Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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3:05 am - I'll Get you Falooza!
I saw the RPO brass quintet last night, all I could think was... man this field is huge I wish I was flying my plane right now..... They freaking closed the first set with a sousa piece. Then they did the same with the second set. Pissed. Did I mention I got 100% on grand theft Auto San Andreas? Steve, call my girlfriend with wether or not you have the alternative moog cookbook cd. I'm out.
( speak your mind )
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Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
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2:43 am - Just getting back into it.
Still think I should find out what's newer than blogs and do that instead. No offense intended. I don't really have anything to say. I'm like a half hour from beating San Andreas.
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
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3:17 am - BAck For a While?
So much to say, so little time. Maybe I'll be back Full time. Yes, It's after 3 in the morning and I'm here when I shold be sleeping for work. A job that you don't even need to be as smart as a moneky to do I might add.... or just did I suppose. I'm adding cd's to my ipod right now, and album art. Seems all the scripts that have been made to automatically insert album art to itunes don't seem to work with my setup. Hmmm.... My only real complaint with the 60g ipod photo is that it doesn't have any support for visualizations so I guess life is pretty good.
44.94 gigs free..... 2335 songs so far....
I just want to complain for a second. All those people around 50 plus years of age that know your smart but only hear themselves when they talk to you and give you a chance to say your thoughts, but don't hear them.... The ones that would miss thier favorite TV shows if you didn't program their TiVo for them..... They can all Kiss my Ass.
Now heres where the Genious Staggers.... It's about Left and Right setups for Stereo when you are listening to music. I suppose this thought is a child born from the fact that at work I spend a lot of time with one earpiece in at work. Well, here is my current cunundrum.... When I am at home I have the stereo set up so that if I switch the speaker setting to play only the right side, I turn the knob to the right, with the stereo and the speakers facing me. Do headphones compensate for that or do they make the left the absolute left as if I am facing away from the stereo? I would elaborate but I think you get the picture.
Maybe I should get a blog... Journals may be dead I know this one is.
this is my mood:  contemplative
this is my music: Spoon: Paper Tiger: Kill The Moonlight ( speak your mind )
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Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
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12:02 am - B-Movie Stars
No one showed up for poker. So Donny gave me a tour of the new fire house. We played some pool. Then he was flipping through cable and there was a guy and a girl pretending to have sex in "Voyeur Beach" Then the funny thing happened. .In unison..... .
Scott: "Is that my babysitter?!?"
Donny: "Is that my ccousin!?!"
It was. she wasthe only one listed in the digital cable info window.
this is my music: Chris Brown & Kate Fenner: Alberta Sky: O Witness ( speak your mind )
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Monday, June 7th, 2004
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1:51 am - My Music Renaissance
Lately I find myself sitting and listening to music like I used to. I guess really I never noticed I had started tuning it out. But it wasn't really tuning it out it was more figuring it out instead of listening. Following the words and the instrumentation instead of the result. When I think about it the last time I was totally captivated by the actual sound was the crumbly blue cheese guitar on peter gabriels up album. Two things to note. (second one first and the first one last) 2. It's been mostly... ok, all, chris brown and kate fenner lately... since the 26th when they came in the mail..... I wonder which one I will subject... aww fuck... dad will probobly be home again tommorrow. and 1. I will concede I totally stole the "reaissance" idea from sports night which I also just bought. the entire run of the show on six dvds. Fantastic. Ironic considering everyone I know that knows it doesn't really like sports. Except charles. Which I will admit is 1/3 of the people I know who like it. Which makes it kind of an "Elite" cult following. My mom likes it now but it's a bit to quick for her to keep up even though I started her at the piolet episode. John seemed to like what he saw to but I haven't asked him if hes a devout fan as of yet. Ok, I guess that's enough for now.
quote from wyoming.
somewhere in wyoming
truckstop in early fall
i look up from the table
to this picture on the wall
a cowboys eying a steer
he's got the thing roped and bound
the steer stairs straight at the horse
your rider is bringing me down
I've liked that verse since I heard it. I think the song otherwise has a flaw I can't place. IT ends abruptly after that and the first verse is a drug war preachy kind of thing. but that bit rules to me anyway.
