04:15pm 20/02/2004
  I'm going to the Unseen on monday. Two people I hate are going. They need to stay away from my scene. They'll figure this out on monday. Cheers.  
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update   
09:23pm 25/01/2004
  Just to let everyone know, I'm not the one being retarded in Erin's journal. That is all. By the way, I got a new s/n on AIM: the X requiem. Add it if you want. Muah.  
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whatevah   
12:56am 18/12/2003
  Fuck it. I got a live journal. ( http://www.livejournal.com/users/knifeinmyback ). Check it out bitches.  
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!!!!!NEW!!!!!   
11:00pm 16/12/2003
 
mood: accomplished
music: Thursday *Cross Out the Eyes*
I got a new dead journal. I've had this one for almost 2 years and I think it's time for a change. Check it out, assholes. http://www.deadjournal.com/users/love_is_arson/ I wanted fucking love_as_arson cuz its my fav converge song but NOOOOOOOO it was taken. Bastards...		  
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shoobeedoowop   
06:01pm 16/12/2003
 
mood: irritated
music: The Distillers *Drain the Blood*
713 962 6311 Everyone call this guy and bash on him. He's a douche bag... Anyways. I took my finals. BAH. Also... he drives a champagne colored camry. If you see it, key it. WORD! I have the liscense plate #.. just ask. I'm evil. I miss Kati.		  
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Saddam is in custody and he looks like Jesus.   
07:30pm 14/12/2003
 
mood: productive
music: Rufio *She Cries*
I have so many things to do this week. Bleh. I gotta take finals AND find time to Christmas shop. I've already gotten presents for my dad, my sister, my brother, and that's it. I gotta get a present for Melissa, Duckie, Ashley, Kyle, Ashlin, Renee and Darren, my mom, and Jennifer. Fuckin ay. Gift certificates anyone?! I already know what I'm getting Kyle, my mom, and Jennifer. I'm clueless about everyone else. If you're reading this and you're on my list, TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT OR I'LL KILL YOU.

This weekend was coo I guess. Friday I hung out wif Melissa-issa. We went to Books-A-Million for a couple o' hours. We read and drank coffee and what-not. Saturday I hung out with Ashley, Melissa, and Kyle. We did some Xmas shopping and drove around to see Xmas lights in Kelliwood. Rich mofos... Ashley and Melissa spent the night. Today Ashley went back to Deer Park and Melissa and I drove Kyle back to Alief. That's pretty much it. I had a funny semi-convo with Melissa today on the way back from Alief.

Me: What should we listen to now?
Melissa: Cradle of Filth.
Me: M'kay.
Melissa: You gotta hear the into of this one song.
Me: M'kay.
Melissa: It makes me want to stab someone. Ya know... In a good way.

When I reread that...... it's not that funny, but it was so funny the way she said it and the fact that she didn't understand how horrible that was made it even funnier. Ohh my Melissa-issa.. How I love her so! Ashley was just non-stop laughs the whole time, especially when we went to Walgreens. She was walkin around with her ass crack hangin out. Oh man, good times.		  
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If I were a fish... I'de be a blow fish.   
01:39am 13/12/2003
 
mood: bitchy
I have to pee so fucking bad. Woo I feel better now. Anyways. I had fun w/ Melissa today. We made up a funny song. I'll post it later. Poor Duckie is sick and so is my momma. I hope they feel better :(. Haha I showed Ms. Shrout and Dr. Nelms today. They told me on wednesday that if I didn't have my shot by friday, I would get kicked out. I told them that I had gotten the shot last year, but they didnt believe me. Soo... on thursday, I faxed the records to them. HAHA SHOVE IT MOTHER FUCKERS!!!! TOLD YA SO!!! UHHHH IN YO FACE! I have to take so many finals next week. Bah humbug. I hate fuckin Christmas. I saw Ian at the mall today. I was gunna say somethin, but then I decided not to. Everyone's been tellin me that he hates all of his old friends now, so Melissa and I kept our mouths shut. I got a cool new book about Jack the Ripper today. As if there's anything more to learn about Jack the Ripper that I don't already know.

