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{09.11.2007|22:42pm} |
I've decided to use this again.
I'm eighteen years old now.
I live in Boston, with Jess. And Tova. And Medra.
It is November 9th, 2007. 10:45 pm.
I don't know why I'm deciding to do this. I just want to keep a log of things.
This'll be my life, when I need to talk about it.
Maybe I can just vent.
Maybe that's what I'll do.
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{18.07.2006|16:01pm} |
*blows raspberry*
I'm in Tejas right now.
Things have really, really changed. I can't even get into it. Wow, man.
First of all. I have AP shit to do. >.>
Secondly. My hair is curly.
Third. I still sound like a noobasaurus so I should probably just STOP right here and knock that sheeit off.
kbai.
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{18.02.2006|13:46pm} |
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Guster - Backyard |
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I feel so rusty with DJ. It has been, what, six months.
I am alive.
But I'm not alive.
Hello.
Nothing's happening.
My life is not ever-changing.
It remains static.
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{11.09.2005|00:38am} |
Hooray for school. Nothing much is going on.
I think I have a huge girly crush
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{14.08.2005|14:45pm} |
LIA IS COMING OVER YAY! I'm gonna drag her everywhere this week. She needs to meet my friends. And stuff...
Um. Yes. I watched A Very Long Engagement the other day. It was really good. The ending sucked though. He was alive, but he lost all his memory. Fuckin' sucks. Suuucks.
We should start a new game of TALES with Lia. She can be Genis, that's a good choice for a beginner. I WANT TO BE COLETTE. JUST BECAUSE I LIKE HOW SHE SAYS "POW HAMMER".
"Can I be Genis?"
"NO!"
I think it'll be funorama.
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| Ou est mon maitre de prince rebelle? |
{08.08.2005|14:22pm} |
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methie rufu - rebel prince |
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Yesterday was indeed fun. I'm gonna miss that bunny. :(
AJ and Jay Dee should update their journals. Cause it's fun when they do. And Tom for the hell of it. He did like once last year. He should do it again. Yes.
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{28.07.2005|02:34am} |
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 i'm getting tired of penguins. |
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digger - i want my hat back |
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2:34 am.
internet kicks back in after a full day of non use. damn connection.
now the internet is running full speed, which is good.
i'm glad i decided to come downstairs and find the charger for the SP.
i have been watching the sci fi channel all day.
beyond belief. johnathan frakes is strangely sexy....for gods sakes he's RIKER. RIKER. WHAT AM I THINKING??!
i just finished watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. i saw it once in theaters with sarah, it reminds me of how much i'd love to act with her on stage again. oh well. i can still talk over compie.
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i can't stop thinking about how much i want a puppy.
and not a dead one.
a real live puppy that i can just...have. aww.
i think i want to see if there are any options for me getting a job at the new bakery that just opened in rk plaza. hmmm
its so early in the morning that all use of proper grammar and capitalization is just down the tubes. screw typing the right way.
i watched stargate sg-1. i liked it. *washes eyeballs*
early today jess, dannah cannon, and i went out with daddy. he took us to salem because we wanted to go to bullmoose and the army barracks.
i convinced dad to get a new playstation game. i was trying to convince him to get DIE HARD (my favorite christmas movie!) but he ended up getting some lameo james bond game. AND NOT GOLDENEYE. FUCK. i didn't find any digger, or dillinger four, or funeral oration, or samiam, or mustard plug. wtf. i thought i could depend on bullmoose. wtf (for emphasis)
so we went to the barracks and of course i found a crazy hat with a bear's head on it and dannah grabbed a shotgun and a safari hat and chased me around. we found dad looking at mres and flashlights and canteens and he told us to knock it off. dannah got a shirt. i didn't get anything because i didn't have monnies.
so we came home and all the power was out in pelham. HA! thats what pelham gets for putting up a hannaford where victory once was. all the power was out. not even streetlights or backups! the traffic lights were out, too. it was eerie. just driving in the dark like that.
shit man, we had to run from the car to the stores. too freaking bad that i just threw on some sandals instead of putting my sneakers on. i was too busy watching jurassic park. i forgot how involved the plot was. and now i totally get all that dna shit. rocksors. it just makes me wantt o study genetics further.