this is my music: Chris Brown & Kate Fenner: Wyoming: O Witness ( speak your mind )
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Saturday, June 5th, 2004
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2:53 am - Declaration
This is a new game. You must state the declaration with an authority that makes your declaration final and impervious to any and all argument against your declaration. Then stand behind it as if moses carried it down from a mountain written in stone. As if you were simply a messanger of god. The only rule that makes this game fun is that they may only be used for completely trivial things. Like ordering food at the drive through at burger king. Which was the funniest thing I think happened today for me.
I pull up to the menu with the speaker and the order screen. (keep in mind I know what I am having because I have ordered it the same way, my way in fact, the last 20 times I have had burger king.)
"Would you like to try the new angus burger?"
"NO I wouldn't. I will have a #7 king sized with a coke and a chicken whopper, just the sandwich, and yes, I do want the free cookie."
Other notable declarations from today.
There is nothing better than a conehead sundae because it is the only sunday that comes with a cone too! Plus the cone is dipped in chocoalte and there is a special treat at the bottom.
Turn off that vacume cleaner and come over here and look at this sky. It is amazing and you are wasting it vacuming.
Attention shoppers. Eckerd will be closing in 10 minutes. We ask that you please bring your final purchases to the front registers for a quick and courteous checkout. For your shopping convienience eckerd will reopen tommorrow at 9 am. Thank you for shopping at Eckerd and have a fantastic evening.
So what if I can't have nuts I'd still eat a reeses sundae.
I will make a depends endcap!
It's a loop-d-loop follwed by a victory lap.
I guess that's enough. It's a wierd post but the snippets of quotes from today was worth it I think.
this is my mood:  indescribable
this is my music: Watching sports night ( speak your mind )
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
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3:34 am - The rain thing.
The problem is, as much as I live for science and understand it and wish that everything could be that black and white, It isn't. Much of what I am beginning to try and understand is pure speculation. Watching the trends and trying to figure them out and how they relate. The one thing I myself have turned a blind eye to is snow and how it relates.
I spend a bit of time each day trying to understand the un understandable (would that just be the derstandable?)(I looked it up. IT's roots went back to old english and it is under-standan. I didn't follow it any further) things that happen. Such as dreams and thoughts that fortell the future and the times peoples thoughts ring clearly in my head disquiesed as my own thoughts of course. I fell like figuring them out will make them yet another set of senses I can use. The rain thing is one of those strange thingsI know little about.
At first I thought it was me making it rain. If I was upset or happy to an extreem it would rain. Fairly consistantly. The going theory now however is that it is now me. It is my spirit guide or guardian angel or whatever he/she/it is.
I realised one day that paws knew he was there. I sent an important message to someone wishing them rest after what they had been through. I of course could not deliver that message myself because it was going to a place none of us is going to soon.... except for you steve.... just kidding... i hope.
Paws followed "the messenger" out of the room and a few minutes later it started to rain. Perhaps paws just sensed the oncoming downpour. Which would still be a neat trick I suppose. But he followed a path with his nose like the whole thing was confusing him then just came back.
The rain comes from the messenger. Not just for messages though. IT just also happens to be one of his tasks. Irecently decided there were many like him/her in the world. I used to think he/she was the only one.
Maybe it's all just me reacting to the rain. I like rain a lot. I guess it doesn't really matter. I like to think someone is keeping an eye on me. I don't need it so much today but sometimes I do.
