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Thought I was - Dead ? [Jun. 22nd, 2006|05:56 pm]

I can be found at Live Journal and is 'Friends Only', been there since my last post here. I used to keep both going with the same updates - but anyone I know is at LJ.

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Off to Chill in PSP [Mar. 21st, 2005|04:00 pm]
[Current Mood | content]
[Current Music |Heat register rattling.]

Things have been pretty quiet around here. Spent most of Saturday in the laudry room and cleaning up a bit. Received an e-mail yesturday from an old Chatnet~ter, 'Merlin. An old chanop I worked with years ago, 'Rainy, passed on the 16th of a heart attack. Seems to be Mr. Dilligaf's choice of poison for the last little while. *sigh* We had a falling out, however, I wouldn't wish this mode of passage to the afterlife on anyone. Not that I had to, but 'Merlin did request that If I knew where the rest of crew were, if I'd kindly contact them about the news. After 2 or 3 hours of dead links and dead ends I finally found some people. However, non were active in the channel...except one sysop that I didn't know. Popped onto the channel today and spoke with obs. He didn't take the news so well. :/ Felt sick and had to leave. I imagine Unique_T won't take the news as well either since they had a 'thing'. Obs said that he'd let the others know. Then I got a mail from ^R2D2. Was really surprised to hear from him and the fact that he opened up to me a tiny bit. I haven't heard back from iether and I haven't returned to the channel for follow-up. Just to depressed right now. Plus, all the emotional drama at my other job where I monitor. Phucked up day. J.P. tried to cheer me up with some of his dumb humour. :P


( My cat is not special! )



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[Mar. 1st, 2005|01:10 am]
[Current Mood | hopeful]
[Current Music |in strict confidence - the truth inside of me (extended isc version)]

I got home this evening just in time to catch 'Ross the Intern' on Jay Leno. He was at the Oscars this time. LOL He wasn't feeling that great and over medicated on the Nyquil. Many giggle-fits. :o) He is just hilarious! He's so adorable, has a wicked personality. I'd love to be able to hang out with him sometime. Flicked a few channels over and Zed TV. Now, it usually is Hockey that's on Monday night. We don't need to discuss why that isn't happening. In it's place is ZeD's Virtual Stanley Cup Final. They've got people playing NHL '05 coming through on a TV screen with commentary - like a 'REAL' game. Kinda cheesy, sad... Poor hockey fans...what they're doing to fill the void.


*Mmmmm....hubby made chicken teriyaki stir fry.


We'd had a little spat last night. I kept joking that today was going to be the first day of my last week of work. That we should really send in his med receipts for reimbursement via my work benefits. He got angry, 'Why don't you have a little bit more confidence in yourself?!? You're going to do fine.' It's not a total lack of confidence, I'm just just being cautious - thinking ahead. I had trouble sleeping last night. Tummy was in knots. All I can do is listen, pay attention, study and do my best after all. But you know....after today....I think I am going to be just fine. 7.5hrs. today and we covered everything we needed to learn. Some of us have an advantage over others because we know our way around the program and have cross-trained to help other depts when they've been backed up. So for the next week, it'll be practicing, getting the steps down. The exam is on Friday and we'll need an 80% to pass. Sounds highschoolish, don't it? The group I'm with sure makes it feel that way. Of the 11 in there, there's me and and older lady. The rest are young, hyper guys. The trainer, Amy, was interrupted several times by burping, Tim Allen grunts by all, Denis Leary one liners and K.B.'s constant impersonations of Usher. And believe me..K.B. looks and dances like Usher, but can't sing worth shit. lol So when friday comes and I pass - great! If I fail....it's not going to be the end of the world. It's going to be a fun week!!


Awwww man!! My speakers are sucking! Wanna karaoke tonight, too. :o( Sound is terrible....there's a low droaning kinda hum coming from them. :o/ That'll be one more thing to add to the 'what do with our income tax return' list.

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[Feb. 25th, 2005|09:18 pm]
[Current Mood |D.I.L.L.I.G.A.F]
[Current Music |John Q in the background]

I have such a lousy sence of time. I have to think for several moments what all Idid last week or over the past couple of days. But it doesn't really matter what I did, I only re-call because someone has asked me. Finally it's Friday - the end of a stressful week! I've the weekend off and have jitters thinking about Monday. That'll be the start of another fun-filled stress week.

