked me out of class every single day in high school.
If you call me Baby Girl then you were there for my birth and the days following before my mother combined the two girls' names she had and came up with my name.
If you call me Nicole I will kick your ass because I hate that name! Though I don't mind when people call me Nickel.
If you call me Kaia, in a stern voice, you are my therapist trying to deal with me... or Jonelle.
If you call me Nikoletta you are the Italian half of my family that refuses to think of me as anything else.
If you call me Mija you are Ryan's parents and I feel mushy inside when you say it. :inlove:
If you call me P-17, Pimpstress, Katy, Marie Adams, Milena, Buffy, or any of the other crazy ass names on that list then you are Brittany and we are 14 years old.
If you call me Table Top Tyra you are my most insane group of friends and you know there's a good reason to that nickname.
If you call me Julia then you were there for the grape/gummi bear incident in 9th grade and we have really no idea why it stuck.
If you call me AJ then you are Adam and it's your "new" way of saying "T & A"
If you call me Crazy then you are 100% of the people who know me.
On a completely random note: Happy Birthday David Anders :P
And now for the Scorpio portion of the day (Since Price asked for some explantion to me):
Scorpio is symbolized by the Scorpion. Intense and emotionally perceptive, you pick up on unspoken words and speak the language of gesture. Deep, mysterious and magnetically attractive, you yearn for emotional intimacy. If hurt, you really sting -- and you don't forgive easily!
Ruling the House of Sex can either be a blessing or a curse, and a lot depends on how the wily Scorpion deals with this erotic burden. Those mystical and magical creatures born under the sign of Scorpio are quick to channel their raw energy, power and strength into an exploration of their lover's emotions and sexuality. The Scorpion is intuitive and wants to get to the bottom of things, so there's no keeping secrets from this sexy Sign (although they'll surely keep a few of their own). An alluring resourcefulness and self-confidence is also evident in Scorpios, these folks being keenly attuned to what's best for them and how to get it. Anyone willing to take on the Scorpion will be engaging a cosmic power with plentiful sexual urges. The good news? A caring and devoted lover awaits. On the flip side, don't cross them, because those stingers can leave a heck of a welt.
Scorpio and Sex:
The Sex God of the Zodiac has quite a lot to live up to! The Scorpion does just that, thank you very much. The sexual prowess and drive of those born under this sign is legendary. Scorpions smolder with every come-hither look, alluring wink of an eye and mysterious stare. If you want to ride a tiger to an emotional and sexual crescendo, jump on the curvy back of the sleek Scorpion. The Scorpio lover has an almost hypernatural libido, and loves giving sensual pleasure, although receiving it is nice, too. Variety as the spice of life is the golden rule here, and Scorpio loves to choreograph the scene for maximum mutual satisfaction. Any lover stepping into this lair best be ready, since keeping up is a must. Scorpions adore a lover who can go on forever, the perfect gift for this truly sexual being. If that lover brings some toys along, things will be tied up oh-so-neatly. Ooh.
Scorpio and Romance:
There's a hard-to-pin-down, magnetic quality which surrounds the Scorpion, an aura which says "try me, if you dare!" That's just what Scorpions want, someone fearless, who is willing to help create the ultimate romance, one which will take them to greater heights than ever before. When this works, the Scorpion's passions are unleashed with hurricane force. If, however, the romance zigs, zags and bouts of jealousy may be the unwelcome result. Ruling planets Mars and Pluto might prompt Scorpio to think that romance is a clash of wills, but a clever lover is the one who can bring this warrior to see that a pincer movement to the heart is the sweetest of all.
Scorpio in Relationships:
Guess who's in charge here? You've got it, the strong Scorpion, who is not quite ready to be controlled by others. This can make for an interesting relationship dynamic and one very sexy chess game. What the Scorpion wants are sex, love and money from a lover, and the absolute best where all three are concerned. Deep down, though, it's sex and the power it brings which carry the most weight with this libidinous soul. Scorpions are possessed of a steely determination and a strong sense of what is best for them. Thankfully, this often takes into account their partner, and they are quick to be giving with the right lover, and to make their life very easy. As long as the Scorpion wins, there will be harmony in the mating game. The ideal Scorpio soul mate can go twelve rounds anywhere, anytime and preferably in bed.
Scorpio in Love:
The Scorpion is as clever in love as in life: Much of what's going on is a tactical game, one they are more than likely to win. Scorpios can be very sexy when in love, and that says a lot about members of this already sexy sign. When in love, the Scorpion can be intensely passionate, a rush of fluid feelings in keeping with this Water-born sign. Often, though, there is a push-pull in the dance of love, thanks to the Scorpion's many motivations. A lover who is willing to discover what's really beneath the surface will serve both the Scorpion and themselves very well.
What Scorpio Needs:
A challenge is something that makes the Scorpion swoon: The prospect of someone who can test them and who can make the game fast and fun is almost irresistible. Scorpio, of course, wants nothing but the best, so winners only need apply. Scorpions are also eager to find a strong, understanding and perceptive partner, someone who embraces the many facets of this volcanic lover. What else? Someone who won't judge them, who possesses raw personal power themselves, who keeps the game interesting, who has a red-hot sex drive and who knows how to talk when it's important to the relationship. Not much to ask, eh?
The Scorpio lover is determined, forceful, has great passion and strength and finishes what they start. This is a powerful and sexual being who isn't for the faint-hearted. Those with guts are bound for glory!
Scorpio
October 23 - November 21
Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. You shouldn't take Scorpios lightly, either. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps.
It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward. Others may find this overbearing (it can be) and even self-destructive, but that's the beauty of the Scorpion: these folks have tremendous regenerative powers, much like the literal Scorpion can lose its tail and promptly grow a new one. Fearless Scorpions rarely lose, per se, they just keep on going, since they are stubborn and determined to succeed (this Scorpio trait is in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign). Scorpios work as hard as they do so they can someday sit back and feel satisfied with themselves. These folks are intense, passionate and filled with desire. They're also complex and secretive, so don't expect to get much out of them, lest they become suspicious and exit stage left. It's best not to bet against Scorpios, either, since these folks are surprisingly resourceful.