Lately I have been trying a new trick where I mentally stand on a street while laying in bed waiting and waiting for sleep. Maybe I'll try bothering some of you regular readers tonight. Not in some creepy way, I'm not trying to use it to spy on anyone I'm just trying to expand my awareness and now that I don't do drugs I have to do it in strange silly ways. Just promise me that when I really do lose touch with reality you will all have me locked up and heavily sedated.
this is my music: Kate Fenner: Hook And Ladder: Horses And Burning Cars (1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
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3:01 am - Azren
This Azren stuff rules. It puts up what Itune is playing. Lately it's all about Chris Brown and Kate Fenner or thier solo projects. But at least it got me to stop listening to counting crows all the time. I don't know what's wrong with me. I had a kick ass birthday party. I was with my friends and I ran out to the end of the pier at charlotte. I feel like I'm due to write something strange... this is so web diary right now.
this is my mood: Sorry
this is my music: Kate Fenner: Linden Trees: Horses And Burning Cars ( speak your mind )
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3:01 am - Azren
I downloaded a client in the hopes that maybe I would write more. I have been sitting down with intentions of logging in and sharing my thoughts. Then I get into the web and go around anywhere but here. Kind of like back in the day when I posted lots of links except I am not sharing now. I was prompted by someone posting a comment to get off my ass. Well dear anonymous user, I suppose we agree and disagree. I know that I cannot make it rain by decree. It doesn't work that way. I realise this comment is unrelated to the topic at hand but it is relevent. I do hold myself in very high regard. The only thing I can hope to compliment that trait with is humility which I am terrible at showing. Sometimes I try, sometimes I fail. I don't really feel like going into the rain thing.... let's see... Oh, nevermind.
this is my mood: Sorry
this is my music: Kate Fenner: Peach Slip: Horses And Burning Cars ( speak your mind )
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Monday, January 5th, 2004
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6:03 am
IT was a bright deep pit filled with soothing ambient sounds. Relaxing as they were it did little to hide the fact that I was trapped here. Days melted into one and without the sunlight.... which come to think of it may normally be a welcome thing... I had no idea how long I had been there anymore. (Ed. note... how many years has the local time been right?) Maybe I would have found humor in the situation if someone had at least told me to rub the lotion into my skin.... that of course would have had dire consequenses ,ruining my flesh for the freak who would have wanted to wear it. I would have rubbed it in knowing I was getting the last laugh as the rash grew worse. Skin is the only thing that keeps all of you outside. Mine is terribly fragile and maybe that is why my mind so easily unites with its surroundings. I will work best when my skin melts away and my awareness can mingle with the rain. My skin is an unwelcome raincoat.
I am so dark. It's strange because I am not. Sure I started in a dark pit but that was just an excuse for not having written in so long. I changed it to a bright pit. I have been busy and when I am not busy my mind is all over the place. words travelling here and there not just mine but others words too. I think I have a chorus for the new song. The newer songs are tough because the verses are so high and energetic. Then I get to the chorus and need more. My mind has more arms than my body. I think it is holding me back. Infernal flesh. Though it is a good thing I suppose because sometimes I can't find enough to keep my two hands entertained. My mind is tired of playing the eternal host to my body... it's all about making my body comfortable. Maybe it's really all about making my mind comfortable and my body is constantly struggling. My mind is in denial. I'd meditate on that but I have such trouble keeping still.
this is my music: HUM and that kid from Pittsburgh... I am so bad w/ names. (1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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5:10 am - My Browser is being odd.
The moral of the story I originally typed.
I would rather make music that is horrible sounding and misunderstood than play something that has been nearly done before.... and on that token probobly done better before.
unless they pay me a lot... it is a job afterall.
-----This is a shortened version of a scott kockler thought transcribed by scott kockler------
....And like a bottle rocket he fizzes for a moment and then launches into the air with a whistle.....
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Monday, September 15th, 2003
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6:41 am - Old entries
I was reading old entries and one quote of mine that I really liked was "Sometimes it gets to my head and other times I realise it should."
another thing that amused me was the story of running into the gestapo and her daughters. I finished by saying I didn't even let them know they could get an FMGreen cd for 10 dollars (this was back in the day) and as it turns out they got one at fatastics for like 14 in december.
Still reading old posts and all I want to know is what is wrong with me? In the fisrt month alone there were two situations involving groups of people in desparate situations killing off a member of the group for thier survival..... GW 15 cent pieces? Clinton Halfpennys?
huh?
... Missle launching tubes are like the submarines blowhole....
....with a soft fizzle and an embarrasingly small puff of smoke I run around the corner out of sight.....
