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Saturday, September 4th, 2004
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2:19 pm
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dear ________ ,
i'm not even sure if there are words in the dictionary to describe exactly what i think about you. so for lack of a more elegant way to put it: i think you are a worthless, manipulative piece of shit. there, i said it and this time i'm not going to feel bad about it. and to think i almost actually called you and apologized for the things i said about you before. i was almost sorry, because i thought i may have been wrong about you, but now i realize that you're just extremely talented in persuasion.
i didn't like you from the start. something was wrong. it's that feeling you get, when something's just not in the right place. like you've forgotten something but you can't figure out what. that's how i felt about you, something wasn't right. but it wasn't my place to do anything about it or say anything, so i just kept it to myself. as time went on, i was a witness to all the ridiculous shit you pulled and my disliking for you grew stronger and stronger. still not my place to intrude, i kept to myself. and then the breaking point, where i just couldn't handle you treating her in such a two-faced manipulative fashion and i finally had a reason to hate you. something to justify my thoughts from the very beginning. something to prove to me and everyone else that you really are just a worthless piece of shit.
yes, i realize that i barely know you. but that's ok. because you have so many faces i'm sure it really doesn't matter either way. i always wished that i was wrong about you, and who knows, maybe i am. i hope i'm wrong. i hope that this is all just a huge fucking misunderstanding and if so, i apologize. but i have a feeling that i'm not the one who should be apologizing here. and even if this was a misunderstanding, if you are innocent of the things you've been accused of, it doesn't change the fact that you treat my best friend like shit on a daily basis and she's constantly upset or worrying because of you. the best part is, dustin, that you KNOW all of this and you do absolutely nothing to correct yourself. you just put on an act. you lie and pretend like you're a little fucking angel and would never do anything of ill intention. and it works. it fucking words. that's what i hate the most about you. you really don't deserve her.
learn how to treat the people you say you care about. or better yet, just get hit by a train. kthanks.
sincerely,
shana.
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| Monday, July 19th, 2004
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2:46 pm - missy again.
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come on! you lick everything!
beepbeep, beepbeep
that's disgusting!
you have pizza in your hair
that is so gross
you have pizza in your hair!
oh he signed off
cool
and then didn't come back on for a really long time
::cough::
i don't think dan's ever gonna go on this stupid thing
the fuckin message board, the fuckin message board
like ten times
you should be like, you're crazy
come onnn!
ughhhhIHATEYOUSOMUCH, i hate it!
can we fix it?
i've redownloaded it like twice
do it, do it.
and on top of it all,
the good version?
i know
really?
well, he HAD it.
oh my goodddddd
:::taps foot::::
i want to go back to sleep kind of
oh my knee is killing me
i want to shower
aww!
dude!!
dude!!
TWO DAYS!! the day after tomorrow!
yeah it did.
she's still gon' be ok right?
she's a pretty girl
she just don' like me
he's a goof
i just wanna go onliiiinnee
::::yawn::::
current music: dontsavemedontsaveme, save me
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| Friday, July 16th, 2004
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12:35 am - <------conversation: w/ MISSY.
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hmm what should we talk about
ooh me too, good shit
or something like that.
gotta love em.
any specific kind?
kept bringing it back, to the slumber party
for some reason.
it probably should.
oh it will.
someone, i can't remember who
if you have a chance with
wait, what?
well yeah i know
don't you agree?
that one of his friends would say that
you wish
hahaha
YOU wish!
duuuuude
carmex
do you remember where you used it last?
oh i know
duuuude
yeah you do
oh, thanks
it's not AS good though
hahha
oh you're doing OUR conversation?
like the snare drum, listen to it
oh wow
whoops..
well we only need four.
current music: punchdrunk
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12:32 am - haven't done this in awhile. conversationaler: jarvis.
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pardon?
Did you eat some?