( Con't )
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[Feb. 21st, 2005|11:29 am]
[Current Mood | sleepy]
[Current Music |Cradle of Filth (sings Maiden) - Hallowed Be Thy Name]

I missed about of week of work. The night before I returned this past Fri., my manager had called to inform me that my dept was closing. He laffed and wished he could see the look on my face. Why? Because for the past 4 months he's been bugging me ever so much to move up in the company. Every chance he's had he'll ask...'are you going to New Loans??' Gah..shut it already. heh I dislike change and know the next position is more responcibility and stress..so I've always said no. Well...if I want to have a job...I've no choice but to throw myself to the wolves and just get with the program. So I start training at the end of the month. Must stay positive and all that crap. Blah.
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[Feb. 20th, 2005|08:25 pm]
[Current Mood | cranky]
[Current Music |Willie Nelson - Midnight Rider]

Well, I know more people here at LJ than I thought - most won't know I'm here because they wouldn't think of looking for me and...someone else on here uses my nick. *glares at X's* I primarily use DJ :P For the longest time when I'd pop over hear to look up a few friends...to sign-up a ref. code was required. However, yesturday I noticed one particular friend had their LJ set to friends only and that sign-up was hassel free. So here I am in all my purply glory.:P *waves*

*sings*
An' I got one more silver dollar,
An' I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

I missed about of week of work. The night before I returned this past Fri., my manager had called to inform me that my dept was closing. He laffed and wished he could see the look on my face. Why? Because for the past 4 months he's been bugging me ever so much to move up in the company. Every chance he's had he'll ask...'are you going to New Loans??' Gah..shut it already. heh I dislike change and know the next position is more responcibility and stress..so I've always said no. Well...if I want to have a job...I've no choice but to throw myself to the wolves and just get with the program. So I start training at the end of the month. Must stay positive and all that crap. Blah.
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[Feb. 15th, 2005|11:03 am]
[Current Mood | sad]
[Current Music |Willie Nelson - Midnight Rider]

Willie Nelson - Midnight Rider

I gotta run to keep from hidin';
I’m bound to keep on ridin'.
An' I got one more silver dollar,
An' I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

Well, these ain't my clothes I’m wearin',
An' this ol' road goes on forever.
An' I got one more silver dollar,
An' I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

Well, I've gone by the point of carin';
Some ol' bed, I’ll soon be sharin'.
An' I got one more silver dollar,
An' I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

An' I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

I ain't gonna let 'em catch me, no:
I ain't gonna let ’em catch the midnight rider.

R.I.P Dave
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Miss ya dirty biker dude! [Feb. 11th, 2005|03:38 pm]
[Current Mood | crushed]

I'm very angry at the world and the one referred to as God.  I know, I know...death is just a part of life and God is suppose to be a comfort for some. 'In a better place', 'At peace in their eteranl home' blah blah blah. My so-called relationship with God was shattered when he took my Grandmother when I was only 8 years old. Of all things possible, she had to be taken in an apt building fire and Fire was her worst fear. Since that horrid day, I've had nothing but contempt for this supposid loving God. I will and do respect people's beliefs in what ever and leave it at that.

I was at work 2.10.5 & about to go on my first break around 2pm today. My manager came over to my desk letting me know that someone was in the front office for me. Off I went to see who it could be and there was my husband, in tears. He simply told me to get my purse and coat and we were leaving. I couldn't just leave like that without a good reason. Family members cycled my brain, who was hurt? In the hospital?  He shook his head and said 'Not hurt'. Not hurt?! Not hurt?!

What are you talking about?! Choking back tears, he mutter the name...Dave. My brother-in-law. Hubby's mom was downstairs waiting, drove us over to my sisters. I called her and it had not sunk in. She sounded way to happy. Told her we were on our way. Called my mom, her and dad would be by later. While at my sis's she was not right. It was as if she was being host to some spur of the moment party. Steady stream of calls came in. She was awesome strong. We figure that because of her line of work....she's a nurses aid in a elderly home care fac. and deals with patients passing all the time...that her mind just went into work mode and doesn't realize this is her husband.

Fuck, I was just talking to Dave last Saturday about updating the Manitoba Motorcycle Club's website since the person doing it skipped out 4 years ago. His compliments meant so much to me because my own husband always says what I do is cool and stuff. Dave hadn't really seen anything I'd done before so his reaction was a genuine perspective. *sigh*

Got to my sisters, house was full all-ready. Two of Dave's brothers, his best friend, sister's boss and best friend, and a friend of the family. Marilyn was on the phone talking to people in town and states side filling folks in on what happened. Dave had not been feeling well for a few weeks. We all chalked it up as being a cold. Was yesturday morning at 7am when he'd been found way out in the yards of CP Rail, down on the ground of an apparent heart-attack. He was only 45. Still very much in shock myself.