...time for bed i think. gotta go to canobie tommorow and then to boston on friday.
i've also had some crazy dreams. weird stuff.
*points over there* HEY LOOK!
*runs away*
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{22.07.2005|20:21pm} |
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nnnnnnnooooothing |
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Hi again! It's me, Skelly. I love Master Chief. <3 <3
( I have gone completely insane. )
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{14.07.2005|17:19pm} |
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DEAD PUPPIES DON'T CHASE SQUIRRELS AT ALL |
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OH MY GOD
Today mom and I were going shopping, right? I was grabbing my phone (in the unlikely event that someone would call me. I know, right?) and I shut off the AC. So I leave the room and turn around and close the door.
At that same moment my mom discovered while doing laundry that she had distroyed all her summer clothes. Apparently she had a lipstick in one of her pockets, and the mess was crazy. Mom doesn't have many clothes since the surgery.
I was distracted, and as it happened, I slammed the door right on my middle finger.
I tore a bunch of the skin on the inside of my finger, like...where your finger taps the keyboard. RIGHT THERE. It's not like...off, but it is torn and was bleeding everywhere.
I was like "Ow." for a few seconds and then I started crying and went downstairs to show mom because the pain just came all at once.
She was like "omg" and wrapped it up in gauze and nurse tape. I HATE THIS.
Bandaids and any sort of thing that sticks to me or feels weird..I just hate it. I hate haveing something like bandaids stuck to me. I HATE them. I really dislike them a lot.
And I have to keep this on because if I don't, it won't heal and it will bleed everywhere and the skin will decay instead of getting better and now I'm gonna look like a boon this weekend. ;_;
OH AND I was just stirring the spagetti sauce and little flecks of it got on my new layabout dress. DAMN IT
But I did get some nice sandals and some shirts and stuff today. That was cool.
BUT THE REST SUCKED OLD SCHOOL.
(and AJ, I've been listening to DEAD PUPPIES allllll day aah! My sister is like "WTF". They aren't much fun..)
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{12.07.2005|00:41am} |
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Oh yes. |
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Dillenger Four |
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The title of that song should be "Super Powers Enable Me To Blend In With Machinery", but it didn't fit. Sucks.
Wow, where the hell have I been? I didn't even notice DJ got revamped to the MAX. I like it, though. It's nice.
Happy July, everyone. I hope you're all doing okay and that this month will bring you all good fortune. What the hell am I talking about?
The annual trip to Maine turned out way better than expected. I got a yellow sweatshirt. I guess thats all I really need to say.
The annual BBQ should be great. BADMINTON! Oh, and Jay Dee needs to bring his DS and Kirby Canvas Curse! I NEED to play!
Half-Blood Prince is coming out soon. My guess: Snape is the DADA teacher. *crosses fingers* Hopefully someone dies. Like that lame-o, Ron. He's such a loser. God, I hate that guy.
That was sarcasm. Ron is cool.
Been thinking about a lot of things.
Humans change, but I guess old feelings stay the same.
No matter how hard you try to shake them off, you'll get reminded of the past again. A wire twisted into the shape of a name, a set of spoons from last October, a walkthrough to a GBA game.
Hmm. Things may change. People will be in different places. Your mind will think of different people. But as we all know, humanity is still the same. No matter where you are, people are gonna react. Chances are, you'll be reminded of the way things were. And the way things always will be.
I accidentally read all of Genesis from the Bible. I am enlightened and I now know how to life my life the good Christian way. All you heathens are about to burn in hell. Sorry guys. There's only room for one on the Gravy Train bound for Heaven! YES
I'm going to Semi with Boba Fett. And theres nothing you scumbags can do about it.
But there's something about the way she said
"the only good boss is one who's dead"
I love you guys. ♥
edit: I got the title of the song wrong. It's long, mistakes are bound to happen. Heh!
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| IS THIS GOAL REGULATION SIZE OR WHAT, GEEZ? |
{25.06.2005|20:23pm} |
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de bonne humeur |
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Adam Sandler saying "DAMN IT" in his crazy voice. |
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Last night I drew a Clavat and she looked kind of sad. So I drew the Steel Blade in her hand. And behind her I drew some hills that were on fire.
