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[02 Mar 2006|09:41pm] |
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I was just looking back at old journal entries, I can't believe I've had this journal since 8th grade. Thats ridiculous.
It cracks me up how things feel so completely different but are actually exactly the same.
I'm so ready for college its not even funny.
I love the past but I'm anxious for the future.
oh, deadjournal. you'll stick by me til the end.
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| land of the freeeeeee |
[09 Jun 2005|12:40pm] |
the vocal majors next door are singing the star spangled banner. I'm assuming they're practicing to sing at graduation. thats cute. its realllly pretty, too. it must be the select chorus.
You know, I think i'm going to miss the seniors. given, they were a pretty lousy senior class. but some of them were cool. and its gonna be weird not seeing them, probably never again.
its also gonna be weird to be a senior. its seriously mind-boggling. I can't even believe it. it seems like I've been waiting to be a senior for so long, and its finally here [almost] and its super surreal. on one hand its really exciting and awesome, but on the other its sad and so soon and all that.
I'm really going to try to savor every day next year, just enjoy being with my friends and being here.
because its going to go by super quick.
no, really, this chorus kicks ass.
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| the senior's prank. |
[09 Jun 2005|12:30pm] |
so today was quite crazy, first the seniors got called down to the auditorium and then lockers were searched. I guess they had waterguns with bleach :( I would be sad if I was bleached. hahaha
then in lunch, madness! I SAW A COCKROACH in real life for the first time ever. then I saw someone stamp on it. and cockroach guts. and there were worms and crickets and apparently rats too but I didn't see any.
oh those nutty seniors.
its friggin hot today.
I got a 75 on my english thesis. I deserved it, the paper didn't have any in text citations! but I didn't know it was supposed to. I should've asked but I was just to busy with other stuff I guess. So I'm re-writing it tonight to get my grade up.
oh, I just got a nice cool breeze. lovely.
ciao!
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| illness. |
[27 May 2005|11:33pm] |
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my stomach does not hurt. my stomach does not hurt. IT DOES NOT.
reverse psycology doesn't work on stomachs.
I hate belly aches! Sharp shooting pains! quite uncomfortable. & my dad won't come get me. I'm trying to relax, trying to breathe.
owie owie owie
I just want to curl up & sleep. tired Jill.
why oh why must the nurse be fired? I just need to lay down & relax for a bit. FUCKING CITY HALL CUTTING THINGS FROM PUBLIC SCHOOLS.
its all their faults.
stomach haiku
tummy is hurrrrting!
making me want to cry
why can't I go home?
xxxJILL
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| "help me draw his big fat head" |
[24 May 2005|11:53pm] |
"ms lyons? how come when irish men get old they become alcoholics?" -one of the many wide-eyed tikes [Conner, 5th grade.]
ahh, children. how wonderful.
this morning was the college fair, shanz slept in and missed it. :\
I saw about 50 million people I knew there.
"but ms lyons, those highschool people are yelling too!"
mary was there too! damn that bitch is crazy. she left a drunken dial on my phone last weekend saying: "FUCK MOUSE CHEESE. FUCK MOUSE CHEESE." that crazy bitch.
haha yeah so I lost sabrina & amber so I chilled with mary & clayton. I remember in 5th grade, clayton was super mean to me. haha 5th grade, what a crazy year.
uh oh, bell's about to ring-a-ling.
ADIOS BABIES.
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| giving the gift of life...and passing out. |
[23 May 2005|11:49pm] |
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well today has been fast-paced and exciting. I brought subway for lunch for steph char shanz and myself, this was quite exciting.
then suzi & I helped out at the blood drive, cus we're in national honors society & sweet like that. steph gave blood & I told her she was my hero. she is.
many poor children threw up/passed out from giving blood. BUT THEY DID A GRAND THING! I wish I could give blood, but I'm seriously afraid of needles. but I helped! so thats good.
next was lunch, glee of subway! steph said she felt great...but later she passed out! :( I hope she feels better. I'm holding her books for safekeeping.
then I helped a bit in the office, stuffed mailboxes. now I'm chilling in the computer graphics room waiting for 7th period.
I wish this was my livejournal cus there are other things I want to say but not IN PUBLIC.
le sigh!
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| yo yo yo brooklyn! what? |
[18 May 2005|08:01pm] |
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greetings deadjournalers.
HOLY FUCK deadjournal sucks. noobody even comments on my journal anymore :(
whats up with that yo?
today is a half day, how delicious. I'm heading over to the albright knox to rehearse for the MELANGE 4 bitches.
I have grahm crackers for lunch.
how do you spell "grahm" anyways? snaps!
I really need to stop listening to max's podcast show in the morning on the bus. because its hilarious & I can't help but laugh. then people think I'm crazy.
have I mentioned how much I love my ipod mini? its damn sexy.
yawn! I'm bored with this computer. I'm gonna go make art with the 6th graders.