Why
everything tastes weird
yesterday morning
Awwww
well its bloody ha
Oof
so basically its awesome
Hahaha
Awesome
and my friends just came over
Awwww that's sweet
yea i <3 flowers
Being a girl isn't so bad
Whoa
That's serious
What boys attention are you trying to get?
Are you lieing?
i just think they are fun
I'm sure they are cute
Send me a link to the picture
Ill just look at myspace when I get home
I'm on the kick.
ohh lame
yea its your fault
kartwheels
Home from practice
what was that movie you were talking about a reeeeeally long time ago?
With fred savage and howie mandel
Get that one
i got the exorcist 3 still though!
Great
yeah its about this really weird gal
aka i was bein sarcastic, ha, youd prolly be too scared
That sounds like the worst movie ever.
Elton john is cool
you hate everything i like, haha.
o maaaaaan
I'm never comin over
Ill stay at missys instead
except im too short so i gotta stand on a milk crate or somethin
Awww
cause missys house is my house
How does that work?
Do you shower together?
Ok I didn't mean that
hahah
But do you?
Too bad
Damn girl
hah
ok
Ok?!
yupp
Whoa.
Is there room for 3 in one bed?
and we're tiny?
Ok
Daryls comin too though
I mean, you like pizza don't you?
:-D
current music: love, american style.
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| Monday, July 12th, 2004
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4:50 pm
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being sick two days before surgery is totally awesome
especially if the surgery is to help you breathe better through your nose, and you have a cold
totally awesome timing!!
current music: side walk when she
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| Sunday, July 11th, 2004
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5:33 pm
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| Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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6:09 pm - you can waste your time
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fireworks tonight.
been sittin at my house all day.
i watched tv.... i never watch tv. it sucked. i feel like blah.
current music: you can spend your life
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| Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004
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9:14 pm - i exhaaaaaaaaaaaale
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i keep sitting in this maroon swivel chair clicking links on the internet, thinking that maybe i'll click something interesting. but really the only places i go to are livejournal and crimelibrary and there's only so much i can handle of each. maybe someone updated their livejournal in the two minutes that it's going to take me to write this post and then i can go and be entertained for another minute or so, before i realize i don't even know the person i'm reading about because they're just some random gal or dude that added me because of my pictures.
i'm losing motivation and i'm losing it fast.
current mood: just another phase i'm goin
current music: thru, this time i'm sure ill lose you
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2:06 am - " try having "boone" for a middle name, b-o-o-n-e, "
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i figured i was due for a sober entry. read the subject and think about it for awhile. try it, it's actually really funny. shana boone mayrand. hahah.
my hair is short like a boy and quite damaged... i need to do something about that.
today i watched the oldest lady in the world mow her lawn. it was cute in a weird sort of way. she kept looking at me then i watched a bunch of little dudes play basketball and ride bikes. one of them was a chubby little mexican guy and he was trying to boss everyone around. i started laughing and tried to put myself in their shoes, like thinking back to being ten or something and school just getting out. things seemed a lot more fun and adventurous then. seems as though when you get older your imagination dies. things are too serious now. but being serious is not on my top five list of things i want to do right now. so some people are just going to have to fucking deal with that and stop bothering me!
we went to some stigmatic church tonight. i don't know, it was supposed to be really creepy and everyone built it up to be so sweet, but we got there and it was just like, oh okay, this is pretty lame. lori was freaking out though. i swore and everyone yelled at me and said i was being disrespectful, but fuck that. who cares if i swear. i think "jesus" has better things to do than to listen to the sentences that come out of my mouth at 11:00 at night. yeah, whatever... everyone go see the movie 'saved' and then get back to me. jena malone knows whats up.
