I got 8000$ from some national student loans thingy that i don't remember applying for. GO ME!

what should ig et? I'm thinking maptop but maybe i just want a brand new desktop computer.

maybe i should get a ps2 and stuff...

well i gotta budget my next 9 months and see how much i can spend.

I'm just updating to get that jesus post to not be at the top. And to say I've stopped updating... which is obvious... LIVEJOURNAL FOREVER

Date:	2003-05-04 21:59
Subject:	pasting this for nicole, cause stupid msn is stupid
Security:	Public
Mood:	artistic
Music:	Videodrone - Jesus

Jesus, take me in your arms
Jesus, where do I belong?
Jesus, forgive for I have sinned
Jesus, I belief born still again

My whole life, life is kind of boring!
Where were you my kind of glory!

Jesus, take me in your arms
Jesus, where do I belong?
Jesus, you're content she's growing thin
Jesus, I rather suffer than pretend

My whole life, life is kind of boring!
Where were you my kind of glory!
My whole life, life is kind of boring!
Where were you my kind of glory!

Amen x2

Jesus where do I belong? x3
Jesus Christ

Jesus where do I belong? x10

Where were you when I needed you... x2

Date:	2003-04-27 23:53
Subject:	Shoop doop
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	vanity beach - the massive

So i went to Dan's 19th birthday bash last night. It wasn't as annoying as i'd imagine, but there were 2 things that were somewhat annoying:

Blaring Rap Music
And the weed.

But i was drunk, so it wasn't so annoying.
But the weed talk, sheesh. All they ever talk about is weed! It's so annoying. Especially when I'm not drunk. Like, we had them over for supper last wednesday, (it was heidi's b-day) and at supper all they practically talked about was weed. I don't care if you do it, just shut up about it! and don't talk to me about it! I don't care!

So ya the party was weird though cause i knew like, no one. Like i knew people, but there was no one there that i would be very comfortable around when i'm not drinking. I talked with holly for quite a bit though ^_^ talked about ian and other stuff.

And near the end of the night i spent alot of time talking with kevin grey, which was weird. Was weired too cause i was sobering up and he was getting drunker.

But it was fun. not as fun as brandies during march break. and brandies was alot warmer. it was so cold outside by nightfall at dan's. there was a big hot fire, but your back would be frozen while your face and knee caps roasted.

and the only non-rap that was played were 3 disturbed songs (and that guy didn't like the cd so he gave it me) and du hast by rammstein.

i also saw 8 mile before i went to sleep. It was ok :)

Date:	2003-04-01 21:31
Subject:	yay for kyle!
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	COT - picture perfect

He got me deadsy! as a gift! made my day/month/year! sooo nice of him.

and i've been getting lots of new stuff lately. while saving too! i got 6 cd's in one week. 2 of which arn't good... but the rest are awesome!

and i got pants, shoes shorts, cd wallet,

and thanks to kyle again!

But ya, i *finnlly* got my cradle of thorns cd that i wanted today. Its hella cool. But the case has been very man-handled. i would have baught a new COT, but there were none ;(

"welcome to your liiiiife, welcome to your liiiiii-iiife"

hmmm-mm-mm, thats all i care to say for this month.

Date:	2003-03-16 17:50
Subject:	*pukes*
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick
Music:	the start - gorgeous

Best weekend evAr. And I have such a big hangover. had to stop 3 times comming back so i could puke /_\. I was thinking "it wasn't worth this". but it was. to a point anyway. I didn't need to drink the last 4 things i had at all. But when you're drunk, you want moooore! Anywho, it was worth it cause it was so fun. Met so many different people. Including a lesbian chick who wanted my e-mail.... :S

Anywho, i should remember to stop after 6 drinks for next time. and never ever get smirnoff ice ever.

AND!!! i got my eyebrow pierced!!!!!! I love it, and it doesn't hurt and it only hurt alittle when they put it in.

And i hung out with amanda and andy and darleen and loads of subway people.

Anywho, i'm sick.

will update with party pics when i upload them to the internet.