Dave Morrison:

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[Jan. 26th, 2005|04:13 am]
[Current Mood | uncomfortable]
[Current Music |Snowplows are out doing their thang.]

*Pops in outta no where....*

Work: 6 month review is up - tommorow. My supervisor said he won't be able to have a sit down untill the 1st of Feb. Retro for raise - IF I get a raise. Since my probation was over in October, I've missed 2 days due to eating icky fish. I didn't know it was - Was the first time I'd had authentic chinese food. And I was out a week with no voice and all the lovelyness that goes with having a head cold. Make the nose bleeds stop - please!

*tried to go back to sleep*
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[Nov. 26th, 2004|09:37 pm]
[Current Mood | amused]
[Current Music |X-Fusion: Dead Love]

What a night to veg. I'm not tired and with it only being 9:31 CST time...it's freaking to early to go to bed. Neopets is bogged to hell with everyone battling. Even I want to fight but my pets have been subjected to the evil Hoochie Cookies. Blah. And I've done all I can on Powerpets. So what's the next best thing to do? Crank up the best Rawking station, Digital Gunfire and sort through the thousands of bookmarks I've stored on this pos. A tedious job but must be done. You know how it is...so many off-line. :/ Pages you totally forgot about ect...ect. Fun fun.
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[Jan. 31st, 2004|01:55 pm]
[Current Mood | stressed]
[Current Music |The Heavy Djs - Heaven]

Yeah...so I was doing a bit of cleaning to my personal site the other day. Well actually, cleaning up a big mess. Was playing with the mail settings of my webserver. I dunno...I had no plans on using the function, it's just a friend had asked....how to set it up. So we worked through it together only to find out it didn't work. I prefer OE anyway. It works just fine. Sooo..I 'un-did' the changes I made to the mail settings and WHAM! That took out the entire personal site! Ho hum. So I'd installed the back-up which was from months and months and MONTHS ago. (word to the wise - Update your back-ups too!!!) So have been deleting old garbage and putting back/finding again the newest stuff.

Then I realised that my link to DJ was gone....so here I am. To get that and link to it. Haven't wrote here in soooooooo long. I looked at my info here - Date updated: 2003-09-12 04:32:56, 20 weeks ago (someone isn't updating their account!) *blush* I'm writing ~ I'm writing! Just been well....busy...and ummm...ok...lazy bum. Naw...just haven't had anything excite'n to write about. I was hitting the snow-covered pavement looking for a damn Job! And that in itself - is a job. I don't think it should be called 'looking for a job' though. I've FOUND plenty of jobs. That's the easier part. Trying to get hired is the one hurdle I can't seem to get over. I try to apply to at least 5 - 10 places a week, so that's apx. 50 resumes out a month. I'm sure there are some people out there that do more than that! So anyway...one story...

2 months or so ago I applied for a customer service postion at a very popular on-line drug company located here in Winnipeg. I thought I had an excellent chance at getting the postion because I'd worked for the company indirectly for about 6 months prior. (was a third-party call center I worked in then). So I applied and I got a call back. But, it was wierd...I talked to this guy right. He asked me they typical questions an employer would ask. When could you start, any days you can't work, where have you worked before..yadda yadda. He didn't ask me in for an interview - he said he'd call back and let me know. Well I didn't hear back. Dammit! Well, 4 months ago, I applied at a temp agency. I got a call from them a week before christmas. They had a CSR position availible and you'll never guess where! The very on-line drug company I applied at 2 months ago. WTF! They wouldn't hire me 2 months ago but they'll hire me now via a cheaper way - temp. Gawd. I took it. Was told it'd be at least 4 months. And the time I was on social assistance. So things are going real great. I LOVE this job ~ actually look forward to getting up at 4:45am and heading to work. I didn't want miss any hours at all and my social worker understood about me not making their mandatory meetings. First week was odd working hours so didn't make a lot of money, the holidays soo.. The 2nd week I was fitting in nicely, getting regular hours. 3rd week...went in on monday, great day! So about this time, 1/9th, I called Social and let them know that I was stable again, working full-time making decent money to live on. They'd have cut me off once they saw my pay stubs anyway. Well...I got home on that monday, 1/19, msg from my temp. "Things are slowing down so unfortunety, the company had to ay off a few people and...I'm sorry but you were one of the people let go." Dammit all to hell!! So now I'm back to square one...and debating whether I should haul my sorry ass back to social or not. The temp said they'd have more things lined up ~ I've worked reception a day here and a day there. Another reception thing coming up for 3 days in Feb. But it's no where enough to pay my rent and buy food. Just sucks. Totally sucks! Lots of jobs out there....again...just the rat race of getting hired.