current music: happiness by the kilowatt
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| Monday, May 31st, 2004
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3:00 am
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whatever
what the fuck ever]
i lost m yphone tonight
i lost my fuuucking cell phone
and now im talking to geoff and missy
and i want to text mike v back but i CANT
because i lOSSt my phonE
and i have nO IDEA hwere it is
and i met some funny people tonight
but some of them were sketchy
and it takes long time for 4 pople to pee
and fuck this
i need to stop updatin gmy dj when i am drunk
and whatever'ahwtatthefuckever
i probably wont remember htis
and i probably wont care
i just want to find my fucking cell phone
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| Sunday, May 30th, 2004
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3:29 am
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i owe just a little a lot money $$$$ on text messaging this month
tonight yeah work no
but phone yes i wish my battery didnt suck
im drunk as hell
apparently its cool to let peopele drinka nd drive these days
im too drunk to contineu
WHATEVER
ALCHOLCIK
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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12:08 am
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well,
fuck this, fuck this severely.
current music: i will just fuck and have no pity
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| Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
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3:20 am
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girls in stupid hats,
fat girls wearing clothes they shouldn't be wearing,
guys in cheesy sunglasses,
mexicans that don't speak english,
people that thing they are the shit because they know all the words to every rap song on the radio
well fuck!
i just summed up my night at work perfectly!
i wrote nate a 3 page note
texted a little
talked to the boy in the lame sunglasses for far too long
saw candace's brother and sandro, familiar faces i was pleased to see
and that really funny security guard leon
that guy is a riot
i think he has braces still, which makes him even more of a riot
this is
re
dick
you
lus
current music: whatever dudes
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| Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
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9:13 pm - THE PEOPLE OF CANADA WELCOME YOU
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more car rides,
more conversation ---------------------------------------->
we really are rockstars
not playing them
this is our anthem
missy, drive straight! my stomach hates you
can i hit it in the morning
you got anything else thats good like this?
FUCK COCAINE HARDCORE!
his voice is so smooth
kazam!
ha ha hA HA HAHAAHHAHA
i watched the NKOTB cartoon religiously
aint nothin but a gangsta party
does it have the KM at the top?
we just got gas
thats all i have to say
i don't have any conversation starters
that sign back there said sexton and this one says middlesex
ask george
until my eyes are swollen shut
this wind sucks
WATCH!
i never feel like i'm in another country
guess who's going to see ETID right now
oh my god this is so amazing
ontario. on-tari-OH!
how's that sound, huh?
it's really hot in here lets turn it up
ducks eat for free at subway
i hope they have other shirts
this is ridiculous
i dont understand these signs
its legal for women to walk around
what if theres girls like that at the show
why cant they make a seatbelt you can wear while you're laying down
this turn has got to stop
65 aint nothin'
i shouldnt be awake right now
its horrible, i feel like i'm in a haunted house
i hate smorgasboards
missy doesn't know ZAO
DEAR TIFFANY!
401 towards toronto, AND FOOD!
beg for sleep
this is like our tour journal
theyd be like what the hell
a couple miles off
dont they know ANYTHING about fast food?
ridiculous!
cause mike and i are supposed to go later
woah, wait
why are the roads pink?
its better than the yellowbrickroad
reclinable backseats
there we go, lay down seatbelt!
are you calling me a whale?
follow the pink road
current music: i keep blacking out?
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9:12 pm - you really ought to give iowa a try
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car ride to iowa
lori shana missy
#
we can start a riot back here!
what is that kid doing?
hahahah!
shana, shana!
you guys are liars
what the fuck state are we in?
i feel like i'm playing frogger
thats a sweet car
what?
the people of illinois welcome you
fuck you, illinois!
shit, cant sing along anymore
aww... he's so... aww
what are you writing down?
the fat girl who dropped her pants
i don't know
i don't know how much yet
biggest gangsta ever
hahahah
busta rymes dude!
what up now!
and he's gonna be cooking for me
nah man im oo show
ill tell yu when its done
FUCKING CONTACT!
is this the felix one?
look! new york!
see if it says anything about taking pennies
ahhh~
im gonna do it when we stop
holy fuck i'm stuck
do you know how much trouble we'd be in?
and then i'd die
WHAT did he just say?
i dont know the words
its a new creation
whatup dude!