I still don't know what she's sad about - Maybe she was a POW and had to help destroy a town. Maybe her town was attacked and her brother was killed and she has nothing now except for her sword.
I guess you'll have to make your own decision if you see it. It's one of those types.
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( survey from mer...vey )
sweeeeeeeeeeet.
Hey Arnold movie eeee!
*watches*
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{17.06.2005|23:09pm} |
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Man, I was such a fruitcake last year. UGH.
I was reading my archives and now I just want to delete them ALL.
I went from one person to another to ANOTHER all in like one year. UGH, again.
I mean, I would really like to talk about my personal life, but I dunno. Whenever I do it just sounds so..DUMB. And like...I'm in eigth grade again.
Only I'm not in eigth grade. I'm actually feeling like a freshman. And just thinking about back then. How awesome it was. And how it's only gonna get awesomer.
And I've been rereading all the "fiction" titles that I've written, and damn I'm so mopey and it's all so sad.
What's up with that? Ick.
Anyway, I won a doubloon. That's nice. I don't really mind not getting drum major. Next year, you know? Worthy people got it.
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{01.06.2005|19:01pm} |
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dave matthews band - #41 |
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Oh...ow.
Losing it. Auditions for DM are tommorow. Really nervous and kind of sick too. Mostly the kind where you feel like you could puke up acid. all day.
i don't even want to like...do anything. i don't want to anymore. i don't want to wake up, I don't want to have to look at everything i see.
I just want to go read my Animorphs books.
( ;_; )
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{24.05.2005|21:01pm} |
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dunno... |
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bush |
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Um. I don't know what to say.
( Don't let the days go by )
On a lighter note, Link is sooo sweet that i want to crap my pants.
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{12.05.2005|10:59am} |
Okay.
I just started the eleventh page of "Never Be". Go me!
I have to draw some stuff for C:\ DOS RUN. I have a few ideas. None of them are wicked funny. I don't know what to do for an opening strip. Je ne sais pas quoi faire!!
Yeeeeeaaaaah.
Today sucks. The only really good thing happened during B period. I got 92% on my genetics test. I'm not sure if anyone else reached the 90% mark. That's sad. Oh yeah, yesterday I gave Kim money and now I have more bleach. So yeah. That's pretty sweet too.
Today really sucks. I can't wait to go home and like...die. I want to go pick up a new game, I'm getting so bored with scaring myself in Halo and then dying. And dying. And dying. And fucking dying. I want to get a platformer, damnit! (Psychonauts?!?!)
Star Wars soon. Sooo sooooon.
Man I'm glad I have this thing. I feel so bad that I neglect my poor deadjournal, who will be three years this summer. Wow.
I just don't like the idea of other people reading about my inner thoughts. I guess there's always the "private" mode, but that almost seems lamer than having an internet journal at all. The point is for other people to be able to read it, right?
Right?
***
Anyway, I was at Barnes and Noble yesterday and I was reading a very interesting book about how Genetic Variety leads to mutation and stuff. There were all these cool examples and the book perfectly described what went wrong in the genes and chromosomes and then showed what the mutated specimen looked like.
One example was a set fo conjoined twins named Christina And Ritta. They died at eight months old because Ritta had bronchitis. They would have lived to be adults. The description of their personalities was awesome. The book said that while one was asleep the other was demanding food, and while Ritta was coughing and gasping for breath Christina was just fine. So yeah, two girls. Well, it looked like two girls from the shoulders up. But then everything just formed into one body. The girls were connected by one sternum, and one set of ribs that went into both their bodies. And there were two hearts, but both were enclosed by one pericardium. Ritta's heart was smaller and had ventricle problems. There were two sets of genitalia, but only one actually connected with the body. The other set was shriveled and smaller.
But it looked like two girls from the arm up, and then there was just one body, one set of legs.
It was NUTS!
I asked dad if he could buy it for me, but he said no. Shucks.
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{20.04.2005|21:25pm} |
SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
bahahahaha!!