( speak your mind )
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6:15 am - Real World
I wasn't really listening to the real world theme... that was a fib. I just thought it was funny. I bet somewhere out there someone has it as an mp3..... ( ( ((Shudder)) ) ) It really wouldn't shock me. We need more tv like reno 911 and Busey. In factm if you count south park it seems that comedy central is really starting to monopolise television worth watching... except for skinemax. I don't even get skinemax. Showetime has a show that is reality tv in a family that makes porn..... they don't have sex with each other though you sick bastards... they just run a porn buisness. IT was amusing. Sending good old uncle sal out to get lube but then he takes too long xause he gets a lapdance.... did anyone see the american chopper where the son slamed into his dads truck... then they laughed about it and tore the bumper off? It seems odd concidering it was the only time they really got along.
this is my mood: that was supposed to be short
this is my music: mountain do-be-doo-be-doo-biddy-doo-doo (4 minds spoken) ( speak your mind )
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6:14 am - the clone song
ch.
I wanna clone steve so we can have a rythm guitarist
then will they want to clone me so one can sing or play drums
But we better not even think about cloning rick because
cloning rick would just be dumb
yeah
cloning rick would just be dumb.
v
We should clone you and then clone ewe too
then we'd have an audience full of just yous
and hell it'd be better than a croud of just two
so I think we should also clone you.
v
We should clone natalie portman we certainly should
so that the geek rocks kids could all get a date
we could have a tv show where you try to figure out the real one
you'll see it soon mondays @ 8.
v
And we should clone gary beusy why the hell not
of course we run the risk of all getting shot
by an army full of garys and not half of a clue
of what the heck they were spose to do
this is my mood: insane like gary
this is my music: the real world theme ( speak your mind )
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5:54 am - untitled song
first v.
the view from up here is unobstrcted and clear
I never knew we'de see so many stars from up here
It's so quiet except for the hiss of our air
and my ass doesn't seem to want to stay in this chair
pre ch.
We're the healthy on oxygen tanks
with muscles that wither away
the astroni always give thanks
because the children will always say
I want to be an astronaut
When I grow up
I wanna go on a spacewalk
and they're always looking up
ch.
But these things we never hear
cause astronauts don't write songs
no no
astronauts don't write songs
second v.
Out here it is certain how fragile we are
we are all bubble boys in our oxygen jar
while down on earth technology thrives
up here it's the only thing that keeps us alive
ch.
But these things we never hear
cause astronauts don't write songs
no no
astronauts don't write songs
last v.
around and around and around, i can't see the ground
were slowly spining and coming back down
weightless and waiting for the signal to arrive
then we'll fire our ohms and drop out of the sky
ch.
But these things we never hear
cause astronauts don't write songs
no no
astronauts don't write songs
this is my mood: awake
this is my music: only the voices in my head (1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Sunday, August 3rd, 2003
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6:32 pm - Fine I will post more.
But I don't have much to say right now. Except today I climbed around like a spider monkey.
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Friday, August 1st, 2003
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1:04 am - just logging in
wierdness but I still rock.
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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2:28 am - The Greatest team ever!
Liz and I went out to play darts tonight and when we got there realised that we had to win the board to play. While sizing these guys up I noticed that they were A: drinking rolling rocks and b: finished a game in 9 rounds. Needless to say we kept the darts I own hidden away. We lost the first game miserably with a good comback at the end but it was too late. Then we proceeded to destroy them two games straight and they retreated out the door without even finishing the beers they had. Rolling rocks no less.
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Thursday, May 8th, 2003
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3:15 pm - The Little Imagineer
I wish I could tell you the story or describe even the setting of this story. I fear too much of it would be lost in the translation. He loved nature and surrounded himself in artificial reproductions of all the beautiful things he found in the forest that was his yard. He would run through the forest in awe but he never looked back. One day he took his sister into the forest and she ran behind him. She kept up at first but then started to fall behind. As she fell behind she noticed in his wake all of the life drained out of the plants around him. She told him and he picked up a pumpkin and watched it turn yellow and lifeless in an instant.