Scorpio Travel Profile
Yes, Scorpio is that mysterious
stranger on the train ...
... the one in dark glasses and a Burberry trench, is probably a Scorpio. Those born under this sign are truly go-anywhere, do-anything kind of folk, and the seamier, the better. Sex shops in Amsterdam would be a natural for a Scorpio, seeing as this is the Sign of Sex and Death. Kink will always be "in" with the Scorpion, but the passion within also runs to an interest in the world's underbelly. Think India, Algeria or Mozambique, anywhere less than pretty where interesting lessons can be learned.
In the end, that's really what the traveling Scorpion is all about: the experience. Ruled by Pluto, the planet of regeneration, Scorpions will internalize much from their travels and likely return a different person. Hence, the outer and inner journey is where it's at. Hard-to-peg Scorpios prefer to travel alone, but when they do opt for a group it's a given that their agenda rules.
Not only do Scorpions like to get their way, they also want their experiences to be utterly complete! Thankfully, these folks are plenty resourceful and will always have the means (whether by money or smarts) to get what they want. For the passionate Scorpion, travel is yet another of life's seductive charms.
Travel for the ever-curious
and lusty Scorpion must be ...
... a meal of sensual treats, so New Orleans's French Quarter and Sydney's Kings Cross are all likely to be high on their list. Any place where chance encounters, even strange ones, might take place would also work: The far reaches of Mongolia or Siberia might provide some surprises, as could the mean streets of Boston, Bogota or Bombay. Intrepid Scorpions are drawn to unexpected places off the beaten track. It's easy to see why these folks often travel alone! Furthermore, Scorpions have a knack for seeing things through to the end, so if their pet cause is saving the rainforest, the redwoods or endangered whales, they'll go to where the action is and never, ever give up.
Whatever the destination,
it's a sure bet that ...
... the Scorpion will be calling the shots, so dreaming up (and taking) a wild ride is always part of the plan. Those born under this Sign love an adventure, the more exotic, the better -- it will satisfy their prurient, probing minds. Is the Cold War really over from the Russian point of view? Don't put it past a Scorpion to traipse around Moscow doing their best imitation of Agent 007. Self-confident Scorpions are also quite perceptive and enjoy a little give-and-take with strangers from the wrong side of the tracks, if only to prove to themselves that they're still sharp as ever. Always up for a challenge, it's a Scorpion who would travel halfway around the world to engage in extreme sports. Bungee-jumping in New Guinea? Hang-gliding in Peru? It's the degree of difficulty which matters to these folks, and what makes the game that much more enjoyable!
With so much exploratory
passion, Scorpio may say ...
"Mealtime? So what!" After a while you may start to think these folks could survive on fumes. Food, and the attendant fuss made by many at mealtime, is of no interest to traveling Scorpions, as there are far better adventures to be had. Even so, everyone's got to eat sometime, so when they finally do get down to it, they're likely to eat fast and easy yet satisfying food. This is a lusty soul, after all! Quick as they are to visit off-the-beaten-path destinations, Scorpions will often find themselves indulging in exotic, virtually unknown dishes and ingredients. Once again, this culinary "tour" might well be the Scorpion's alone!
To a Scorpio, a place to sleep
is about as important as ...
... a place to eat. As long as there's a mattress and some running water, it works. That said, sexy Scorpions might prefer to shack up with that seductive stranger seated across the bar and learn a thing or two about ... well, you get the picture. Soaking up the local culture can take many forms! If they'd rather sleep alone, though, Scorpions will always have enough cash on hand for whatever accommodation feels right. You're not likely to find them at the Ritz, but a three-star hotel might feel nice from time to time.
Pushing the envelope is what travel is all about for the seductive Scorpion -- are you ready?
Scorpio Beauty Profile
Of course you've heard all the tales of lusty Scorpio, the Sign of Sex -- the escapades, the seduction, the mysterious stranger in red and black. No other Sun Sign has quite the mystique of this stinging little Scorpion. Yes, those of you born under the intense light of this Fixed Water Sign are intense and passionate, amorous and sometimes secretive.
When it comes to beauty, you wrap your sensuality around you like a long, silken robe -- it envelopes your every move. Your sensuality courses through you like an electric current. While it seems as if you can't help but exude sexual energy, there's a softer side to you. You can be emotional and a loyal friend. You don't go for the musky perfumes as much as you do sweeter essences like vanilla or spicy fragrances like cinnamon.
You delight in disguise and in dramatic makeovers; wigs and false eyelashes are some of the tools of your cosmetic trade. Hiding behind other personas stimulates you, and you shine when you can be a bit clever and cunning.
The power of your beauty lies within this cunning; all of your expressions of beauty possess a hidden, deeper meaning, a subtext of desire, an ulterior motive. You are at your most beautiful when you channel your sly charm to energize those around you, letting the world in on the biggest Scorpio secret of all: how good it feels to be you.
Scorpio Career Profile
Are you going to cross a Scorpio on a business deal? is your life insurance paid up? The Terminator of the Zodiac has arrived, although that "lethal" Scorpion sting isn't all it's cracked up to be. Truth be told, these strong-willed folks are happy to serve others and can be quite helpful, as long as it won't hurt them. The energetic, winner-takes-all Scorpion is mighty determined, someone who can keep their eyes on the prize and never blink.
Intense, passionate Scorpios know how to live life to the fullest, and as a result, don't suffer fools gladly. They know how to zero in on important tasks, and where the art of the deal is concerned, can go for the kill. Rarely, however, will blood be spilled. Scorpios are straight shooters with lofty and important goals who are devoted to those who have earned their respect. Everyone else falls by the wayside -- and that can be some scrap heap! One of the Scorpion's greatest assets is the ability to effect change, if only by sheer will. It's when this virtue spills over into impatience that the trouble begins.