Bloody cold here today...going back under the warmth of my bed covers with the classifieds.
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There are no words - Just Music & Laughter [Sep. 12th, 2003|06:33 am]




Rest In Peace - You will be missed.
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One thing I can't.... [Sep. 8th, 2003|02:01 am]
[Current Mood | annoyed]
[Current Music |Paul Oakenfold - Ready Steady Go]

...wait for is menopause, and I have a way to go yet. It would 1. stop the annoying visits from Tom and 2. Actually solidify to the 'rents the fact that this chick ain't having kids. My parents are cool with it....but hubby's parents just won't give up. You know the lines... 'Oh there's still time yet, one of these days...' Yeah, maybe one of these days IF by god something should break. Otherwise, eh...no...not gonna happen. I've never had the desire to have kids, there's no maternal thing going on here *opens skull, looks at brain* Nope, nadda. Hubby too, he don't want kids - so I think I lucked out there. I just don't like kids. More honestly put, I hate kids. I've 3 nephews and I only like them because they're family. Please spare me any further discussion of it.

Started a little game at the MPG (neo pets thing) forums called Mystery Man. Basically, I'll post a new msg or edit an old one with this graphic of a magician type looking guy and the first person to find it goes to my trades and bids junk on what's there. Sounds easy enough. It's been a day and half since I announced that Mystery Man was in play and no one can find him. Gah! It's just too easy to post a brand new msg. No, I wanted it to be a bit challenging. So people were complaining that they couldn't find it and gave up. Shew...so I gave a hint to look in past posts and I hope people will like clue in and apply the hint next time.

Last week hubby's friend introduced him to Magic - The Gathering. 3 nights in a row they sat here in the living room playing. Sounded all gobble goop to me. hehe Hubby caught on quickly and purchased more decks and some nights he wouldn't be home till past 11pm from playing at a friend's place. He really wanted me to learn, too. Card game? It sounds so confusing... Tapping, flashback, enchant... Hubby d/l the rules for me so I started reading over them last night. Then we went through our first game together. Hey, it's pretty cool and I kicked ass the first game! I actually like it, though still a lot to learn and get used to. Our second game lasted 2 hours and I kicked his butt again. lol Today we went over to Rob's. Now Rob and Phil are experienced players and hubby's not bad himself. One game a lot of stuff flew over my head and well, I spent the rest of the time watching a movie. hehe I didn't feel comfortable with Rob and Phil because they were using powerful cards that were pretty confusing. We all went for Chinese after words and just got in a bit ago.

Hubby's racing buddy was down south for another racing weekend. Dude's in the hospital now. :( Car jumped the track and he's got 3 broken ribs and fractured collar bone. Sucks for only his 4th race of the season. So will be visiting him some time tomorrow.

Oy, time to pass out.
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[Sep. 5th, 2003|12:36 am]
[Current Mood | apathetic]
[Current Music |Gerald Levert - Closure]

Currently nibbling on: Cheesy popcorn (oh my poor keyboard)
Currently gulping: cheap coke wannabe
Currently puffing on: a ciggy
Currently wearing: Pj's

Went to a movie last night. Of the choices, it was a 'Yes!' for Freedy vrs. Jason. Decent story line, great effects, though the constant spurting blood was cheesy. I liked it and it will find it's way into my horror collection one of these days. Finished another graphic tutorial, my second sig tag one. My testers seemed to have the most problem with the vector text. You know, unless it's written 'Use your own creativity', people are dependant on every instruction. How do you explain that they can use their own imagination. So of the 5 testers, 2 did it and helped me fix some things up. Now I've 5 tuts to finish and can then work on some other ideas I have.

( Bad history )

Time to pass out.
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[Sep. 2nd, 2003|08:24 pm]
[Current Mood | ecstatic]
[Current Music |Fabb'x - Driving License]

Hubby got home last night - I missed him. :) He rummaged through his travel bag as I sat and watched - waiting anxiously for that plastic, purple thing that's supposed to talk. Finally he pulls out the wall mart shopping bag and hands it to me. :) There inside was the cutest purple Shoyru. *eeeee*
It came with a RIC, haven't used it yet. Reading the instructions, these things sound like what furby's do. Hubby said that they had voice activated Plushies!! And they're big (length of hubby's arm)! $30.00 US. They work the same way as the plastic ones. Squeeze their paws and away they chatter.