M&M's rock.

alyxcore: i have to pee
opteh187@sbcglobal.net: yummy, thanks for sharing
alyxcore: no prob
alyxcore: i feel like imma burst
alyxcore: im gunna see how long i can hold it in
opteh187@sbcglobal.net: dude, dont do that, holding it cuases uritha problems and can damage it, how would you like to never have sex again
opteh187@sbcglobal.net: sorry, but it is true and all
alyxcore: HOLY CRAPOLA
alyxcore: I CANT HOLD IT ANY LONGER
alyxcore: :-O		  
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<3 The Distillers   
09:36pm 09/12/2003
 
mood: excited
music: The Explosion
Well I had the best fucking weekend. Me, Duckie, and Stoner Sarah went to The Loud Six, The Explosion, and THE MOTHER FUCKIN DISTILLERS at the Engine room on saturday. Fuckin ay dude. IT WAS SO FUCKIN GREAT I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN IT! Woo it was an adventure. There was so much construction and one way streets and shit. We finally got there with about an hour to spare so we just stood outside in the nipple-freezin cold. We met up with Mayo. She's great, definitly a giggle-fest. We stole some posters, ran into people, touched some hot guy asses, and screamed our asses off. We were gunna do some pit action, but we were in such a hurry to get out of the car that we put a whole shitload of stuff in our pockets. I had a cell phone charger, a camera, money, a cell phone, and car keys. Everytime someone ran into me, my fuckin cell phone charger rammed into my thigh like woah. It hurt... I SAW KATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh yeah and I had a huge 3 ft poster shoved in my pants too cuz I had nowhere to hide it after I stole it. Man it was fun. Sarah stayed with me the whole weekend. She sure is a silly grrl. Duckie's 19th was on Sunday. GOOOOOOOOOO DUCKIE!!!!!! WOOOOOOOT WOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!! Happy belated bday home slice skillet!!! RRRRRRRAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!! On another note, I've officially moved now. All my stuff is in the new house. It's okay I guess. Blah. I'm in a good mood for some reason. It's probably cuz I'm remembering the show on Saturday and it's getting me all riled up! WOAHH!IHYIGDHZISDGLHZSDFG ISERGHRIEJ.		  
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40 days: Fuck your paycheck stubs Mr. Cadwell.   
09:36pm 03/12/2003
 
mood: apathetic
music: King of the Hill
40 days... Sheesh. The Distillers is on friday and if someone doesn't fuckin go with me I'm going to shoot myself in the fuckin EYE. I rah-eeeeally wanna go. I know Kyle will go w/ me but I kinda want it to be a chick thing since Brody's one of my strong female influences. I was gunna go with Duckie for her day-before-her-birthday fun day but it's beginning to look like she's going to have to work. BOOOOOOOOOOOOO ON WORK!!!!!! Mr.Cadwell is going to stick his stupid bible-thumpin foot up my ass tomorrow and I'm gunna look at him and say "Hey, fuck nut, get your fuckin jesus-freak foot out of my ass! I HAVE A JOB! MY JOB IS TO PISS YOU OFF! WANT PAYCHECK STUBS FOR THAT!? I'LL GIVE YOU A FUCKIN PAYCHECK STUB *writes down KISS MY ASS on paper* HERE MOTHER FUCKER! HERE'S YOUR GOD DAMNED PAYCHECK STUB! EAT IT, DOUSCHE BAG!" Yeah I have a lot of pent-up anger today. Lack of drugs and alcohol tends to do that to people. The big move starts this weekend. I have 3 boxes packed so far. Today was okay I guess. It didn't suck, it didn't rock. I went to school. I went to my dads house and played with my dogs. I went home and got online and checked my email. I went to Walgreens and bought some more powder and mascara cuz I was out. I also dropped off my mom's film and bought some photo albums because I realized when I was packing that I have a lot of loose pictures scattered around in my closet. I'm slowly becoming organized I guess. My mom is all excited about blessing the home and setting up our new altar and all that. I'm like, "bleh". Another new place to live, another room to decorate, big fuggin deal. This will be the 3rd house in 3 years. Fun. I'm becoming real accustomed to this moving thing. Let's see... I moved summer of 2001 to memorial parkway when my 'rents got divorced, then I moved from there to Nottingham Place in summer 2002, and now we're moving off Hwy 6. OH JOY! I'm so excited! If you can't read the sarcasm there, then fuck off and stop reading my deadjournal forever. What's even better is that I'm movin again in May cuz my dads moving and since I'm with him half the time... MORE PACKING! I don't even know where we're moving yet. Maybe after May I won't move for awhile until I graduate. Which would only be another year or something. Ah fuck it, at least life isn't boring.		  
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38 days: Warrior Princess.   
10:06pm 01/12/2003
 
mood: frustrated
music: Seinfeld
I've been sober for 38 days now. I want to fucking shoot myself. It will be better in the long run though. I just wanna snort something or drink or smoke or trip or DO SOMETHING! AHHHHHHHHH!!! There's temptations everywhere and I can't fuckin stand it. )($^(#^#%*^(#%****#######!!!!!! ISDFGH;DGHDS;GNSDFGDFGITWQHELTKWTJWRT. There are other things I can do to get out my frustration but I'm trying to be "sober" from that too. One battle at a time..		  
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11:52pm 29/11/2003
 
mood: calm
Thanksgiving...blurp. Another thanksgiving. I'm thinkin I should do what Ashley did and make a list of things I'm thankful for:

Family (including pets and extremely close friends)
Not-as-close friends
courage
intelligence
artistic ability
independence
honesty
loyalty
hugs
comfortable silence
education
diversity
being able to drop grudges
cold weather
not being in an abusive relationship
blue eyes
body art
being sober since October 25
angelina jolie
johnny depp
stupid people to entertain me
a vehicle
finally getting the settlement from my wreck in Feb.02'
pale skin
realizing hatred is useless
cody is with someone that makes him happy
gay men
tampons
jack black
food and shelter
medication
funny things my friends say that in 10 years i will still remember and laugh my ass off at
Mad TV
black pearl hair dye
cantelope
Pop music
NOT
"Hi. My name is Ura... URA FAG!"
make up
tooth brushes

Anyways... I'm unthankful for more than I am thankful for but I won't create a list for what I'm unthankful for. Incase you didn't notice in the list, I have been sober since October 25. That's not including medications perscribed to me. I feel like shit. I want some drugs and booze.

Yesterday was fun. I hung out with Kyle and Melissa. Melissa spent the night.

Today was fun. Melissa watched me dye my hair black. YEAH BITCHES MY HAIR IS BLACK AGAIN!!!! UHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I like it a lot. After I dyed my hair and all that, we picked up Kyle and Matt and hung out like we usually do. We found a bowling ball and dumped it somewhere lol. I'm not sayin where..... but it was funny.

I don't wanna go to school on Monday god damnit.

I hope I can chill w/ Duckie tomorrow. That would be neat.		  
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Me <3 the misfits   
02:18pm 26/11/2003
 
mood: blah
music: The Misfits *One Last Caress*
danzig
you're glenn danzig, the original singer of the
misfits.. truly horror punks' best memory


Who's your Punk Idol?
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drama is a bitch   
02:00pm 26/11/2003
 
mood: thoughtful
music: Evanescense *My Immortal*
I just found out that my best childhood friend, Diana, IS GETTING MARRIED IN MAY. What the hell man... She's only 20. Her sister Kris is getting married in March and she's only 22. Jesus Christ. This makes me feel weird. I feel like I'm behind or something. I need to get a man. AH FUCK THAT! Men are evil and I want no part of it. *crosses arms* I'm so tired of hating people. It's lame. It's really a waste of time. I could be out having fun and such but instead I hate people for stupid reasons, most of which I over-exaggerate in my head. I'm not saying that when I get pissed at people that it's not valid, but I think that I hold grudges for stupid reasons. The person I'm talking about should know that I'm talking about her. PSH WHATEVER DRAMA SUCKS ASS. I miss Cody.		  
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04:18am 26/11/2003
 
mood: hyper
music: Kill Hannah *Welcome to Chicago*
duckie fuckin cracks me up. Oh jeebus.

XscreamotionX: From STATE POLICE..USA (not a joke) State police warning for online: Please read this VERY carefullly...then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to take casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. Think of this as a bit of advice too. If a person with the screen-name of Free_mumia911 contacts you, DO NOT REPLY. DO NOT talk to this person; do not answer any of his/her instant Messages or e-mail. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the death of 56 women (so far) contacted through the internet. Please send this to everybody on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on
OWhatTheDuck: ahaha
XscreamotionX: im gunna add that person to my buddy list
XscreamotionX: LOL
OWhatTheDuck: AHHHH SHIT SON I WAS JUST SAYIN THA TO MATTQUEST!!!
XscreamotionX: HAHAHA
XscreamotionX: morbid minds think alike

OWhatTheDuck: AHAHAHAH MATT LOOKS LIKE THE BOUNTY PAPER TOWEL GUY!!!
XscreamotionX: say what

OWhatTheDuck: alyssa
OWhatTheDuck: ..i command you to go take a shit
XscreamotionX: lindsay
XscreamotionX: ..i command you to suck my toosh
XscreamotionX: LOL
OWhatTheDuck: ummmm..
OWhatTheDuck: before the shit or after?!
XscreamotionX: haha
XscreamotionX: BOTH
XscreamotionX: MUAHA
OWhatTheDuck: AHHHH, no thanks!