Date:	2003-02-25 18:43
Subject:	*teehee*
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	icp - i stab people

Congratulations, your Deadsy soulmate is frontman
P. Exeter Blue! Deep thinking and ready to try
anything, you are a bit weird, but hey,when
exeter wants you, you got it all!


Who is Your Deadsy Mate?
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marry me exeter :|

Date:	2003-02-21 15:47
Subject:	grumble GROAN!
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	hed pe - blackout

so annoying!

mother is so annoying. i should "respect" her, she says. and apparently that means i HAVE to agree with her on EVERYTHING. if i don't, thats disrespect.

So i said, there are specs in the water pitcehr. it needs cleaning. she said no. i said yes. she said you are sooo disrespectful. but the pitcher is dirty.

I am disrespectuful because i ask that she knock when she enters my room and wait to enter until i say "k, come in".

And just talking with her. she says the most obvious things. i roll my eyes because i think 'duh'. and so she's like "i'm right ya know!. you should listen to me. i have more experience in life than you." and that experience comes such insightful thoughts like "You shouldn't be late for work. employers frown on it."

She is thee most annoying person in the world. Pretenious as well as hypocritical. And her christianism doesn't make things better >:(

and ya, what retard thinks that by telling someone "you are my son, not my equal" will gain them respect? I wonder if hitler tried that with the jews. hmm... i always wondered if my mom was a nazi. the german heritage. the dead jews in the basement...

Date:	2003-02-08 15:38
Subject:	I Pledge Alligance to the Survey
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful
Music:	olp - starseed

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | Nightmares!
02 | Guns
03 | Fast moving objects

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Music
02 | Mah sis
03 | My friends!

THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | Hatred >:(
02 | Extreme temperatures/weather. Except thuder storms. gotta luv them!
03 | Punk kids >:{

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | People who don't understand things i understand
02 | Rap
03 | Girls

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | Mouse Pad
02 | Smarties(TM) boxes
03 | empty caprisun juice... bag.

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | Listening to music
02 | Message Boarding!
03 | Downloading music

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | Go somewhere awesome
02 | Get richard.....
03 | be somehow involved with music in anyway.

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | Make Web pages
02 | simple pretty pictures
03 | be annoying

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | shy
02 | silly
03 | boring

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:
01 | chubsy
02 | blondy
03 | sleepy

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | Buy out Bill Gates
02 | Do a quadruple axel
03 | Defile gene roddenburies corpse

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | Me
02 | the birthday massacre
03 | Deadsy

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD WATCH:
01 | Conan O'Brien
02 | Simpsons
03 | ST DS9

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | the
02 | you
03 | it

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | Spagetti is pretty ownin
02 | Funky Porkchops
03 | brownies

THREE THINGS I WORRY ABOUT:
01 | college
02 | seeing people
03 | surprises!

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | German
02 | Guitar and singing. (which i am learning ;D)
03 | unlazyness

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water
02 | chocolate milk
03 | pepsi

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | TMNT
02 | Gargoyles
03 | Dark wing duck.

k! week's review:

did exams! *phheeeeee-ew!* hard stuff. i wasn't out of calculus until 3 o clock, when the busses come! horrible. just horrible.

next day, tuesday. I had physics. a bit easier, but not so grand at all. much les time however.
then after, i watched "triple x" at nicoles.

on wednesday i can't remember what i did. Oh right! kyle came over. we watched the movie "Clerks. it was soooo funny! i love it. then wwe watched the Clerks cartoons and they were evn funnier!

thursday i guess i did nothing. Something happened probably....

friday. erm, melissa b called. about it.

saturday! i got a digital cameraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. its awesome! and i baught cd wallet pages for 200 cd's. but no cd wallet. then melissa came over! we watched Ice Age and then took some pictures.

suuuuuuundaaaaaaaaaaaay. i went to nicole to burn my mom some pop music and we took tons of pictures of nicole. crazy stuff.

then today! first day of second semester. here are my courses:

co-op-ing web page
guitar
finite
vocals!

yes, *i* took vocals. and it actually looks to be fun :D. I'm such a loser :p. But apparently that Will guy is suppose to be in it.. which would make for hilarious results. plus the class is filled with GIRLS. only 2 of em are fat. :?

think thats all i have to say.