You cannot miss (or dismiss) a Scorpion, even if you never quite understand them. Those born under this Sign love to create, solve and manage -- both the good and the bad. It's all for a reason. They often lead by example and have an uncanny ability to devein hard truths. They also like to win. As long as Scorpions can control their aggressive, vindictive and inflexible tendencies (and the need to control in general), much can be accomplished.
The Scorpio office can be a bit macabre, but that's probably to keep guests on their toes! Scorpions are not beyond showing clients around in a Humvee, if only to make the not-so-subtle point about who's in charge. When it comes time to order lunch, Scorpions will delight in ordering red meat -- rare. For everyone.
Scorpions are well suited as doctors, investigators, ecologists, managers, engineers, navigators (of the Titanic?) and secret agents.
Scorpio Fitness Profile
Scorpio needs an ulterior motive to get moving in fitness. This mysterious Sign could be going to the gym just to pick up a date or to show off how good they look in Lycra. Your intensity knows no bounds, however, so when you get into doing something, you're likely to give it your all. High-impact aerobics, extreme sports and long distance running are all things that could be fulfilling as the focus of your energy. Challenge and competition are the Scorpion's strengths, and you may relish the thrill of coming up from behind to win. Martial arts like Aikido will help you harness your power and concentrate your energy. Working out your mind is important, too. Consider taking a break from exercising for a game of chess.
Scorpio Fashion Profile
The always sexy Scorpion is hard to categorize. One day you could be sleek in the latest look, but the next you're kicking back in something romantic and flowy. Whatever you're wearing, and for whatever reason, you've probably got some ulterior motive. When you go out on the town in something short and skimpy, you're probably on the prowl for a partner who'll offer some fun in the P.M. You'll put on a pricey power suit if that's what it takes to score a high-level corporate job. You follow trends as long as they suit you, but you're no slave to fashion. If everyone went around with partially-shaven eyebrows, you would probably refrain. Hey, you've got class! On the other hand, you may have been first in line to partake in your pick of the best retro styles.
You'll either wear a lot of jewelry or no jewelry at all. Your hair might be long and luscious or short at spiky. You could wear wigs and costume paint, as long as how you're shaping yourself to look matches your changeable inner nature on that particular day. Scorpio is a master of disguise. You could wear makeup like a mask, or take it all off so those around you think you're revealing the bare truth. Your hidden, or not so hidden passion, is silky, sensual undergarments in black or red.
Who would've thunk it huh? ;) Think it's me? :P
current mood:  energetic
current music: Radiohead - Kid A cd (Classified Omega 17)
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Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
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4:01 am - How many times have you told me you love h e r ? As it many times as I wanted to tell you the t r u t h
-Bad- You're the exact opposite of what any guy
wants or needs, unless he happens to need a
quick lay. You're cruel. You toy with people.
You're probably a bitch, and i don't think i'd
like you if i met you. Oh go screw a random
male already.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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1) single or taken: taken
2) birthday: 10/31/82
3) sign: Scorpio
4) siblings: 1 older brother
5) hair colour: sangria.. heh. Red-brown
6) eye colour: ambery-brown
7) height: 5'6" and a half
8) shoe size: 6.5-7.5
;-* R e l a t i o n s h i p s~*
1) who are your best friends?: Brit, Jonelle, Ryan, Erin
2) did you send this to your crush?: I don't have Jen or David or Michael's e-mail address ;)
3) did your crush send this to you?: lol no
*-;-*F a s h i o n S t u f f *-;-*
1) where is your favorite place to shop?: Heh. Trashy Lingerie or Toys R Us ;) LOL
2) what do you have pierced?: I have 5 holes in my ears and one in my belly
-;-* T h e E x t r a S t u f f *-;-*
1) do you do drugs?: nope
2) ?????????????: Mmm… no
3) what kind of shampoo do you use?: LoL kids' panshoo. Cherry Blast or Strawberry Smoothie or Splash of Sunny Orange. Seriously, have you ever seen a little kid have a bad hair day? NO!
4) what are you listening to right now?: Amy Lee unreleased songs
5) what car do you wish to have?: Lexus SUV
6) who is the last person that called you?: Uhm.. my mom I believe
7) where do you want to get married at?: on some tropical island when I elope
8) ????????????: enough with the annoyingness
9) how many messenger buddies do you have on-line right now?: like 39 now.. weird, I only talk to like 3-5 regularly
10) If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?: I'd have less of a temper
~*~*~ Favourites~*~*~*~
1) colour: dark purple, dark red, and black
2) number: 12, 13, and 9
3) food: eggrolls LOL Pizza, sushi, soup, salads
4) boy's name: Trenton
5) girl's name: Madasyn and Sydney
6) subjects in school: ugh.. lunch!
7) animals: kitties and horses!
8) game(s): uh, don't usually play games. Well... unless you meant like sex games ;)
-;-* H a v e Y o u E v e r *-;-*
1) given someone a bath?: yep
2) smoked?: yep
3) bungee jumped?: no, I've contemplated... hoping I'd get over my fear of heights.
4) broken the law: lol yep!
5) made yourself throw-up?: only when I was really drunk
6) gone skinny-dipping?: of course
*-;-* F i r s t T h i n g T h a t C o m e s T o M i n d *-;-*
1) red: sex
2) cows: LOL Ryan! Because I thought that said "cocks".. don't ask.. lol If we're talking COWS, then hmm.. I wonder. Perhaps the COW! Though I do enjoy her eeeeevil. LOL
3) socks: stars
4) greenland: Iceland
*-;-* F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s *-;-*
1) do you like filling these out?: when I'm bored, yeah
2) how many people are you sending this to?: none, it's going in my DJ
4) if you could be someone else for a day who would it be and why?: Jen.. cause she gets MV.. or MV cause he gets Jen :p
5) the last movie you saw at the cinema?: Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights... yeah, I'm a dork
7) favorite cartoon anime character?: none, it's boring
8) what do you eat for breakfast in the morning?: LoL... cum (you think I'm joking doncha?? ;) )
9) who would you hate being locked in a room with?: anyone I couldn't stand (that's a long list too) Or someone who I couldn't have
10) who would you want to be locked in a room with?: Jen, Michael, David Anders... oh the fun!