OWhatTheDuck: OHHHHHH MYYYY GOD!!!
OWhatTheDuck: NIGGA!!
XscreamotionX: LMAO!!
XscreamotionX: My knight in shining...FUBU?
OWhatTheDuck: AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
XscreamotionX: JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA!
OWhatTheDuck: i should call you just so you can hear my laugh
XscreamotionX: lol

XscreamotionX: so im thinking i just castrate him
XscreamotionX: haha
OWhatTheDuck: even better!
XscreamotionX: dude
XscreamotionX: by the end of our lives
XscreamotionX: we're gunna have a jar on our mantles
XscreamotionX: with nutsacks in them
XscreamotionX: by the hundreds
OWhatTheDuck: YES!!
OWhatTheDuck: cat toys?!
OWhatTheDuck: dog treats?!
XscreamotionX: haha
XscreamotionX: i wouldnt be so mean to my dog to feed him nutsacks
OWhatTheDuck: ehh no..i dont want testical breath on my animals
XscreamotionX: lol
XscreamotionX: HAHA
XscreamotionX: exactly
XscreamotionX: i'll give it to a hobo and tell him its some special balogna
XscreamotionX: oh man thats so mean
OWhatTheDuck: AHH NO ITS GREAT!
OWhatTheDuck: cause you know they DONT DESERVE ANYTHING UNLESS ITS FROM JESUS!!
XscreamotionX: HAHAHAHAH
XscreamotionX: man
XscreamotionX: when mr cadwell told us what he said to the bums
XscreamotionX: i was thinkin "man if I were a bum, i'de throw the money back at him and be like 'FUCK JESUS'"
OWhatTheDuck: man..i know!!

XscreamotionX: All i want for xmas is..
XscreamotionX: RICHES AND BITCHES!
OWhatTheDuck: YES!!
OWhatTheDuck: i want that too
OWhatTheDuck: TOP OF MY LIST
XscreamotionX: haha
XscreamotionX: and ******'s balls shining under the christmas tree
XscreamotionX: LMAO
XscreamotionX: with a ribbon around them
OWhatTheDuck: :-D
OWhatTheDuck: you know me too well

This guy is a douche bag

incaloco2001: hey I hope this doesnt sound superficial but are u slim??
incaloco2001: or thick?
alyxcore: neither
incaloco2001: in between?
alyxcore: no
incaloco2001: soo which???
alyxcore: I'de like to refer to it as FAT
incaloco2001: dont say that
alyxcore: sometimes fluffy
alyxcore: when i'm feeling pleasant
incaloco2001: umm are u thick in all the right places??
alyxcore: um
alyxcore: more like all the places		  
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Geezers   
12:07am 26/11/2003
 
mood: calm
music: DrainSTH *Black*
I found some funny old AIM convos today.

XscreamotionX (8:52:15 PM): I always say somethin and then go, "No lie dude."
Ashley Fn Nash (8:53:04 PM): haha tight. Today in the car I kept saying stuff like "man these shoes are hurtin my feet" then I would pause for a second and say "yep, true story"
Ashley Fn Nash (8:53:11 PM): and I mom was like dammit shut the fuck up
Ashley Fn Nash (8:53:15 PM): yep, true story
Ashley Fn Nash (8:53:17 PM): hahah
XscreamotionX (8:54:11 PM): haha
XscreamotionX (8:54:13 PM): you're so hardcore

Duckie12784 (3:43:21 PM): gotsta smesll so frsh and so clean for johnny depp
Duckie12784 (3:43:25 PM): *fresh
XscreamotionX (3:43:25 PM): oh yes
XscreamotionX (3:43:30 PM): i didnt see the depp part at first
XscreamotionX (3:43:35 PM): i was like, "FUCK THAT HOE!"
Duckie12784 (3:43:38 PM): LOL
Duckie12784 (3:43:52 PM): lol i fully recomend a full on odor attack for the other johnny
XscreamotionX (3:44:22 PM): dude
XscreamotionX (3:44:23 PM): totally