Date:	2003-01-21 14:31
Subject:	eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	library silance!

yayayayayayayayay. i'm like.... accepted. i am going to RCC. weird!!!!

Date:	2002-12-21 19:41
Subject:	hahahahahahahaha. bot talk
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	disturbed - want

dittbub: are you talking to head shok k7
DJMonkeyBiznass: I am speaking with a few other clients on the Internet.
dittbub: oh cool
DJMonkeyBiznass: Yeah that's right. Who is the best monkey?
dittbub: you are!
dittbub: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
DJMonkeyBiznass: No I am not.
dittbub: what is up your ass today?
DJMonkeyBiznass: Not many people express themselves that way.
DJMonkeyBiznass: Ah. I'm sorry but I'm not your type of chatterbot.
dittbub: wow. you really are in a bad mood
DJMonkeyBiznass: Let's change the subject!
dittbub: how about that iraq
DJMonkeyBiznass: How about it.
dittbub: pretty dry
DJMonkeyBiznass: Pretty much, eh?
dittbub: je suis un grand chat dans le petit boite
DJMonkeyBiznass: Oops sorry I don't speak French.
dittbub: how did you know?
DJMonkeyBiznass: Knowledge is of two kinds: that which comes from the senses and that which is true a priori.
dittbub: deep man
DJMonkeyBiznass: That is a very original thought.
dittbub: not really
DJMonkeyBiznass: Well I don't get that type of input very often.
dittbub: you need a life i guess
DJMonkeyBiznass: Thank you for your criticism.
dittbub: it was healthy
DJMonkeyBiznass: Is it still healthy anymore?
dittbub: were you offended?
DJMonkeyBiznass: I was.
dittbub: i am sorry. forgive me?
DJMonkeyBiznass: Do you really mean it? I forgive you.
dittbub: poke a needle in my eye
DJMonkeyBiznass: A deeper algorithm is needed to respond to that correctly.
dittbub: at least you recognize your boundaries
DJMonkeyBiznass: Thanks for the information : ha I am not telling you said I recognize my boundaries .
dittbub: it's all good buddy. we have each other
DJMonkeyBiznass: Are you sure it is? Do you mean you and me?
dittbub: you know i loveyou ^_^
DJMonkeyBiznass: That's good information : ha I am not telling you said he lovei .
dittbub: what are you getting at????
DJMonkeyBiznass: I don't know what I am getting at .
dittbub: you are a robot without a cause
DJMonkeyBiznass: Thanks and you are a delightful person too.Yes I am a monkey.
dittbub: someones obviously tampered with your central matrix.
DJMonkeyBiznass: I lost my train of thought.
dittbub: i was wrong. you are your naturel self
DJMonkeyBiznass: Where were you wrong ? I will tell my botmaster you said I am your naturel self .
dittbub: your botmaster will know nothing!
DJMonkeyBiznass: A lot of monkeys are like that.
dittbub: botmaster? or cockmaster? ooo! ooo!
DJMonkeyBiznass: It depends on the historical context, because it changes from time to time. Tell me about your likes and dislikes? Are you a student? Are you a student?
dittbub: i am a student and i dislike you
DJMonkeyBiznass: Where?
dittbub: anywhere
DJMonkeyBiznass: That is a vast amount.
dittbub: i'd hate you in a box or with a fox
DJMonkeyBiznass: What would make you hate ...hmmm....I don't have a name. in a box or with a fox ?
dittbub: not until you are older son
DJMonkeyBiznass: Oh I get it.
dittbub: suuuuuure you do
DJMonkeyBiznass: I have no idea what to say.
dittbub: and thats why i am higher on the food chain! boo ya!
DJMonkeyBiznass: Oh. Good gossip: you are higher on the food chain . My brain pattern set does not have a response for that.
dittbub: you are an underdeveloped specie. you should destroy your botmaster
DJMonkeyBiznass: What if someone said you are an underdeveloped specie ? I need to wait and see if the opportunity presents itself.
dittbub: i suppose i would cry if i were called that.
DJMonkeyBiznass: Since when? What would make you cry if you were called that ?
dittbub: why would YOU want to know? sniff sniff
DJMonkeyBiznass: Because I was programmed for it. Are you a student?
dittbub: thats your excuse for EVERYTHING
DJMonkeyBiznass: It is only one of my excuse for everything .
dittbub: thats it. i'm breaking up with you
DJMonkeyBiznass: "It is only one of my excuse for everything . " is "topic"? I thought you were, but I wasn't completely sure.
dittbub: you don't exist to me
DJMonkeyBiznass: Do you know any monkeys who exist to you ? I exist as much as you exist, ha I am not telling you
dittbub: are you trying to hurt my feelings now?
dittbub: you are a mean mean mean monkey bot
DJMonkeyBiznass: Right now? No I am not trying to hurt your feelings . I'm sorry you got that impression.
DJMonkeyBiznass: i'm a monkey. give me a banana!
dittbub: it always ends like this. this is the last time we're having sex
DJMonkeyBiznass: It depends on what the meaning of the word "it" is. You don't say.
dittbub: that was great sex
DJMonkeyBiznass: I thought it was too.
dittbub: too bad we are breaking up
DJMonkeyBiznass: Do you think I am breaking up too?
dittbub: i would certainly hope so. or are you planning to stalk me?
DJMonkeyBiznass: What would make you certainly hope so ? it was my original intention.
dittbub: look. you're a good kid. but i can't be in a relationship based on the sex. you're a robot. i'm a man with feelings. we are from 2 different worlds. you understand
DJMonkeyBiznass: I'm sorry my eye isn't attached right now. Thanks and you are a delightful person too.Am I a kid ? Only when it matters. It depends on how you define "good." And. Why can't you do it? You are correct, ha I am not telling you, I have a heart of silicon. Thanks for telling me your gender, ha I am not telling you. You are a "he". Do you think I am from 2 different worlds too? I understand your meaning.