*5 things you can see*
1. my laptop
2. my concise Russian dictionary
3. my Fiji water
4. my tv
5. Ryan, sleeping nekkid next to me
*5 things you are doing right now*
1. typing
2. trying to keep my hands to myself
3. listening to music
4. humming.. heh, dirty
5. looking at my "porn" (yes, real estate is a turn on!)
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. salad
2. chicken strips
3. cum
4. a sliced tomato
5. gum
*5 things you did so far today*
1. went in the pool
2. laid out in the sun
3. chased my cat around outside, lil bitch
4. watched tv
5. took a shower
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. Ryan breathing
2. music
3. my cat throwing her toys around
4. people being loud outside at nearly 4am
5. the tv
*5 colors you can see*
1. crimson
2. black
3. peach
4. dark purple
5. blue
*5 thoughts in your head*
1. I need to pee
2. My back hurts
3. I really want to have sex... now... and all night and day long.
4. I'm kind of tired
5. My cat is insane
*5 people that rock your socks*
1. Jennifer Garner
2. Ryan & Jonelle
3. Ellie & Emily
4. David Anders & MV [tie]
5. Victor Garber
*5 things you like in [a potential love/r]*
1. sense of humor
2. sexy eyes (and voice)
3. understanding
4. sense of adventure
5. good manners
*5 things you want to do this year*
1. go to Brazil
2. get a new job
3. get a new house
4. learn to control my emotions
5. be happy
*5 bands/musicians you're listening to*
1. Evanescence
2. A Perfect Circle
3. Deftones
4. Sugarcult
5. Nirvana
*5 objects in your room you love*
1. Ryan
2. my bed
3. my sais
4. my posters
5. my cat
*Five things you love*
1. Ryan
2. Liquids (heh.. dirty)
3. Tropical islands
4. Alias
5. sex
*Five things you hate*
1. Being alone
2. Immature people
3. Stupid people
4. Driving in traffic
5. Work
About Girls:
[women in]- leather.. lol
[characteristics]- crazy, wild, humorous, sexy, confident, sweet, caring, sympathetic, dangerous
name: If you don't know by now.. *sigh*
-gender: female
-age: 21
-birthday: 10/31
-height: 5'6" and a half
-weight: ugh, too much!
-piercings: 6
-do you have a boy/girlfriend?: not a "boyfriend" ;)
-have you ever been in love?: yup
-how many people have you kissed?: dudes.. I cannot even begin to count! Especially since I don't remember what I do most drunken nights but I know I don't go to bed alone
-how many hearts have you broken?: 2… apparently
-how many people have broken your heart?: 2
-best quote to describe love?: "Deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you" "You're the closest Heaven that I'll ever be and I don't wanna go home right now."
-what is your dream guy/girl like?: :) he's just himself
-do you smoke?: not anymore, I quit a long time ago (NYE doesn't count!)
-do you do drugs?: no, you've asked me this
-do you prefer beer or liquor?: beer, but only if it's Corona. Most liquor I can't drink anymore due to bad experiences with them
-favorite alcoholic beverage?: Midori Sour, Margarita, Corona
when was the last time you...
-had a nightmare?: a few nights ago *shudders*
-ate at mcdonald's?: I got one of their salads last week
-dyed your hair?: like September
-brushed your hair?: like an hour ago
-washed your hair?: yesterday afternoon
-checked your e-mail?: now
-cried?: last night
-called someone?: called my mom earlier today to see where she was
-smiled?: a few minutes ago... gods he's so cute
-laughed?: earlier when I was talking to Jonelle "WOO HOO!"
-talked to an ex?: Well, technically... lol like 4 hours ago when he was awake. ;)
do you...
have a dream that keeps coming back?: yep... some are okay, others... not so much! Eek! Needles!
play an instrument?: not even a little bit, though I like to think I can. I do have a TEENSY bit of piano under my belt, I'll be damned if I remember anything, though
believe there is life on other planets?: sure, why not
read the newspaper?: yep
have any gay or lesbian friends?: hehe yes! :p
consider love a mistake?: depends on the outcome and the type of love. Mostly, no.
go to church?: of course not
have any regrets?: a lot of them
hate yourself?: sometimes
have an obsession?: HEE! Oh yeeeeeeeeah
collect anything?: shot glasses, I guess
have a best friend?: yep
like your handwriting?: not particularly
care about your looks?: sometimes, not obsessively or anything
care about a boy/girlfriend's looks?: sometimes, not usually though
currently...
what are you wearing?: An Oxford :P
shoes?: nada
hairstyle?: well it's in a high ponytail, but some of it's still short so like it's up, but it's falling down
what are you eating?: nothing
anything to drink with that?: water
listening to anything?: Solitude by Evanescence
talking to anyone?: Nope, apparently other people sleep at this hour! WEIRD! ;)
How old were you when you received your first kiss?: like 3, I don't think that counts, does it?
How many people have you kissed?: too many
Are you a good kisser?: Oh yeah :P *rolling of the eyes* Well, I haven't chased anyone off by my kissing so I must be good
How old were you when you went on your first date?: Like my real first date alone with a guy? Like 14
How many girls have you slept with?: LMAO... Lucy? Did you write this quiz?! ;) hehehe
How many guys have you slept with?: too many as well
Are you in a relationship right now?: yeah
Do you have any fetishes?: LOL. Ice.. leather... lace... silk... corsets... handcuffs
Do you like anal sex?: I don't hate it ;)
Do you like toys?: Hee! Of course I do!! I have a whole toy chest full of them :P Probably not the "toys" this quiz is asking me... or maybe since the last few questions were dirty. Heh
Random Lyric Of The Night:
Everyone leaves me stranded, forgotten, abandoned, left behind... I can't stay here another night. -- Evanescence, 'Solitude'
current mood: sleepy
current music: Solitude - Evanescence (Classified Omega 17)
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
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4:33 pm - B r o k e n
The worst is over now and we can breathe again. I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away. There's so much left to learn and no one left to fight. I wanna hold you high and steal your pain. Cause I'm broken, when I'm open, and I don't feel like I am strong enough. Cause I'm broken, when I'm lonesome, and I don't feel right when you're gone away.
current mood: anxious
current music: Broken - Seether f/ Amy Lee (Classified Omega 17)
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Monday, March 1st, 2004
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1:49 am - Help me get away from m y s e l f . . .