BYE!
love-j.
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| come to melange! |
[15 May 2005|08:31pm] |
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[11 May 2005|11:28pm] |
today has been a really weird day. I just feel weird and mood swing-y. maybe I'm getting my period or something. that would really suck. I hope not.
today steph came back to school! she was sick. :(
we played cards in our ap classes, its so nice not doing any work those classes. very relaxing!
speaking of relaxing, I have yoga today. I like that indeeed! :)
adios.
p.s. I got into national honors society, thats cool.
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| what the fishstick? |
[29 Apr 2005|11:36pm] |
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man, this deadjournal is really raising from the dead.
but LJ is still better!
THANK BUDDHA today is friday. I'm going to the bflo news to get my picture taken for Debate, [city champions again, beeotch!] then I'm straight up CHILLIN. maybe doing my history vocab/practice essay.
maybe I'll go to the st. lawerence playground by myself and go on the swings and listen to my ipod. or get some coffee on hertel. I like adventures by myself.
speaking of BUDDHA, holy crap guys. THE DALAI LAMA IS COMING TO SPEAK AT UB.
I don't know if you know this, but the Dalai Lama is my hero. He's really my best bud. I would looooove to see him and hear him speak. my mom is gonna try to get tickets.
It might be the highlight of my life.
so today was a National Honors Society meeting, it was cute. I hope I get in, I fucking love doing volunteer work, it gives me that warm & fuzzy feeling deep down inside.
I'm SUUUUPER excited for prom now, mainly because shanz might have an after-prom gathering for a select few at her dad's house. I would enjoy that.
I hope her & mary as well as catherine & scott have fun at the tech prom. I would be really sad for them if it wasn't. they'll prolly have good times.
so back to my weekend...saturday I miiight get my permit, then I might go to scott's to hang out with his friends & catherine. & celebrate passover ending! yess. then mary & shanz might come over and WHO KNOWS what will happen when you put the three of us together.
then sunday I have to work, poor shanz'll just chill at my house I guess haha. then it'll be time foooor
ANI DIFRANCO CONCERT AT SHEA'S!
oh crap, I can't wait.
then I think I'm gonna stay home on monday. I've been so tired lately and I could use the extra sleep. & do some studying for AP exams. & get my permit all ready! besides, I've only missed 8 days this year. thats nothing for me.
yes I get a paycheck soon, thats cool.
now I'm gonna go, because I'm all excited about may. its a delicious month of good stuff.
<3JILLing.
p.s. fire drills RULE
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| hannah's birth |
[27 Apr 2005|11:54pm] |
happy birthday my hannah!
I hope you're home today because I might stop by & surprise you.
because everyone deserves a birthday surprise, especially hannah.
:)
school is boring. & travel is expensive! I'm looking up flight & train rates from bflo to NYC this summer [the grand shanz & jill college tour] and they are priceyyyy.
but we can do it. do it. do it.
"no seriously, violence is cool"
{claps hands} "black magic!"
-a very animated little 5th grade girl next to me.
hahahha kids crack me up.
duuuude this computer is TOO SLOW. oy vey.
it's much nicer out than weather.com said it was gonna be. I like that.
BYE!
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| today was like an episode of 90210 |
[18 Apr 2005|11:44am] |
today started out innocently enough, a quiet day.
i miss the bookmobile. do you remember the bookmobile? I would flip my shit when it came around. I got my first library card on a bookmobile. I distinctly remember signing the back of that fancy blue and white laminated card, filled with anticipation to explore this mobile of books and devour it.
i think I was in kindergarden. or maybe 1st grade. I'm not sure.
when I finally learn to drive, I should quit my job at subway and drive a bookmobile. just me, the open road, and a truck full of books. the thought only nearly made me orgasm.
so anyways, enough about my love affair with books. where was I? oh yes,
today started out innocently enough, a quiet day. but then it morphed into a twisted 90210 episode with all these crazy things happening all at once. I feel so out of the loop because everyone seemed to know but me. & I'm kind of glad about this, it makes me feel rather safe. however I haven't really grasped the reality yet and I'm starting to feel pretty down. just about certain things in particular. but I'm not gonna focus on that. let things run their course.
oy vey.
blocked internet at school sucks. I wanna check my e-mail & LJ friends. and myspace. arg.
finally, the bell! adios.
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| today is the day....i will shake my boo-tay. |
[14 Apr 2005|11:41pm] |
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salutations. it's 6th period, the period I do absolutely nothing. at all. I just hang out in the computer graphics room.
its pretty sweet.
its super nice outside, it has been all week. I LOVE IT. I want to frolic through the flowers like there's no tomorrow. today, if I finish my debate speech in time I think I'm gonna go to the playground and SWING. god, the swings are amazing.
fuckin a. LITTLE KIDS. theres this 5th grader conner who's on my bus & in this class. shut your yap hole kid. there are SO MANY obnoxious 5th graders on my bus, its swarming with them. get them out of here!