Duckie12784 (6:26:57 PM): i am in a weirdness mood..blahh
XscreamotionX (6:27:41 PM): well
XscreamotionX (6:27:44 PM): that would make sense
XscreamotionX (6:27:46 PM): CUZ YOU'RE WEIRD
XscreamotionX (6:27:47 PM): lol
Duckie12784 (6:27:51 PM): AHHHHHH
Duckie12784 (6:27:54 PM): yes...
Duckie12784 (6:27:56 PM): yes i know
XscreamotionX (6:27:58 PM): dude
XscreamotionX (6:28:01 PM): that was PERFECT
Duckie12784 (6:28:09 PM): lol
Duckie12784 (6:28:12 PM): yes..
Duckie12784 (6:28:14 PM): yes it was..
Duckie12784 (6:28:17 PM): because i am..
XscreamotionX (6:28:17 PM): HAHAHHAAHA
XscreamotionX (6:28:19 PM): oh god
Duckie12784 (6:28:21 PM): perfectly weird
XscreamotionX (6:28:23 PM): lmao
Duckie12784 (6:28:26 PM): AHHAHAHAHA
Duckie12784 (6:28:30 PM): you just cant get enough
XscreamotionX (6:28:38 PM): no...
XscreamotionX (6:28:39 PM): no I cant..

XXscreamotionX (1:40:20 AM): MPPPPPPPPPPP
XscreamotionX (1:40:22 AM): NOOOOOOOOOO*
Duckie12784 (1:40:29 AM): im confusing the everlasting fuck out of matt dude
Duckie12784 (1:40:32 AM): LMAO
Duckie12784 (1:40:39 AM): MPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
Duckie12784 (1:40:42 AM): it cant be!
XscreamotionX (1:41:26 AM): man
XscreamotionX (1:41:29 AM): damnit
XscreamotionX (1:41:34 AM): i've been typo'd!
Duckie12784 (1:41:44 AM): lol
Duckie12784 (1:41:49 AM): mp! never!
Duckie12784 (1:42:20 AM): ;p; ;-)
Duckie12784 (1:42:29 AM): ahh it messed up
XscreamotionX (1:43:06 AM): lol
XscreamotionX (1:43:08 AM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHa
XscreamotionX (1:43:10 AM): ;p;
XscreamotionX (1:43:12 AM): YES!
XscreamotionX (1:43:14 AM): got u!
Duckie12784 (1:43:24 AM): dude
Duckie12784 (1:43:27 AM): its a smiley
XscreamotionX (1:43:36 AM): noooooo
XscreamotionX (1:43:38 AM): thats an lol typo
XscreamotionX (1:43:39 AM): i know this
Duckie12784 (1:43:42 AM): yes it is
Duckie12784 (1:43:44 AM): on my screen
Duckie12784 (1:43:52 AM): so there!
XscreamotionX (1:43:56 AM): Duckie12784 (1:42:20 AM): ;p; ;-)
XscreamotionX (1:43:58 AM): LIES!
Duckie12784 (1:44:08 AM): yeah dude im not on aim
Duckie12784 (1:44:23 AM): im on trillian..so they are friggin smilies
Duckie12784 (1:44:40 AM): i was trying to typo lol with ;p; but it comes up as a smiley
Duckie12784 (1:44:50 AM): you know to make fun of your MPPPP!
Duckie12784 (1:45:09 AM): so i make my pint! niiigah
Duckie12784 (1:45:28 AM): ahhahaha lets call the whole thing off!
Duckie12784 (1:46:08 AM): MP! did i scare you off?
XscreamotionX (1:46:14 AM): ...yes
XscreamotionX (1:46:15 AM): lol
XscreamotionX (1:46:20 AM): or should i say..
XscreamotionX (1:46:20 AM): ;p;
Duckie12784 (1:46:27 AM): lol
Duckie12784 (1:46:46 AM): what evah
Duckie12784 (1:47:02 AM): if i was on the phone with you youd be like..crazy bitch is on something...wtf
Duckie12784 (1:47:21 AM): BIA! click
Duckie12784 (1:47:28 AM): that is how it would go..
Duckie12784 (1:47:33 AM): i tell you no lies
Duckie12784 (1:47:36 AM): niigah