WAAAOOOOOOAHHH
he has to pass us just to check us out
damn
wake up lori haha
at least we left lori at the smoke shop!
look it's 15 mile
that's good to know
i'm WAY past .08
no
can i use some?
uhoh. oh no. oh oh oh /
see i told you we should have played that one
the guys with america on their car
holy fucking shit! oh-my-god!
maybe they really did leave me
thats the worst part
it didnt even have a bell
ow, bitch
i'd light my hair on fire
bob barker and bob marley!
come on down!
sorta looking chipmunk
back to back
it's totally different?
lori is a CD licker
she licks CDs
why is that so amusing?
i was gonna say that
well, good!
i don't think it's gonna work
well, good!
remixing it!
i wanna go see them!!!!
awww, motherfucker!
prairie ridge for prairie dogs
haha we all did that
while you're driving 100mph
erra erra remix
ttttretarded
that's why i cleaned it
we can share raisins
i want my own raisins
turn that shit up!
hey whats up?
look how long my tongue is
you already did
2 lanes
theres a city called sandwich
that was fucked up
eeeEEEEEEeeeeeeeeee
AAAAAAaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAA
HAHAHH!
you're fucking it up!
she's still going!
this is not fucking youth choir!
what time is it?
did i miss the 5:00 free crack giveaway?
i don't do crack
are you gonna do the high guitar part again?
achoo
ohhhhhh shit!
seriously! seriously!
he's developed a bad studder he hasnt told you about yet
dodoodooooodoooooo
it's a prarie, get it straight
that sign says do not pass
but where the fuck am i gonna pass?
a performance
achoooo
:::slaps leg repeadedly:::
sars, what the hell
why cant the sunroof take up the whole roof?
owww fuk!
awww
my bobby pins
don't eat them
i'm full
current music: more conversation motherfucker
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| Friday, May 14th, 2004
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1:30 am - how can you sleep at night>?
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i have not graced deadjournal with my presence in quite sometim ebecause i kind of forgot it existed. but right now i remember it mainly because of bud light and boredome and being tired but not tired enough to actually sleep.
tonight was really niceBY THE WAY
im listeing to YOUR DAILY DOSE OF EMO AND OTHER THNGS THAT STRIKE MY FANCY THAT SHOULD STRIKEYOURS TOO
yes i title my mixes and yes im retarded goodnight
current music: dont apologiiiizie
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| Thursday, April 29th, 2004
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2:05 am - im feeling more and more and more ...???????
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some people are really fucking annoying, and where the hell is my carmex? by the way, i'm bored and i have to pee and once again SOME PEOPLE ARE REALLY FUCKING ANNOYING
fuck you too bitch call the cops
current music: im falling deeper and deeper
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| Friday, April 23rd, 2004
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1:41 pm - and i live in hopes
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paper trails of the undead?
random grave, place of death, autopsy photos/report... resurrection?
deadjournal is killing me here.
so is this excruciating fucking migraine. i'm going on three days in a row, baby.
the bleeding, in past tense, tonight.
hi mindy.
current music: that i can live up to me
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| Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
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2:51 am - soonenoughillliebymyselfandiii
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i knew this was a really really bad idea
but what happens when really really bad ideas are also really really good ideas at the same time?
or maaaybe it's 'what happens when really good ideas are also really bad ideas'? that changes the meaning a little i think.
either way,
i'm just having fun, is all..........
...........................
current music: ifellinloveinhellanditissimple so distressing ::::::
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| Sunday, April 18th, 2004
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3:25 am - lori lori lori lori lori_______
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i dont think ive had raspberry
never heard cinnamon
hahah ew no
but i am packin on the pounds
oh, too bad, i want you to ruin your life so bad
at the mall today
hes a goof
so i acted like i got really offended
i think you're georgeous.
why are you trying to take my place, i'm the only one allowed to be a compulsive liar.
im sleeepy
this is bad
yes u nerd
i feel bad now
dude, yes you areeee
you make absolutely no sense
that was like 2839472389 days ago
current music: ______lori lori lori
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