This was a conversation I had the other day with Ryan's brother, I felt the need to share cause Adam makes me giggle.
Adam: do you have any more pics of your boobs?:-) shh don't tell my brother
Me: LOL no, sorry
Adam: oh well,i tried;-)
Me: :-) Are you drunk?
Adam: lol good guess
Me: Really?
Adam: yeah
Me: :-D I wish I was
Adam: LOL
Me: Though tomorrow I'm going to Lips, so I'll be then.
Adam: whats that?
Me: It's a drag queen club
Adam: oh
Me: Tis damn fun
Adam: sounds interesting
Me: They like my boobs
Adam: i bet lol
Me: They may be gay, but they're jealous
Adam: I like your tits too,do i get a prize for that?:-) btw i like your new profile stuff, i dont really get it,but i been up since 5am and im drunk;-)
Me: LoL
Adam: i like your boobs though:-)
Me: LOL *shaking of the head* Thanks, as do we all.
Horny bastard. Thou shalt not covet thy brother's goods. :P
free enneagram test
TYPE 7:
The Busy, Fun-Loving Type: Spontaneous, Versitle, Acquisitive, and Scattered (The Manic-Depressive and Histrionic Personality Disorders)
Basic Fear: Of being deprived and in pain
Basic Desire: To be satisfied and content to have their needs fulfilled
The Seven with a Six-Wing: "The Entertainer"
The Seven with an Eight-Wing: "The Realist"
Expanded Profile
Healthy: Highly responsive, excitable, enthusiastic about sensation and experience. Most extroverted type: stimuli bring immediate responses, they find everything invigorating. Lively, vivacious, eager, spontaneous, resilient, cheerful. Easily become accomplished achievers, generalists who do many different things well: multi-talented. Practical, productive, usually prolific, cross-fertilizing areas of interest. At Their Best: Assimilate experiences in depth, making them deeply grateful and appreciative for what they have. Become awed by the simple wonders of life: joyous and ecstatic. Intimations of spiritual reality, of the boundless goodness of life.
Average: As restlessness increases, want to have more options and choices available to them. Become adventurous and "worldly wise," but less focused, constantly seeking new things and experiences: the sophisticate, connoisseur, and consumer. Money, variety, keeping up with the latest trends important. Unable to discriminate what they really need, become hyperactive, unable to say "no" to themselves, throwing self into constant activity. Uninhibited, doing and saying whatever comes to mind: storytelling, flamboyant exaggerations, witty wise-cracking, performing. Fear being bored: in perpetual motion, but do too many things, many ideas but little follow through. Get into conspicuous consumption and all forms of excess. Self-centered, materialistic, and greedy, never feeling that they have enough. Demanding and pushy, yet unsatisfied and jaded. Addictive, hardened, and insensitive.
Unhealthy: Desperate to quell their anxieties, can be impulsive and infantile: do not know when to stop. Addictions and excess take their toll: debauched, depraved, dissipated escapists, offensive and abusive. In flight from self, acting out impulses rather than dealing with anxiety or frustrations: go out of control, into erratic mood swings, and compulsive actions(manias). Finally, their energy and health is completely spent: become claustrophobic and panic-stricken. Often give up on themselves and life: deep depression and despair, self-destructive overdoses, impulsive suicide.
Key Motivations: Want to maintain their freedom and happiness, to avoid missing out on worthwhile experiences, to keep themselves excited and occupied, to avoid and discharge pain.
Examples: JFK, Benjamin Franklin, Leonard Bernstein, Leonardo DiCaprio, Kate Winslet, Elizabeth Taylor, W.A. Mozart, Steven Spielberg, Federico Fellini, Dr. Richard Feynman, Timothy Leary, Robin Williams, Jim Carey, Mike Myers, Cameron Diaz, Bette Midler, Chuck Berry, Elton John, Mick Jagger, Gianni Versace, Liza Minelli, Joan Collins, Malcolm Forbes, Noel Coward, Sarah Ferguson, Larry King, Joan Rivers, Regis Philbin, Howard Stern, John Belushi, and "Auntie Mame" (Mame).
Personal Growth Recommendations for Enneagram Type Sevens
Recognize your impulsiveness, and get in the habit of observing your impulses rather than giving in to them. This means letting most of your impulses pass and becoming a better judge of which ones are worth acting on. The more you can resist acting out your impulses, the more you will be able to focus on what is really good for you.
Learn to listen to other people. They are often interesting, and you may learn things that will open new doors for you. Also learn to appreciate silence and solitude: you do not have to distract yourself (and protect yourself from anxiety) with constant noise from the television or the stereo. By learning to live with less external stimulation, you will learn to trust yourself. You will be happier than you expect because you will be satisfied with whatever you do, even if it is less than you have been doing.
You do not have to have everything this very moment. That tempting new acquisition will most likely still be available tomorrow (this is certainly true of food, alcohol, and other common gratifications-that ice cream cone, for instance). Most good opportunities will come back again-and you will be in a better position to discern which opportunities really are best for you.
Always choose quality over quantity, especially in your experiences. The ability to have experiences of quality can be learned only by giving your full attention to the experience you are having now. If you keep anticipating future experiences, you will keep missing the present one and undermine the possibility of ever being satisfied.
Make sure that what you want will really be good for you in the long run. As the saying goes, watch what you pray for since your prayers may be answered. In the same vein, think about the long-term consequences of what you want since you may get it only to find that it becomes another disappointment-or even a source of unhappiness.