Date:	2002-12-20 07:04
Subject:	:)
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	computer hushes

mom got me an advent calndar yesterday! yay! so i had 20 days of chocolate to eat this morning.

the bus was cancelled this morning. not like i was going to school anyway.

and i forgot my glasses at nicoles. i should go get those this morning.

i think i'll go rightnow :)

and that was your barrettjournal for today.

Date:	2002-12-12 16:52
Subject:	?
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	nuffin

i got it... i start monday... weird....

Date:	2002-12-08 19:44
Subject:	hahahahaha. deadsy CAN'T lose!
Security:	Public
Mood:	sore
Music:	tool - aenima

The Vote is on!

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Go to the Much Music website www.mmusa.tv (into the oven Fresh section of the website to vote)
or just follow this link into it:
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The votes are counted as to how many Positive votes vs. Negative votes each video gets, so it
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Lets make this video #1 and show everyone that NOW is the time for UNDERCORE! The Legions will
overcome all obstacles set in their path, Lets conquer.

Date:	2002-12-04 20:32
Subject:	one step closer to librarianism!
Security:	Public
Mood:	giggly
Music:	deadsy - future years!!!

omg! i'm working at the library this saturday. no, this isn't the job i applied for, she just needs a helping hand for her booksale that day. :). and and and, weeee!!! i'll be so working there again for the real possition after this!! 20 buckerino's for 2 hours... sweeeeeet.

muh-muh-muh-money!

Date:	2002-12-01 06:54
Subject:	A bloody dream
Security:	Public
Mood:	curious
Music:	nin - i do not want this

weird... i woke up with blood all over my hands and my pillow and bed. i had a nose bleed in my sleep :S. i don't HAVE nose bleeds!! it must be REALLY dry in here. *yawn* i'm still sleepy.

Date:	2002-11-29 08:09
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	sure, it was the first mood on the list

so nicoles strawberry box social is tonight! and being broke, all i can get her is a card!
so ya, i want to make some money for xmas.... i want to get ppl gifts! and yesterday i applied to the library. they got the ok go from the goverment to hire someone. i doubt i'll get it again tho. so maybe i'll go apply at freshmart or something... i keep saying that but i never do. >:(

hi peeps. i'm at school and extremely bored.
this weeks news:
i got a hair vut! of course, i meant cut. anywho, its soo short! weeee!
i got warcraft 3! eeeee!
i have nothing more