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[02 Dec 2008|02:06am] |
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Don't stand too close without apologies.
Wind me up, I'm ready.
Can't escape this line of best fit.
I remember being inside something more than you.
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| - Elska. - |
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[25 Nov 2008|09:18pm] |
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mood |
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 frustrated |
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music |
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Jolie Holland: Fox In Its Hole |
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I know that I'm insatiable, but I also know better.
I never know which I act on, though.
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| - Elska. - |
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[26 Oct 2008|03:47pm] |
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mood |
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 calm |
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music |
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Sigur Rόs |
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I had a brilliant walk in my old woods yesterday. Returning there felt like a long-awaited, triumphant, exuberant moment.
I want to adventure more. It's been so beautiful outside lately. The sun has been shining through the golden leaves outside my window and painting my bedspread.
I have really enjoyed this weekend, and even though I have three exams Tuesday, I'm not too worried.
I offended my supervisor at work yesterday when I laughed a little too loudly about Ken Wilbur. Unintentionally, really.
Eric is down in Illinois today, visiting the family. I wanted to go with, but I have a lot of studying to do...and I wanted to adventure.
Four things that complete a sunny, fall afternoon: a bloody mary, Peggy's guacamole taco dip, Kalamata olives, and a freshly opened jar of dill pickles. Those with, of course, warm socks, my space heater, and a walk in the woods.
Mmmmhmmmm.
Warmth, yaaaay:
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| - Elska. - |
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[09 Oct 2008|02:55pm] |
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mood |
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calm |
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music |
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Cocoon |
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I realized how the avalanche has grown over the past few months...but it's sunny today, and perhaps some of the snow will melt.
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| - Elska. - |
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[04 Oct 2008|07:52pm] |
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mood |
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 listless |
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music |
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The Arcade Fire |
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I can't explain why it's a sin
The state I'm living in
I just feel so tired
I go outside.
My mouth is full,
Your heart is an apple
Your mouth is full,
My heart is an apple.
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| - Elska. - |
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[24 Aug 2008|01:54pm] |
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mood |
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 restless |
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music |
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French Press |
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I've lost my head lately and I failed to realize that it's still summer. What is going on? I start school on September 2nd, I'm in Wisconsin. The view outside my window is still the same, even though it just recently changed. Is it that I'm just confused? Needing something that I'm not getting? Impatient? The spontaneity in me seems to have dwindled over the past eight months. I want it back. I need a change of scenery again. I have to keep moving, I have to honor that about myself.
Sigh.
Just...never quite where I want to be, but always where I know I should be.
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| - Elska. - |
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[21 Aug 2008|06:17am] |
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mood |
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exhausted |
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music |
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The fan |
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Well, orientation is today. I leave in about an hour and a half. On no sleep. Whatsoever. It became an unexpected all-nighter, strewn with racing thoughts and tense muscles. Going on absolutely no sleep is probably not good for a day like today--orientation will take about seven hours and then I'm going straight to work and then I have a party. Lord, alive.
It's been a long time, though, since I've run on true empty, so maybe I'll manage just fine. I'm just anxious. Restless. I spent an hour between four and five AM on the phone with Teri. She calmed me down a lot. I miss her so, so much.
Perhaps I'll crash within the next few hours, perhaps not. Let's hope I make it. I'm going for a jog right now to get the blood pumping (more than it already is), and then it's coffee time, and then a shower. Maybe some yoga thrown in. I gotta wake up, I really have to be on top of my shit today.
My spirits are decently high, though. I got to experience the sunrise.
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| - Elska. - |
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