Cat loves Shoyru too hehe
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Sonnet for Loneliness [Aug. 31st, 2003|11:11 pm]
I see the world with jaded eyes,
Blind to beauty which before me lays.
I see no joy down travelled ways,
And only darkness in the skies.
I'll never know the fire of love,
Or share my secretes with a life-long mate
My heart is hardened by the slings of fate,
Have I been cursed by God above?
I long to share but cannot with thee,
To tell you how I love you true
If I could but hear the same from you
God could do what he wills with me.
I guess I'm one of many fools,
Who plays the game, though knowing the rules.
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Dark As Night... [Aug. 31st, 2003|07:42 pm]
You can't run away from trouble,
cause there is no place that far.
Things aren't always as they seem,
a shame but it happens that way.
A broken heart doesn't always mend,
left too unsure to try love again.
I find it hard to dream these day as,
with a troubled mind and a broken heart.
Every day is a day shining bright,
ending the same way dark as night...
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Opps - Weird Fact of the Day [Aug. 30th, 2003|08:37 pm]
Armadillos are the only animals besides humans that can get leprosy.
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I Hate Subject Lines [Aug. 29th, 2003|10:44 am]
[Current Mood | content]
[Current Music |QOTD - Dry Cell - Body Crumbles]

Finally crashed around 10pm last night and woke up at 2am. Suffer'n from insomnia. Not actually 'suffer'n', I'm getting a lot done at night. I've always been a night hawk.
Hubby was talking about heading to the River City Speedway and I wasn't really paying attention. So when I woke up this morning I was on the couch (see previous post) and all was quiet. I was all alone. Hubby left a note that he was spending the night at his friend's place. ???? My ISP has been crap with the mail and I got a mail from him two hours after he'd sent it. So I popped on MSN, no one there. Called him at his bud's around 7:30 am and woke Rob up. Hubby called me back and explained that the trip was this weekend. OOOooooooooooooh!!! This weekend, I said. DUH! All winter him and Rob have been helping a buddy fix up his race car and it's this weekend that's he's going to race it for the first time. I told hubby how stupid I felt and he got a big laff out of it. *blush* Well that leaves me all weekend to tend to the BORING domestic stuff that needs to be done ~ without him under foot. :o)

For my what? 4th day using DJ I managed to figure out a few things. S2 is it...that produced this lovely purple template. I've had the chance to roam around and view random journals. Wow, there are some awesome layouts done by people. I'm just
not sure how to edit and over-ride this thing like on the OLD system. I'm in no hurry to go changing things around. I want this to be easy for people to read (like anyone does) that might be checking for site updates.

I joined a community ([info]all_art) *waves* I fiddled with the settings for that, left and joined again to see how that works. Alls been quiet at FBN Lots on holiday and what not. Miniblogs (tutorial) hasn't gotten many hits. I had one e-mail asking it was LJ or Tag Board so had to explain how it's not. A lot of the FBN members are beginners it looks
like but this is relatively easy stuff I'm showing them. Working on my next tut ATM. Just having trouble deciding on what kind of rust look I want to stick with. Ain't saying anymore than that. Oh, and I have to get some Halloween Avs done for Fanatical Infusion. I did sort of promise. Lots of time yet, but I'm such a procrastinator.


63 Days Left until Halloween!!!!

L8trz
-Fal
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I am a Journal Virgin!! [Aug. 28th, 2003|05:53 pm]
[Current Mood | cranky]
[Current Music |Rob Zombie - Iron Head]

You will notice a couple of things about me. 1. I like to use the word fiddle a lot when describing what I'm doing. 2. I Love Purple~ tiss my favorite colour. 3. I am notorious for spelling errors. Heck if you can understand what I'm saying then that's good 'nuff. Ok? Ok.



Ok so I fiddled around with the look of my journal. Not entirely happy with it just now...I'll be sticking with it for now. My head hurts from squinting at CSS, totally getting lost at DJ to find what I need to do, right hand is sore and stiff from gripping that dang mouse too hard *click click click click click* Good lord, try to find help for this LJ auto poster on the web ~ nada. Everyone talks about it briefly in their journal entries...mostly about it not working or something like that. I tried Semagic and it didn't want to connect at all. So I've got this other LJ auto updater thingermajinger. We'll see what happens when I hit 'post'



I seriously need to get away from the pc now. Couch is looky mighty inviting right now. :) I've a link in here...so I hope I did it right. Anyway..tiss all for now. L8trz. :)

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