( speak your mind )
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Tuesday, May 6th, 2003
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3:38 pm - umbrella
I want someone to hold an ubrella over me except when it's raininng.
( speak your mind )
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Thursday, May 1st, 2003
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12:08 am - Lyrics/song ideas.
First I have a bit from somewhere It may just be a real song or in a notebook somewhere... not sure\
It's too late, it's too late
Our(it's) velocity is too great
I just did that to make steve think I have a bunch of intellectual lyrics coming.
HEre is a little free form stickies off the top of my ass hairs lyrics I came up with in the form of verse verse verse bridge chorus.... though that's not the order and I'm not so sure about the chorus or the bridge.
don't forget because the elephant remembers
lets pack our trunks and get out of this town
you can't come with we aren't accepting new members
but you can join in tonight and help us party it up
it's not to late to have a grand celebration
we've just warmed up and the weather has too
it's a right of passage not unlike graduation
the summers coming and we hope you are also
the wheels are rolling on our very own one night express
to places far and wide beyond all we have seen
if you get to drunk just keep your anger supressed
round here theres no ecuse to be such an asshole
time ticks away unoticed
so much fun is had the drinks go untouched
if something goes wrong you know we'll fix it
there are no train wrecks when your up in the sky
next stop, a new way to dance
all aboard just give it a chance
I'd show you how but right now I'm busy
just look around and you'll know just what to do
I'll admit the strenght is in the elephant trunk coreelation I feaar that the last word of the vesre thing is not obvious enough. It's kind of my fuck you to ryhming.
I have a couple of other ideas too. .I want to incorperate duck duck goose into a song so that either a: we can have a predetermined amount that kind of keeps the audience anticipating our arrival at goose. b: Or actually leave it open and have whoever is saying it say goose when he wants. I was also thinking maybe a rock paper scissors in a song thing.... we get to it and we all go rock paper scissors with some hits on them and then all just yell rock and come in with a goocher refrence after it. I want to be fun like snmnmnnmnmnmnmnmnmnmnmnmnm too but it's fucking hard being that fun about creativity. We all drew tanks growing up when we were drawing and being "creative" now I'm supposed to be fun.
P.S. Planes were always more fun to build... hardly built any cars actually but I think the models available in the places in my dream were really more car based. I bought a little hot wheels wrx tonight. Sweet.
( speak your mind )
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Wednesday, April 30th, 2003
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10:19 am - I've been having dreams about models
My dreams last night were fucked up. Models here, models there..... models everywhere. But you guys got it all wrong. Your thinking Stephanie Seymore (can that possibly be spelled right?) and models like that. But that's not what it was. IT was mostly model cars still in the boxes. And paints and glue and stuff. At one point there was a parking lot/ hobbie shop that sold models. It makes little sense to me. There were a lot of friends and family in the dreams too. Very wierd stuff. So I drove to niagara falls but we did not get in to the concert. That wasn't a dream that was real. Such a shame.
(2 minds spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Tuesday, April 29th, 2003
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2:19 pm - Counting Crows
I was going to go see counting crows tonight but now it looks like I may not. Liz posted on a CC messageboard about our problem last ngiht and some "kind" person from nigra was like I can get you staff pins but what is it worth to you. It's worth a lot but not in that way. hell, if he was smart he would have just realised that with the surcarges and everything it was already going to cost a hundred dollars for the three of us and he should have just made it easy on everyone and taken that. Shit I'd do the same for 50 and feel like an asshole for taking that much. Hopefully liz gets in touch with him. I alrwady got my 400 bucks from the musical thouugh.
( speak your mind )
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5:38 am - How emo are you......
This will not be as amusing out of context but a few weeks ago I commented that no one was more emo than kurt cobain for obvious reasons. The conversation had me thinking about a thing I read on the internet back when it was just text on a blank screen..... those were the days. anyway, it was about being punk. It went something like this.....
I'm so punk I hit myself over the head with a beer bottle.
I'm so punk I ate the broken glass and even picked a few bits out of your scull before you regaiuned consiousness....
