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[Feb. 4th, 2005|02:18 am] |
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wow this thing is still around i havent seen this place for a long time well things are ok |
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[May. 25th, 2004|12:03 am] |
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| | Misfits | ] |
Ive got a fever inside and the only cure is more cow bell-chrstopher walken |
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| Todays lesson |
[Mar. 15th, 2004|12:41 pm] |
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| | the cure | ] |
Here is your lesson for today’ ya better listen up real fucking good!
My cloud always has a silver lining’ and I
love everything that I see.
My world is wonderful and no one could ever hurt me.
You hate yourself’ yes you do’ and that’s
why right now I hate you.
You hate yourself’ yes you do’ and that’s why right now I can’t stand you.
Have you learned your lifes lesson yet No
Well let me tell you something.
I am your teacher you have a lot to learn from me you must love
yourself. You are my teacher you teach me about my life.
Theres a lot I can learn from you.
And that’s why right now I love you...
So fuck you! |
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| There was a time I thought I'd die |
[Nov. 24th, 2003|11:48 pm] |
Can't find it in the bible
Can't find it on t.v.
Can't find it in diamonds
There's something inside me that just went around it
Can't find it in music
Can't find it in my soul
Can't find it in chocolate
Oh babe I can't hide it
I can't even fight it
I heard that you miss me
Oh you should be careful of whom you've been talking to
Ten long nights without you have taught me to be strong
I've cut all my losses
Think no more about it because I couldn't fight it
There was a time I thought I'd die
If you should ever leave me high and dry
And you don't want me anymore
It's time to settle the score
I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of my temper I'm tired of the letters
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore
I just don't care anymore
I've reached the end of my rope and it's time that I've taught you so
I just don't care anymore
Won't cry these tears anymore
It's time to settle the score!!!! |
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| Trapped Inside The Cage Of My Soul |
[Nov. 24th, 2003|08:26 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Garbage | ] |
Inside me.
Empty, is how you left.
Confused, scared, alone.
I am confused.
I am scared.
I am alone.
I am without you.
You are heartless, without compassion.
I will watch you die
I will not cry.
Haze clouds these translucent eyes.
Sweat creeps down callused hands.
The lies outside, I cannot feel.
The pain inside burns.
And as tears slip, she does it again.
As tears slip she does it again.
Scarred, bruised and broken.
To the ground in tears I fall.
Sadness locked inside me.
Time ticks by, and soon I realize life won't end, it can't end.
Not like this, not without sorrow and not with fear!
I know you are scared, cause I am too.
And as tears slip she does it again.
Haze clouds these translucent eyes.
Sweat creeps down callused hands.
The lies outside, I cannot feel.
The pain inside burns.
I know you cared.
Why did you leave?
From my knees I now stand.
Begging for freedom from my cage.
Now praising life for what I was given.
From my knees I now stand.
Bleeding for you from my heart.
Now hating life for what was taken from me, by you. |
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| women |
[Nov. 6th, 2003|01:17 am] |
He Who Laughs Last...