Pairings: Enneagram Type Seven (the Enthusiast) with Enneagram Type Seven (the Enthusiast) [Cause Ryan is a Type 7 as well]
What Each Type Brings to the Relationship
As with all double-type relationships, two Enneagram Sevens generally bring the same qualities to each other. Therein lies both a main source of the attraction as well as one of the main pitfalls. Thus, the Level of health of each person is especially important for these types of relationships as are their dominant instincts. The key characteristics of double Seven relationships are easy to spot: high energy, spontaneity, frequent travel and entertaining, and an interest in anything new or that promises to open new possibilities. If both Sevens are psychologically healthy and well balanced, there is a noteworthy joyousness and sense of abundance that permeates their relationship and which spills out to everyone around them. A healthy double Seven relationship is emphatically happy-even radiant and exuberant-and both parties enjoy sharing their happiness with as many others as possible. They are thoughtful, sensitive, idealistic, hospitable, and generous. Double Seven couples are sociable and unusually good company for others as much as they are with each other.
Each brings to the relationship a spirit of personal freedom that is noteworthy. Neither wants to be tied down in routines or empty, formal commitments, and so both Sevens are determined to not impose many rules or expectations on the other. They want their relationship to be guided by the fact that both parties positively want to be with the other rather than feeling that they are locked into some constricting set of obligations. Both Sevens bring a sense of possibility, open-endedness, experimentalism, and realism that enables them to build a life together-while making it an enjoyable experience for themselves and their circle of family and friends. Double Seven pairings are optimistic and resilient, and always ready to pick themselves up and start over again when they run into difficulties. Gratitude for the relationship-and for finding each other-is the guiding spirit.
Potential Trouble Spots or Issues
Building a relationship usually takes time spent together, and patience to weather the disappointments and disillusionments that are also usually part of the picture. One of the main problems with double Seven relationships is that of impatience-of wanting the relationship to be more complete and developed than it really is. While double Seven pairings have no lack of energy and high expectations for their relationship, they may find it difficult to stay with both themselves and the other as both work through the growing pains of the relationship. As time goes on and the relationship is no longer the stimulating experience that it once was, Sevens begin to turn their attention elsewhere, possibly to their work or to other involvements.
Both Sevens feel that somewhere in the world exists the perfect person for them. Sevens are terrified of missing out on whatever in life they are meant to have. They hate the feeling that by committing themselves to one thing-whether it is one person, one place to live, or one career-they are limiting their life in some fundamental way. In short, Sevens tend to be commitment adverse, and it is a measure of their psychological health when they can commit relatively easily and permanently to someone. In a double Seven relationship, this problem is compounded and one of the Sevens must be the first to risk commitment-and possible rejection.
Another problem for double Seven relationships is that both tend to be impulsive and irreverent, often saying and doing whatever brings relief in the heat of the moment. During arguments things are said which cannot be unsaid, and feelings may be irreparably hurt by either. Both can be insensitive, self-centered, and unreliable. Both tend also to crave constant stimulation which can lead to a hectic social life. This can be exciting if both parties do things together, but if they begin to have separate interests and different sets of friends, their social lives will pull them apart. They may begin to have little time for each other or for their family. Someone is bound to feel left out, and on some level, each Seven is determined that it will not be him.
Addictions (Type 7 The Enthusiast; The type most prone to addictions): stimulants (caffeine, cocaine, and amphetamines), Ecstasy, psychotropics, narcotics, and alcohol but tend to avoid other depressants. Wear body out with effort to stay "up." Excessive cosmetic surgery, pain killers.
Oooh, that's very true.
you are darkred
#8B0000 |
Your dominant hue is red... you are passionate, energetic, and unafraid of life's changes. You're all about getting out and trying something new, even if it means taking risks that other people would be afraid of. Hey, if they're afraid and you're not, more power to you, right?
Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.
Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
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That's really amazing considering dark red is one of my favorite colors. And I think that does describe me.
Hehe
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HA! HEHEHEHE! That's silly.
Random Lyric Of The Night:
I'm so tired, of playing
Playing with this bow and arrow
Gonna give my heart away
Leave it to the other girls to play
For I've been a temptress too long
Just. . .
Give me a reason to love you
current mood:  restless
current music: K's Rock Mix; Current Song: Closer - Nine Inch Nails (rawr!) (Classified Omega 17)
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Saturday, February 28th, 2004
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5:20 am - Your heart pounding in my h e a d . . .
A friend asked me the other day why I don't put anything under a cut or why I don't have a quick link to past entires.
To answer such astute questions, I don't put anything behind a cut because what you see is what you get. If you wanted to be able to skip over something in my life, you shouldn't be reading this. You get it all. The good, the bad, the hyper, the depressed, the love, the insanity, the grace, the idiotic, the fucked-upness, the 6 year old little girl that is me. Now, if it were spoilers, I'd definitely put it behind a cut, because if there's one thing in this world I really hate is when people spoil me. There's a 99.9% chance I will never post spoilers in here, but in the off chance that I do, you'll be safe.
To answer the other question, at first the reason past entries weren't linked was because I'm computer retarded and I accidentally erased the quick html and didn't learn to get it back. And now, if you really want to read past entries and know my past, then you can look in the calendar and find them. If you care so much ;)
Man oh man, I really need to learn how to go to bed at a decent time. Going to bed at like 6/7/8am all the time cannot be healthy. (BTW, "man oh man" is apparently my new phrase... don't ask. It makes me sound 6 again.) My body just does not like to go to sleep when it's dark out. It's almost like I'm a vampire. Ever since I quit my job, I go to bed at sunrise and wake at twilight. Well, okay I wake at lunchtime when Ryan comes home and we partake in 'otherworldly activities' (heh) before he leaves me with a kiss and goes back to work. Other than that, I'm a full-fledged vampire. And I eat normal food.