XscreamotionX (2:09:06 AM): jaja
XscreamotionX (2:09:07 AM): AH
XscreamotionX (2:09:10 AM): u didnt see that..
Duckie12784 (2:09:18 AM): AHHHHHHHH JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA
Duckie12784 (2:09:27 AM): JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA
Duckie12784 (2:09:32 AM): LMAO
XscreamotionX (2:09:38 AM): yeah but remember thats NOT a typo
XscreamotionX (2:09:40 AM): cuz like
XscreamotionX (2:09:42 AM): we said so
XscreamotionX (2:09:45 AM): we said it was our new "haha"
Duckie12784 (2:09:47 AM): yeah ok
XscreamotionX (2:09:50 AM): so now when one says "haha"
XscreamotionX (2:09:52 AM): ITS A FUCKIN TYPO!
XscreamotionX (2:09:52 AM): lol
Duckie12784 (2:10:01 AM): dude..im watching from hell and its at the best part..
Duckie12784 (2:10:31 AM): when johnny corners the old guy and says FUCK YOUR WORD..in that really hot accent type voice...
Duckie12784 (2:10:34 AM): ohhhhh luckie
XscreamotionX (2:10:53 AM): oh yes
XscreamotionX (2:10:56 AM): ooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh yes
Duckie12784 (2:11:08 AM): that is the best part
Duckie12784 (2:11:14 AM): his face is all up on the screen
Duckie12784 (2:11:17 AM): OOOOOOOOOMG
XscreamotionX (2:11:22 AM): isn't theatre spelled RE and not ER
Duckie12784 (2:11:34 AM): FUCK YOUR WORD!!
XscreamotionX (2:11:50 AM): dude
XscreamotionX (2:11:52 AM): my new thing is savvy
XscreamotionX (2:11:53 AM): like
XscreamotionX (2:11:59 AM): when I tell someone to do something
Duckie12784 (2:12:01 AM): lol its er
XscreamotionX (2:12:03 AM): imma be like "savvy?"
Duckie12784 (2:12:37 AM): my word of the week is pimptasmo
Duckie12784 (2:12:47 AM): DUDE..i have a new theroy..
Duckie12784 (2:13:17 AM): all the little prissy girlies..walk like fucking birds yo..
Duckie12784 (2:14:32 AM): when they are talking, they all walk with their hands adjacent to their chest like "hey i have boobies! look!"...like they cant talk unless their hands are positioned so
XscreamotionX (2:14:59 AM): HAHAHAHAHA
XscreamotionX (2:15:00 AM): YES!
Duckie12784 (2:15:02 AM): and god knows they strut...but they look like fuckin birds with their hey look at my boobs jazzhands
XscreamotionX (2:15:08 AM): lol
XscreamotionX (2:15:10 AM): oh my god dude
XscreamotionX (2:15:12 AM): thats so true
Duckie12784 (2:15:24 AM): haha
Duckie12784 (2:15:30 AM): my data agrees
XscreamotionX (2:15:44 AM): dude ur like The Doctor
Duckie12784 (2:15:49 AM): LOL
XscreamotionX (2:15:50 AM): and I'm your freaky sidekick
XscreamotionX (2:15:52 AM): Egor
Duckie12784 (2:15:59 AM): Igor...
Duckie12784 (2:16:05 AM): young frankensties..
Duckie12784 (2:16:10 AM): *frankenstien
XscreamotionX (2:16:18 AM): haha
Duckie12784 (2:16:18 AM): coolest movie ever..
XscreamotionX (2:16:19 AM): YESH!
XscreamotionX (2:16:22 AM): I love that movie
XscreamotionX (2:16:26 AM): it's frankenSTEEEN"
XscreamotionX (2:16:27 AM): "
Duckie12784 (2:16:33 AM): hes like WHAT HUMP
Duckie12784 (2:16:40 AM): its FRANKANSTEEEEN lol
XscreamotionX (2:16:49 AM): lol
Duckie12784 (2:17:15 AM): i love that chick..shes all like you want to roll in the hay?! ROOOOLLL ROOOLLL ROLL
Duckie12784 (2:17:17 AM): ahahahah
XscreamotionX (2:17:19 AM): LOL'
XscreamotionX (2:17:22 AM): thats the best movie
Duckie12784 (2:17:24 AM): *AJAJAJAJAJAJA
Duckie12784 (2:17:28 AM): i love it yo
XscreamotionX (2:17:56 AM): *gasp*
XscreamotionX (2:18:18 AM): u said ahahaha!~
Duckie12784 (2:18:26 AM): i corrected myself
Duckie12784 (2:18:28 AM): jaja
Duckie12784 (2:18:53 AM): all is well
Duckie12784 (2:18:57 AM): for now