No trust can be given freely, its' a valuable commodity, but obviously this is something you've never learned. Faith is something that you put in friends, and had I excess morals to lend, I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned. We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely. I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me. No bond can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship, but one thing that never comes between us is honesty. When you have something to say, you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me. Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never in your plans to be straight forward, so instead, you use deceit. Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking from the start. I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat. No trust! |
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| well it's gone |
[Oct. 20th, 2003|02:25 am] |
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I have basicly abandoned this place but visit my live journal http://www.livejournal.com/users/spiltbeer138/ it's updated more that's all -138
"I'm always around you to show that I care but I don't know what for. It seems to me that you couldn't care less so I'm not going to do it anymore. I see no reason why I've placed such a value on you, but my thoughts have changed now, I've opened my eyes and now I'm through. Lookin' back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found, all your misconceptions pummel me into the ground. Now, I look at your small life and it doesn't mean a bit. I pick myself up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit. They say all good things come to an end, I wish this didn't apply. You were once someone I called my friend but that's all now changed and I don't know why. Things are very different now. You've got nothing to say. It' s sad when someone you know very well decides to fuckin' die and go away". |
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| So.... |
[Sep. 17th, 2003|01:09 am] |
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| | Johnny Cash-The man comes around | ] |
Well things are ok since my last update, work has been ok but I'm off for the next week so if anybody want's to hang out call me.Went to victerville last thursday night to hang out wiht jen, got home early friday mourning to find out the Johnny Cash had died that was very sad to me I loved his music (R.I.P.) The rest of the week has been good, I finaly went to Beat it, it's an 80's club it was really fun I cant wait to go back. I met a new person her name is sita I talk to her online she is very nice and is a cool person. so today I took my permit test and i failed so tommorow liz is taking me to take it again,And i better pass or she is going to run me over. well that's all for now well if anybody reads this call me or e-mail me i will be home i would like to go out.-138 |
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| yup |
[Sep. 11th, 2003|12:47 am] |
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| | bored | ] |
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| | From autum to ashes | ] |
Well it looks like i have all week off, work called to tell me my shifts have been called of. so nothing much is going on jen has been down visiting, got my tattoo it's very nice i like it and that's all for now-138 |
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| Keep the memories of a broken you |
[Sep. 7th, 2003|01:23 am] |
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| | Devill Doll (she's hot) | ] |
so i'm in a good mood today. Yesterday went looking to get my tattoo but everyones artist was unavavalible so i did not, so jose had a party that he left cause he was on a date and i was incharge got nice and drunk, then yvonne came picked me up to take me home she is so nice. Today nothing in the afternoon but went to the disttilers concert it was fun, I love going to see them and brody is hot and I got so tired from being in the pit. Tommorow I go to work and then monday i'm off and jen is coming down so i will be hanging out with her,that will be fun. and about the accident that happend at work on friday was something awful so please don't ask me about it well that's all for now-138 |
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| Many moons later |
[Aug. 24th, 2003|10:14 pm] |
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| | Radio- Punk at 11 o clock on power 106 | ] |
Well Ladies and gouls it has been a long time. Lets do the update first well it have been an intresting 2 weeks work is good it still has it's up's and down's. it's kinda sad alot of people are leaving and i will miss them all I have worked with them since i started and they were the best people to work with, I would like them all good luck in the future with all that they do. my life has been good still talking to yvonne and kinda of seeing her widh i could see her more but it's good right now, i have been going out alot cant really remember what i have been doing but... , this past week jen came down and stayed the week so i hung out with her on my days off it was good seeing her I hope that she comes back down to stay for another week soon. well i will be making apperences at the distllers show september 6 at the glass house, september 20 at the inland invasion which was sold out at 10:30am yesterday but i showed up at 11am and the people at the wherehouse are cool and found 4 more ticket's that were just released and so i got my tickets no line waiting, then september 22 i will be at the white stripes concert and then in october 30 i will be at the AFI show in the pit so all. and today i workes at 945am that should be a crime i have better stuff to do like go to churc hahahaha ok I almost said that with a straight face so at work it was goth day I always like this day there are the nicest people in the park plus the cute girls and i got the leave early, so i was suppose to got out with yvonne and she has not called sad to say that i'm not supprised, and so I have been home and i fell asleep and had a weird dream about my ex girlfriend it was that we were still good friends and talked everyday it was weird cause i have no talked to her since we broke up. well that's about all for now well hope to hear from people soon.
"You can't stop me you know who I am.
This justifies now just what I am.
You crucify me won't lay by my side.
And now you'll need me until I die.
Guess what I'm dead" -138 |
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| Dressed in black |
[Aug. 11th, 2003|04:42 am] |
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| | Depeche Mode | ] |
So it's been a couple of days so let's recap, I worke d all week friday i went to the aquabats concert that was fun thet always are, saturday was my day off hung out with melissa went house hunting (she is moving) then came home and did nothing. Sunday I worked opened the shoe then came home and went to yvonnes party it was ok just hung out then came home and that's all -138 |
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| Nothing much |
[Aug. 6th, 2003|12:43 am] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | The Cure (greatest hits) | ] |
So nothing much is new, spent the weekend partying missed liz's party i wish i could have gone. my week off of work is over I work all week how fun friday is the aquabats show i can't wait for that and that's about all for now, I'm really bored and lonely I hate being up so late all alone but nothing i can do about it. so update soon and hello anybody reading this which is only me.-138 |
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| What's with today, Today |
[Jul. 31st, 2003|02:04 am] |
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| |  thankful | ] |
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| | AFI-(Shut your mouth and open your eyes) | ] |
So Today was my day off, I did nothing all day it was very boring and when i stay home and do nothing I think about alot, so I started to clean my room and that was kind of wierd looking through old stuff. It makes me think no matter what people go through there are other people who have gone through the same thing or somthing harder.