So today was an interesting day. I basically did nothing except take care of a sick man and stay in my pjs all day. Why so interesting you ask? Because my mother was here. Yes, that's right. Me, Ryan, and Mom. And what did we do? Well, we watched Alias Season 2 DVDs. My mother gave up trying to grill Ryan when I kept shooting her looks that could freeze the sun, because my boy was sick, and so my mom watched Alias and giggled at Marshall. It was the weirdest, most out of body experience I've had... this year anyway. Hey, at least she's being civil towards him. Though she would watch me like a hawk whenever Sydney and Vaughn touched or kissed or made love. Like I was going to morph into them and just start having Tie!Sex with Ryan on the chair or something. *rolling of the eyes* Man oh man.
Anyway, tomorrow I get to go see Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights. I don't care how big of a dork that makes me, but I want to see it. I like dancing. Do I think it's going to even come close to the original? Absolutely not, but I love salsa dancing and so I'm going. Dancing makes me happy. Some people paint, some people sing, I dance. I feel the music. I remember when we were little, Brittany would YELL at me for dancing in front of the mirror all the time. Seriously, we had HUGE closets and the doors were mirrors and whenever I'd go over to her house or she'd come over to mine, I'd be dancing and shaking my ass in front of the mirror. Whenever we were getting dressed and doing make-up, or use hair mascara, or putting on face masks, or painting nails, or doing red eye liner, yep... dancing in front of the mirror. Dude, to this day she'll sometimes yell at me for doing it. Like "Dude! Would you STOP?!" *sigh* The good ol days.
On that note, I'm off to... well not sleep, but to finish listening to music and reading
current mood: nostalgic
current music: K's Mix; Current song: Haunted.. wait it ended, now it's Glory Box - Portishead (Classified Omega 17)
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Friday, February 13th, 2004
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10:34 pm - Dream a little dream of m e . . .
Okay, so, ONCE AGAIN, Kaia has a demented mind. I've been having the weirdest dreams lately. Tonight Jonelle tried to help me analyze the dreams and make me feel less insane. I love her. Anyway, here's the dream analysis:
vartan88: lol - always gotta have that last smiley
PopRocksQueenK: yes!
PopRocksQueenK: cause it gives me good dreams
PopRocksQueenK: well, not last night, but it does!
vartan88: don'tcha
vartan88: neener
vartan88: i had it
vartan88: plllll
PopRocksQueenK: And you won't talk to me tomorrow night, so..
vartan88: lol
vartan88: dude -tell me about your dream quick
PopRocksQueenK: uhm.. I had a dream I was with Brit and some other chick and we were having a party
PopRocksQueenK: but only one guy showed up so far
PopRocksQueenK: and I don't know who he was, but we were having sex on Brit
PopRocksQueenK: 's deck at her parent's hous
PopRocksQueenK: e
vartan88: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: cept it was a lot bigger and there was nothing on it
PopRocksQueenK: and it overlooked the ocean, and was all romantic
PopRocksQueenK: and I was very sexually frustrated
vartan88: aww yay
PopRocksQueenK: no, like really
vartan88: lol
PopRocksQueenK: the guy I was fucking, was doing nothing for me
vartan88: why
vartan88: i'm gonna "sign off" but i'm still her e- keep typing - everyone else thinks i went to bed heee
PopRocksQueenK: kk
PopRocksQueenK: so yeah, it was really weird
vartan88 signed off at 9:36:01 PM.
PopRocksQueenK: like we had sex like 7 times, cause we kept getting interrupted
vartan88: lol
vartan88: and you didn't get satisfied ONE out of SEVEN times?
PopRocksQueenK: and he wasn't the one who turned me on, but he was the one who was doing to take care of it, and like.. NOTHING
PopRocksQueenK: nope, not ONE
PopRocksQueenK: and I REALLY need someone to analyze my dream!
vartan88: hmm
vartan88: well you're not sexually frustrated with ryan are you?
vartan88: should i get my book?
PopRocksQueenK: cause I remember being turned on (not completely by him) and I remember it feeling good, but not GOOD. Not like it usually is for me
PopRocksQueenK: uh, no!
PopRocksQueenK: get the book!
vartan88: lmao
vartan88: k
vartan88: hang on
PopRocksQueenK: k
PopRocksQueenK: so yeah, I was like super aroused and ready to go, and I don't know if he just didn't follow directions right, or whatever. Cause yeah, it felt good, felt somewhat nice, but it just didn't feel GOOD. Wasn't getting me off and christ was I trying shit too! But NOTHING
PopRocksQueenK: after a while it was almost like I couldn't even feel him inside me so like.. I was half tempted to ask "Is it in?" but, guys don't really like that
vartan88: lol
vartan88: k i have two books, but i can only find one right now
vartan88: it has sex and frustration -but not together
PopRocksQueenK: okay
PopRocksQueenK: and?
vartan88: you want both?
PopRocksQueenK: yes
vartan88: k - frustration -
PopRocksQueenK: never thought I'd experience that... even in a dream
vartan88: psychological - you mean be concerned your life if not going in the direction you wawnt, or may feel repressed anger at the stubbornness of pple in yoru life. it is important that you discover why you feel so frustrated so that you can deal more effectively with its causes
vartan88: mystical - dream superstition takes frustrations to mean the opposite - all your plans will succeed
vartan88: sex -
PopRocksQueenK: hmm
vartan88: psychological - erotic dreams are usually a straightfoward expression of sexual desire. the nature of the sex may reveal your hidden hopes and fears.
vartan88: HA
vartan88: there - you're afraid!
vartan88: of sexual frustration
PopRocksQueenK: I'm afraid of WHAT?
vartan88: or you could have a sexual phobia
vartan88: lol
vartan88: it sayd
vartan88: sayd
vartan88: fuck
PopRocksQueenK: that's not possible
vartan88: afraid of sexual frustration
PopRocksQueenK: well I am that
PopRocksQueenK: lol
vartan88: see
PopRocksQueenK: hehe
vartan88: well just another great session with dr. jonelle the dream analyst
PopRocksQueenK: does it say anything about decks
PopRocksQueenK: or oceans?