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| More fiction! |
{20.04.2005|02:33am} |
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SOAD - spiders |
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( One summer. )
How come whenever I have creative output it's always angsty? I would just love to write something humorous once in awhile. But, no.
I got the idea for the story from reading a fanfic somehwere... I can't remember where it's from but it got an idea into my head.. the structure is pretty much the same.
i'm going to bed after I doodle Zelos. ^^
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{13.04.2005|21:21pm} |
Everything is making me upset.
1.) Mike and Caitlin.
2.) Richie hates himself and used to like Stephanie.
3.) I'm getting annoyed at everyone. Even those that I was around a lot during the musical.
4.) Caitlin won't be happy. WTF.
5.) Jessie is having difficulties with prom. She doesn't have a dress and her date would much rather be around other girls.
6.) I keep thinking about him. I don't even fucking know him! What's the point? I just can't stop, it's like I have OCD.
7.) I don't even want to go to Anime Boston anymore. All the fun is spoiled from these numbers above.
8.) I need another day off. I want to just...uggh right now.
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{30.03.2005|23:11pm} |
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head tunes - (politics and poker) |
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My nerves are in shambles. Oh my god.
Why would you say things like that? How could you possibly contemplate just ending it all without looking back at who and what you'll leave behind? How could you just block out all the fun and the wonderful things that life has to offer? Oh wait, you don't see it, do you? Well, here's a list that I know you used to love:
1.) Hack circle with your best friends.
2.) Wailin' on that bass guitar.
3.) pwning n00bs in Counter-Strike.
4.) Making fun of Jose in French class.
Remember? Why suddenly can you now just not know it? Is it because of her and how you both make each other feel? I know that you both are so stubborn that it's impossible to change the way things are going. You say you love her, and she loves you. Why is there so much pain? It shouldn't be like that. The two of you need to either
a.) work things out by talking. (yes, talking!)
b.) break it off.
And there's no way that suicide is involved in that. No way at all. And there also isn't the threat to strangle her in the morning before school begins. Murder and suicide will get you no where, and it will just hurt a lot more people than you think.
That's right, you don't think anyone cares about you. Riiiight, of course. If that's the case though, then why am I wasting all this time to try to talk you out of taking high doses of whatever pills you're shaking over the phone right now?
Because yes, I can hear them. All of them, each one sounding like a boulder hitting water in my ears.
You scared me so much that when you signed off with that last "well, maybe this will be my last" I grabbed my phone and ran outside in my pajamas just so I could get a signal so I could call you and keep you on the line and talk you out of doing something so incredibly rash and silly.
And I may be exaggerating, you probably are all talk. You probably end every AIM conversation that way now. But I don't want to take that risk. I don't want to know that you could have really hurt yourself tonight and I just sat back and said "He won't". That would encourage you more, and I won't wish to promote that. Not to mention this time you were more seious than you ever have been before.
Can't you see that there are so many people that would hate to see you gone?
I can. I can and I would cry for days if you were gone because I'd think it was my fault that you OD'ed and died and I was the last one you talked to. Believe it or not, I still really care about you and when you worry me like that you know I'm gonna do something about it.
I'm just really glad you didn't. I'm really glad you promised me you wouldn't. I'm really glad that I stood out in the middle of the road with two bars on my phone just so I could hear you say "All right. I'll wait."
Fuck you and your "no one cares". If no one cared then I wouldn't have done all this just to make sure that you were okay.
Hey, guess what Michael? I'm your fucking friend. That's what we're here for, and that's what we do.
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{26.03.2005|23:12pm} |
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Random GW Tune - White Reflection |
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I feel your love reflection
mitsumekaesu hitomi ni
egaite haruka na Neverending Story
Oh nos, the Gundam Wing kick is coming back.
AAACK!
*listens to Trowa's sad clown song* :(
Anyway, what a day to spend on the night before Easter. Dannah went to bed at like 9 and I've been on the computer. Mom went out dancing at some place that I don't know about and Jess is upstairs being a fangrill.
Oh yeah, I gotta get started on "Never Be". I guess I'll do that now.
(hahahah secret whoo)
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