My life has had it's good points and bad , I have been in 3 relationships and 2 were really good kelly was a good person and shirelle well there was love there I just hope she gets her life together, school was good for me I did not have high grades but I never applied myself, friends i have gone through alot Brian,Lena,and Monique being the three biggest people in my life during school now it's melissa,Liz, and jose with out them I would have probably gone nuts, I have seen alot in my life so far and hope that I can be a good friend in the future to people as for me.
Right now I have no car so it's hard for me to get to work and my grandfather is in the hospital becasue he suffered a stroke only mild but still, and I think about it and it brings me down but alot of stuff brings me down. Not having someone to love brings me down not driving brings me down. I have been thinking about it I have had a good life so far I should not be depressed I have a good job, I have had someone who i can say i loved at one point, and I have friends good friends and I love them very much they make me happy. I have family alot, so I should not get down because Ihave all these good things for all the bad things so I just going on but it's ok I'm good. I'm thankful for having friends like jose,liz, melissa,boskie, they are good people and listen to me mayra and olivia for being the nice people that they are, all the people i work with are good people i enjoy my job even if I comlain alot well that's about all-138 |
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| Duh billy fanclub |
[Jul. 28th, 2003|12:14 am] |
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| | Radio (Mostly classic rock) | ] |
So in my last update I was pretty pissed, well friday was boring suppose to go to the aquabats opening concert in san diego, but I could only pick up the tickets between 7 and 8 and jose was out of work at 630, so we did not go and ended up going to a whole bunch of places and then just ended up at scratch which was boring, so I took of got home at 1am, then who should call the person who stood me up well she told me what happend and i felt bad she was not doing good so all was forgiven. On sat Yvonne came to pick me up and she took me out to eat for my birthday so that was nice then I came home and watched movies. today finaly went back to work, same old horse shoe all the crazy people then went out with yvonne at night hung out in the park it was nice hanging out and not just having to go to work, then came home grabbed some dinner then she left and that's all for now. |
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| FUCK YOU |
[Jul. 25th, 2003|12:44 am] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
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| | AFI-Art Of Drowning | ] |
so it's been a couple of days since i have updated. work is ok got my yearly review and i'm suck pretty much is how my manager told me so that pissed me off, going out all week it's been a fun week went to visit jen that was fun it was nice to see her again i hope to go out and visit her again today was my birthday went to catalina with my mom i had never been there before, it was nice quiet but nice. i was suppose to go to TGIfridays tonight and yvonne was suppsose to pick me up at 11 so they my friends got there about 1130 and i was still at home waiting for her so she never showed up so i'm pretty pissed but it's my fault. just remember "fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on you" well i guess i will be looking for a new friend anybody want to volunteer not like anybody reads this so that' all for now-138 |
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| Blood moon |
[Jul. 18th, 2003|02:05 am] |
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| | Tiger army | ] |
So I have not updated for a couple of days, not like anybody reads this. Well today worked sucked i had to fry cool I really hate it, hung out with the smutty basterd that's all for today. yesterday went to see 42nd street it was really good, I love the theater I miss acting, then about 1am yvonne came over to hang out we watched monsters inc then that's about all. Since this is for my own amusment i say these words of encouragement "I'll trace a line around your dead fucking neck!!!" yup that's it -138 |
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| Full Moon |
[Jul. 14th, 2003|12:51 am] |
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| | loved | ] |
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| | SKA | ] |
So last night i closed the fry cart and that sucked. After went out with kickin chicken and boskie, went to rainforest cafe it was fun i love hanging out wiht them. today, well yesterday by about and hour, worked at horse shoe it sucked i hate the guest. but after i went out with yvonne that was fun went to hollywood. meet up with olivia and kristen we were going to see pirates of the caribbean but it was a late showing, yvonne had to work in the mourning so we just hung out for a little while with them. then left and went home -138 |
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