vartan88: lemme see if i can find that other book
vartan88: sure
PopRocksQueenK: and night
vartan88: lemme look
PopRocksQueenK: lol yay
PopRocksQueenK: and like latern/twinkly lights
vartan88: LOL
vartan88: no "deck"
vartan88: ocean it says see "sea" or "water"
vartan88: which would you like
vartan88: i'm sure night is in here too
PopRocksQueenK: water
vartan88: twinkly lights might be harder
PopRocksQueenK: and sea
PopRocksQueenK: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: okay
PopRocksQueenK: how about laterns or christmas lights, but not coloreD?
vartan88: lol
vartan88: LOL
vartan88: let's do water and sea first
vartan88: sea -
PopRocksQueenK: kk
vartan88: psych - the sea may represent the unconscious, and you dream may show that you are now ready to explore the intuitive and instrintive aspects of yourself.
vartan88: was it calm or stormy?
vartan88: and that was "instinctive"
PopRocksQueenK: calm
PopRocksQueenK: lol k
vartan88: calm see may show inner contentment and peace of mind. freud considered teh sea and the incoming tide to be symbols of sexual union
vartan88: mystical -
PopRocksQueenK: so I'm frustrated, but content?
vartan88: a symbol of the raw materials of existaence and is assoc. with the creative potential of your true self. ultimate reality of which you are a part.
vartan88: lol -well you chose the diff symbols
PopRocksQueenK: mmkay
vartan88: water - psych -
vartan88: water represents feelings and emotions. can also represent security, life and birth. naure of water can reveal your emotional state. if waters are peaceful - so are you.
vartan88: i think - you're reading the wrong symbol - i think you're afraid of sexual frustration but you're not
vartan88: frustrated
vartan88: they got "light"
vartan88: will that work?
PopRocksQueenK: okay
PopRocksQueenK: sure
vartan88: appearance of light symbolizes consciousness.
vartan88: is it moonlight?
PopRocksQueenK: yes, there was bright big moon, so it helped
vartan88: moonlight - it is the guidance that comes from the unconscious - the intuitive part of yourself
vartan88: k - this is my analysis
PopRocksQueenK: okay
vartan88: you're conscious and unconscious - are both trying to tell you that your fear is unfounded
vartan88: the diff. symbols are representing both - affirming your non-need to worry about being frustrated
vartan88: that is all
vartan88: lol
PopRocksQueenK: lol why thank you my love!
vartan88: :-)
vartan88: does that help?
PopRocksQueenK: sure, yeah
vartan88: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: I have no idea
PopRocksQueenK: lol
PopRocksQueenK: I thank you
vartan88: well it's diff if you use only one symbol and then go by it - trying to mix gets confusing - and unfortuneately - dream books don't come in the "i had a sexually frustrating dream about moonlight and twinkling lights and penises and oceans"
PopRocksQueenK: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: they should
vartan88: yes
PopRocksQueenK: I'm sure they happen often enough
vartan88: it would be neat if they had like a dream analysis thing where you could plug in like four or five symbols
PopRocksQueenK: it would!
PopRocksQueenK: They need one
vartan88: do a search -maybe they have one out there
PopRocksQueenK: already headed to google
vartan88: haha
vartan88: k
PopRocksQueenK: grazie bella
vartan88: no prob
vartan88: my pleasure
PopRocksQueenK: not mine, apparently ;-)
vartan88: LOL
vartan88: YOUR pleasure
PopRocksQueenK: hehehe
vartan88: anything else?
PopRocksQueenK: uh... does it have anything under small cocks?
vartan88: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: or non existent ones?
vartan88: just
vartan88: LOL
vartan88: phallus - but nothing specific to small cocks
PopRocksQueenK: lol
PopRocksQueenK: what does it say about that?
PopRocksQueenK: oh! And tatoos
PopRocksQueenK: tattoos.. lol
PopRocksQueenK: no fixing
vartan88: haha
vartan88: phallus isnt very interesting - just says anything long and straight can be a symbol
PopRocksQueenK: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: wasn't long, that's for damn sure
vartan88: lol
vartan88: tattoo -
vartan88: may be about emotional situations that have affected you - left their mark. it may also be referring to a behavior pattern that has become ingrained into your personality.
PopRocksQueenK: OOOH... lol okay then
vartan88: may be a symbol of sexuality and virility
PopRocksQueenK: hee
PopRocksQueenK: all right, it makes sense now
vartan88: lol
PopRocksQueenK: not last night's dream, the one from the night afore where I was giving blowjobs on New Years Eve
vartan88: LMAO
PopRocksQueenK: in an abandoned house that really wasn't, but was a huge party happening
PopRocksQueenK: and something about a girl's bathroom and teenage girls who didn't know how to give good oral sex, so my tattooed, hot boyfriend and I were showing them. But yeah... weird
vartan88: lol
PopRocksQueenK: It was NYE
PopRocksQueenK: cause when the countdown hit 1 and everyone screamed HAPPY NEW YEAR! I was screaming his name, in the middle of the room, naked whilst riding him... and yeah.. WEIRD
PopRocksQueenK: I've been having the weirdest dreams lately
vartan88: LOl
PopRocksQueenK: lord help us all
vartan88: all sexual?
PopRocksQueenK: yes!
vartan88: hmm
PopRocksQueenK: the one afore was I was sleeping with DA
vartan88: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: and pregnant by him
PopRocksQueenK: and Victor Garber was my dad
vartan88: lol
PopRocksQueenK: but he went to kill Bradley Cooper cause he thought it was him I was sleeping with
PopRocksQueenK: so when David said it was him, Victor chased him around the set with a baseball bat
PopRocksQueenK: and then after Jen like drop-kicked Victor, we handcuffed him and made him listen
vartan88: LOL
PopRocksQueenK: so he was handcuffed, then David and I left him and we had some sweaty, slick fun in his trailer
PopRocksQueenK: on the kitchen table
vartan88: lmAO
PopRocksQueenK: and so yeah.. WEIRD
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