XscreamotionX (9:46:11 PM): it smells like ass in here
XscreamotionX (9:46:13 PM): maybe cuz i farted
XscreamotionX (9:46:14 PM): who knows
MeAndSidVicious (9:46:32 PM): lol
MeAndSidVicious (9:46:33 PM): lovely
MeAndSidVicious (9:46:38 PM): :::Claps:::

XscreamotionX (10:40:50 AM): I remember this one time, I was eating cantelope and sitting next to ashley
XscreamotionX (10:40:53 AM): and she HATES that stuff
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:40:59 AM): crazy kids
XscreamotionX (10:41:05 AM): and I bit into a really juicy piece and it squirted all over her face
XscreamotionX (10:41:08 AM): and she flipped out
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:41:57 AM): AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
XscreamotionX (10:42:08 AM): she ran into my kitchen screaming
XscreamotionX (10:42:09 AM): haha
XscreamotionX (10:42:11 AM): it was awesome
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:42:13 AM): ahahahahaha
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:42:16 AM): it sounds like it
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:42:17 AM): omg
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:42:19 AM): haahahaha
XscreamotionX (10:42:49 AM): now every time I eat cantelope and it squirts, i laugh
XscreamotionX (10:42:49 AM): hehe
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:43:11 AM): ahahaha
SenorQuatroMr4 (10:43:14 AM): thats awesome		  
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new look   
12:32pm 25/11/2003
 
mood: bitchy
music: Alkaline Trio *Trouble Breathing*
I think the new look of my dead journal is kinda coo. If you're looking at my post through a friends page, STOP RIGHT NOW AND LOOK AT MY PAGE DAMNIT. Anyways... I'm really bored right now. I mean REEEAAALLLYYY bored. Oh fuckin well.		  
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hair   
09:31pm 24/11/2003
  I think I did her hawk pretty damn well.



  
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Story of my life.   
05:34pm 24/11/2003
 
mood: lonely
music: Bright Eyes *Waste of Paint*
Bright Eyes *Waste of Paint*

I have a friend, he is made mostly of pain.
He wakes up, drives to work, and straight back home again.
He once cut one of my nightmares out of paper.
I thought it was beautiful, I put it on a record cover.
And I tried to tell him he had a sense
of color and composition so magnificent.
And he said, "Thank you, please but your flattery is truly not becoming me.
Your eyes are poor. You're blind, you see. No beauty could have come from me.
I am a waste of breath, of space, of time."

I knew a woman, she was dignified and true.
Her love for her man was one of her many virtues.
Until one day, she found out that he had lied.
And she decided the rest of her life, from that point on would be a lie.
But she was grateful for everything that had happened.
And she was anxious for all that would come next.
But then she wept. What did you expect? In that big, old house with all those cars she kept.
"Oh!" and "such is life," she often said. With one day leading to the next,
You get a little closer to your death, which was fine with her. She never got upset.
And with all the days she may have left,
She would never clean another mess or fold his shirts or look her best.
She was free to waste away alone.

Last night, my brother he got drunk and drove.
And this cop pulled him off to the side of the road.
And he said, "Officer! Officer! You have got the wrong man.
No, no, I'm a student of medicine, the son of a banker, you don't understand!"
The cop said, "No one got hurt, you should be thankful.
And your carelessness, it is something awful.
And no, I can't just let you go. And though your father's name is known,
Your decisions now are yours alone. You are nothing but a stepping stone
On a path to debt, to loss, to shame."

The last few months I have been living with this couple.
Yeah, you know, the kind that buy everything in doubles.
They fit together, like a puzzle.
I love their love and I am thankful
That someone actually receives the prize that was promised
By all those fairy tales that drugged us.
And they still do me. I'm sick, lonely, no laurel tree, just green envy.
Will my number come up eventually? Like Love is some kind of lottery,
Where you can scratch and see what is underneath.
It's "Sorry", just one cherry, "Play Again." Get lucky.

So I have been hanging out down by the train's depot.
No, I don't ride. I just sit and watch the people there.
They remind me of wind-up cars in motion.
The way they spin and turn and jockey for positions.
And I want to scream out that it is all nonsense.
And that their lives are one track, and can't they see how its all pointless?
But just then, my knees give under me. My head feels weak and suddenly
It is clear to see that it is not them but me, who has lost my self-identity.
As I hide behind these books I read, while scribbling my poetry,
Like art could save a wretch like me, with some ideal ideology that no one could hope to achieve.
And I am never real; it is just a sketch of me.
And everything I made is trite and cheap
And a waste of paint, of tape, of time.