GROSS. they know my name. conner & some mexican kid who is also on my bus just said "hi Jill". get out of my life.
its weird that we have a debate tomorrow, it feels like we don't b/c we just had one last friday. I really hope we kick butt. that would be nice.
shanz got me this body oil from florida called "french honey". so far people have said it smells like:
stir fry
vanilla
coffee
syrup
i agree with the coffee. well anyways, it smells delicious.
this period lasts TOO LONG. i'm bored. I'm pondering asking mrs roberts to hang out in her spanish 2 class, sabrina & shanz are in there and I could at least have SOME spanish practice for when I challenge the spanish 3 exam this year.
adios paco!
<3 j
P.S. like my new icon & layout? that icon cracks me up. dance little cotton ball thingies! click & behold my new layout: ![[info]](http://www.deadjournal.com:8080/userinfo.gif) darkpuppiez
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| liana |
[04 Apr 2005|11:43pm] |
p.s. i've decided if i ever have a kid & its a girl, I'm naming her Liana. thats a fucking cute name. I need to buy some small pet like a hamster or something and name it liana.
cute.
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| period six |
[04 Apr 2005|11:32pm] |
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greetings deadjournalers.
its period 6L & i'm in the computer graphics room. i'm usually down in the main office answering phones, but the phone down there is broken so i just sit there being useless. so here i am.
i'm kinda irritated with myself because I missed the deadline for registering for the SATs in may. now i have to take them in june. I can't believe i forgot, i had the forms filled out and everything, I just had to send it in.
oh well. at least this way I have more time to study...hahah yeah right. I really doubt I'll study.
blah, I'm just so burnt out from school. I'm itching for summer. I'm gonna orgasm when it finally comes.
so spring break was pretty cool. i hung out with catherine mary & shanz. also went to NYC to look at colleges, and heres my list from ones i like most to least.
pratt
new paltz
school of visual arts
brooklyn
hunter
i still haven't seen purchase. but at this point purchase, hunter, and brooklyn are pretty much safe schools. oh and i haven't seen parsons. but I don't really see that happening.
YAWN. why am I perpetually tired? yet I get a ridculous amount of sleep. its quite strange.
its looking sort of nice out today, thank buddha. this snow needs to GO.
i'm realllly just killing time right now. what a useful study hall this is haha
adios mis amigas.
ahhh shit, I keep forgetting to study spanish. I'm not taking it this year but I'm challenging the spanish 3 exam in june. & I'm getting rusty.
<3 JILLinator.
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[31 Jan 2005|07:43pm] |
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boredom=new layout.
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| a long boring hour. |
[31 Jan 2005|01:52pm] |
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hello my friends. yes, i am at school once again with no access to livejournal.
today mike defranco had his first day at performing arts. it was quite funny. all the black girls are excited. hahah.
i'm staying after for a debate meeting, but everyone left at 3:30 and i can't get picked up til 4:30. fucking a.
so i'm just trying to kill time.
i hate waiting.
BOO! on that.
i'm sleepy...& bored.
JILL.
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| oh my god, i'm back again. |
[24 Jan 2005|01:55pm] |
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TOTALLY DRAW SOME!
yeah, i know. "whats Jill doing writing in her deadjournal? I thought it was dead? it even says 'Jills Journal R.I.P.' on her journal! Me confused!"
well, I'm at school and it has livejournal blocked but not deadjournal for some odd reason. so i guess this WANNABE LIVEJOURNAL DORKO will have to suffice. its not all that bad i guess.
oh NO THEY DIDN'T. usually i'm the last one to care if something gets "too mainstream" and all that. but COME ON. two little dorky 5 or 6th grade dance majors just quoted Napoleon dynamite. WHYYYYYYY! oh my precious napoleon.
i'm super happy because I came to school today and finished all my work. its regants week so i didn't have to come in, but i had a buttload of pictures to print and a science report to do. which i am happy to announce are
FINISHED!
thats right. i'm all caught up. I'M NO LONGER BEHIND! /dances\
my dad is picking me up in 15 minutes [2:15] b/c its a winter horror of wind, cold, and snow to the max. [to the max?] plus my bus ride is one whole hour long. and thats on a good weather day.
guys, i have the craziest craving for cupcakes. i can't wait for shanz & stephs lovefest party when i'ma make delicious cupcakes, and DEVOUR THEM!
goodbye. i love you all.
xoxJILLduJOUR
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| hello? is anybody out there? |
[09 Nov 2004|04:19pm] |
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this journal is pretty much dying...dead.
does anybody even read this anymore?
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| new layout. |
[08 Aug 2004|09:51am] |
finally.
<3
p.s. deadjournal still sucks.
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