So I want to start an I'm so emo thing. BTW, when I get interactive like this you guys are so boring.
Anyway.....
I'm so emo I wear a cardigan
I'm so emo that my band is named wallow away tuesday
I'm so emo my band name has four words in it
I'm so emo I quit the band to have more time to sit in my room
I'm so emo I'll never be understood
I'm so emo I only raise my voice in songs
I'm so emo girls like me but I never date
I'm so emo I carry tissues in my pocket
I'm so emo I have a hanky
I'm so emo that my lyrics will never meet steves approval
I'm so emo I double cuff my jeans
Stolen: I'm So Emo When You Touch Me I Cry
i'm so emo i don't use capital letters
I'm so emo that i never learned how to play guitar but it doesn't matter when I
perform
I'm so emo that when I smile and then it goes away I miss it for months
Stolen but modified: I'm so emo I can hear my cerial as it drowns in it's milk
I'm so emo I put the tional in emotional but I don't like being on public display so I
took it back
http://www.sugarinmytea.com/quiz/emoquiz.shtml
(I got not emo while trying to get emo) The last questions a gimme. Green is not a choice for favorite color. Sorry I was too lazy to make it a link.
http://www.sitinthecorner.com/Flash/xana/xana.html
Emo boy is funny because he's like us but we are not emo..
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http://www.weezer.de/
This is where I've ended up in my search
I'm so emo you all look so happy to me
http://www.not-so-soft.com/notsosoft/id6.html
emo for dummies. Many of these hit many of us too close to home. Were all working on bits and pices of stage five I think.
emogame.com
this is too much... goodnight..
this is my mood:  depressed
this is my music: hum (2 minds spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Monday, April 28th, 2003
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5:17 am - Steve fucking started it..........
one was a dear friend
one was a fighter pilet
one was a stunt man
and one was a pirate
with seven eyes between them ..........
____________________________
all this tv turns to static if you let it continue
theres no reason to watch yourself every day
The feedback will be heard for miles if you channel surf and catch your tv show
there is little room for magic if theres a camera man stading in the way
(I'm still working on where the "embedded journalists" are embedded for this song)
_____________________________
Just because I write depressing lyrics and wear a cardigan....... shit... maybe I am emo. I will add to my defense to steve vicious comments that my lyrics have always been a bit heavy and it is his twinkle toed guitar lines that make you smile when you hear them. I definatly want to come up with some cartoon song though. That way I can say gargamel and optimus prime. I got one right now where each verse has a cartoon. I get to say optimous prime and gargamel and asriel and fucking donatello. But ya'll can eat my shit. I wrote a song about what I wasn't going to write a song about in that song. Ok, I'm just pissed at steve. Maybe if he could write something that didn't in some way pine away for a girl I..... Okok, nevermind. It's all in good fun but steve make sure you get all serious and send a concise retort back via replying to this message. and udate your photo motage man I hear you got a new guitar and no pictures. I bet it's sweet. The seven eyes thing was good. See, being in a band with steve is a pain in the ass cause I feel like if I wrote a song that was all sitting on the porch in the summer..... weatching the sun go down and drinking some beers.... then I have miss represented his ass. I give up. .I'm just gunna go start an emo cover band. Or nirvanna or something. As long as I can keep my cardigan on I'm happy.
"Love me love me just say that you love me........"
this is my mood: Starting Shit
this is my music: The Cardigans (2 minds spoken) ( speak your mind )
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Thursday, April 24th, 2003
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5:16 am - I really tried to leave......
I went away to go to bed and did my usual check w/cnn to see what was up before sleeping and I saw a bit on creed. They are getting sued for a terrible show. Apperently stapp was way to "intoxicated or medicated" to get any songs right and the band knew about it and released an apology afterwards. Apparently the band is getting a bunch of law suits against them for like 56 dollars to cover tickets and parking.
Now read the other new stuff.
(1 mind spoken) ( speak your mind )
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5:14 am - This one was really an accident.
I just wanted to remind you all to keep scrolling to the other posts.
( speak your mind )
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