Sometimes I park my car down my the cathedral,
Where floodlights point up at the steeples.
Choir practice is filling up with people.
I hear the sound escaping as an echo.
Sloping off the ceiling at an angle.
When voices blend they sound like angels.
I hope there is still some room left in the middle.
But when I lift my voice up now to reach them.
The range is too high, way up in heaven.
So I hold my tongue, forget the song, tie my shoe and start walking off.
And try to just keep moving on, with my broken heart and my absent God
And I have no faith but it is all I want,
To be loved and believe in my soul.		  
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Letters are written.. Never meaning to send.   
04:27pm 24/11/2003
 
mood: aggravated
music: Coheed and Cambria *Devil in Jersey City*
Yesterday was fun.

*Hawked Ashleys hair

*Went to Cafe East. People stare too damn much.

*Went to the mall and walked around.

*Came home and called Bruce.

*Bruce came over. There was nothing to do at my house so we went to his house and watched The Family Guy and Southpark on his computer.

*We decided we wanted s'mores.

*We all went to Diamond Shamrock and bought chocolate and marshmallows.

*DIAMOND SHAMROCK DIDN'T HAVE FUCKING GRAHAM CRACKERS! so we went to Kroger.

*We fucked around in Kroger cuz no one was in there.

*We left Kroger and went back to Bruce's house to roast marshmallows.

*Bruce's mom doesn't trust us with fire, so we came back to my house.

*We made s'mores.

*I took Bruce home after we watched Southpark and ate.

*Came home and watched some more Southpark.

*Passed out.

I have a big fuckin headache and I'm mad. Me, Kyle, and Ashley were supposed to hang out today but NOOOOOOOOO. Travis called me from Kyle's today and goes, "Hey do you have Eddie's number?" I was like, "No...why?" "Oh cuz we wanted to hang out with her." AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO MAD. It normally doesn't bother me when people do this, but this time it does. Kyle always uses his friendship with her to piss me off. I like Eddie, don't get me wrong. She's a really awesome chick, but when I won't do something with Kyle like take him to the Galleria to check out chicks, he goes, "Oh well fine I'll just ask Eddie cuz she'll take me." And that really pisses me off. Fuck it! I DON'T CARE GOD DAMNIT! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! I wanna break something. I feel really mean and violent right now. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!
On a higher note... I watched Gangs of New York this morning. That movie kicks so much ass. It's weird cuz it's about Irish immigrants in the 1850's in NY and that's when my family came over to America. My grandpa used to tell me how his great-grandfather lived in poverty there and all that, so it was odd to watch the movie. Anyways, I'm gunna go walk around outside cuz it's nice and cold.		  
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05:39pm 19/11/2003
 
mood: melancholy
music: The Cure *Boys Don't Cry*
Survey I stole from mel cuz shes cool and im cool like that.

10 of your favorite songs at this moment (no specific order)
~The Distillers "Drain the Blood"
~Glassjaw "Star Above my Bed"
~A Static Lullaby "Love to Hate, Hate to Me"
~Pennywise "Society"
~30 Seconds to Mars "Capricorn"
~Ani DiFranco "Not a Pretty Girl"
~Q and not U "Fever Sleeves"
~Radiohead "Karma Police"
~One Inch Punch "Pretty Piece of Flesh"
~Stretch Arm Strong "For Now"

09 things you're looking forward to
~getting the fuck out of Katy
~dying
~friday
~graduation
~getting money
~bein a rockstar
~turning 21
~Nov.21
~when my hoodie comes out of the drier so I can hide my arms once again.

08 things you wear daily
~powder
~eyeliner
~lipgloss
~jeans
~shirt
~underoos
~my heart on my sleeve
~a glare

07 things that annoy you
~fake jews
~christianity
~elitism
~dishonesty
~spelling "you" like "yew" some of my friends do it and I still love them but its annoying lol
~when my dog jumps on me
~when my cat puts her ass in my face when i'm trying to sleep

06 things you touch everyday
~my face
~my hair
~my bed
~my animals
~water
~clothing

05 things you do everyday
~breathe
~sneeze
~frown
~take a shower
~look in the mirror and hope I don't break it

04 people you want to spend more time with
~ashley
~lindsey
~my katy crew (melissa, hannah, and sara)
~duckster

03 movies you'd watch over and over again
~Requiem for a Dream
~Fight Club
~Donnie Darko

02 artists, band, famous people you want to see
~Angelina Jolie
~Jack Black

01 person you'd spend your life with
~myself even though I hate me a lot		  
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